Yes, it's a double update.

Yuri POV

"Were you really pregnant?"

Stephanie then pushed Jessica away lightly. She tried to stand up on her own. She just stood while sobbing. She never dared to face me.

"Everyone tells me it was false. That, you really never were..."

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"Why aren't you answering me?"

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"Stephanie!"

She suddenly burst into tears again, almost like she's in delirium.

I looked at Jessica. "Jessica, answer my question."

She looked away. She burst into tears too.

The thought started to befuddle me. Tears began to roll down from my eyes too. "Was it true, Jessica?"

Still looking away, she nodded in response.

I gazed back at Stephanie. "Wh-where's our child?"

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"Where's our child?"

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I went closer, "Where's our child, Stephanie?"

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She stopped from crying. Her expression suddenly turned empty... dark... cold.

"Yuri..."

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"Why did you have to fake your death...?"

"I... I did not... I was..."

"Because of you, I lost him."

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She laughed bitterly, "For all along, I blamed myself. But, no. It was your fault. You're the one who decided to hurt me... despite knowing how weak I am... despite you knowing that you are my weakness... You tormented me."

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"You made me live in hell."

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"You killed him."

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"You murdered him." She looked at me with so much hatred, "You killed our son." she spat. She laughed bitterly, yet, with her bursting into tears again.

"I hate you." she declared. She glared at me. "I hate you!" Suddenly, she assaulted me. "You killed my son! You killed him!" She kept on hitting me. I couldn't defend myself, perhaps, I did accept her hatred.

I almost stumbled on the ground as she continued on hitting me. The others tried to break her away from me. She was successfully pulled away by Yoong and Taeyeon. Sooyoung and Sunny assisted me.

"Because of you! It's all because of you!" She broke down. She sobbed harder. Her knees seemed to have weakened. The others assisted her on sitting down on a chair. She then buried her face in her palms as she cried her heart out.

"It hurts. It so much ing hurts..."

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She held her head on one side as she reminisced, "It was that day... that ing horrible day..." She stared into nothingness. "May 30. I was scared because he was coming out earlier than expected. But, mom assured me he will just be pre-matured, he will still live..." She smiled bitterly. "I felt relieved. Then, a little happy because Yoong reminded me that our son will have the same birthday as him. I felt calmed. I felt excited despite the pain I was feeling... But, then... But, then... when he came out..."

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"I heard nothing... He was not crying... there was not even a little sound... his eyes were closed... his skin was so pale and darkened... No heartbeat. No pulse. He was not breathing."

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"He was lifeless..."

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"I... I battled out the anesthesia that was injected in me. I wanted to see... I wanted to make sure before I lose my consciousness, he will be revived by the doctors."

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"I couldn't take it. I couldn't believe it. I denied it within me. I kept on pleading for someone to help."

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"I was praying so hard, wishing, hoping, desperate for a miracle... But then... but then God was deaf... He couldn't hear my plead..." Tears dripped down from her eyes again. "I begged for him to take my life instead. Make our child live. Make him live, survive instead of me. But..."

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"God didn't listen to me. He never did. Our child could no longer be revived."

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"He was then cold. He became rigid as a stone."

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She cried harder, "I didn't even get to hear his first cry... I didn't even get to listen to his voice... I didn't even get to see his eyes open up... I didn't even get to embrace the warmth of his body..."

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"It ing damn hurts..."

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"I lost my mind... I lost my heart. I lost my soul."

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"I lost my everything." She looked at me. "You asked me that one, right? On that day, the day we met again." She chuckled bitterly. "Bucketful of tears? My everything was not only my bucketful of tears. It was him. Our child."

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She lowered her head, "Our precious child..."

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"I've been living inside a nightmare. When I'm asleep... even when I'm awake... I became insane."

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"Until now, his death is still killing me, Yuri. For four years, it still ing crushes me. There was never a single day the nightmare of his death didn't torment me."

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"He didn't deserve to be born dead. He didn't deserve it... The both of us should be the ones dead and not him..."

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She stood up and walked slowly towards me. She stopped in front of me and asked, "How does it feel, Yuri...?"

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She poked my chest, "Does it burn...? Does it hurt...?"

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"It's damaging, right?"

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"It's heart-wrecking. It's tormenting."

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She mocked a smile. "But, yeah... Would you ever feel the same as I do...? I know it is the otherwise. Am I right?"

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"Nothing. You feel nothing at all."

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"It's because you chose this to happen..."

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"You chose this, right? You chose to hurt me. You chose to leave me. You chose to run away on your own."

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"Only because you didn't want to be with me anymore. Because you have grown tired of us. You decided to surrender us..."

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"You chose to kill our son."

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She started to head out of the place. Jessica, Yoong, and Sunny eagerly chased after her. They were too late, though. Stephanie quickly drove off the street.

I felt like I was paralyzed. The others tried to talk me out, eager to make me calm down, to ease down my pain. Yet, I could never comprehend what they are all trying to say to me. 

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"Yuri."

"Taeyeon."

"Yeah?"

"How is Stephanie doing?"

"Yuri."

"Dude, you've been asking me that for the tenth time since you woke up this morning."

"Just answer it, please."

"Yuri-yah."

"She was totally okay the last time I've seen her."

"Have you been looking out for her when I was still asleep?"

"You better drink this... water... this will help calm your senses down..."

"Yes, of course, Yul. I always have her in check."

"I see."

"Be strong, Yuri."

"How always?"

"Everyday, Yul."

"Not every hour?"

"Dude, I can't exactly do that in my position. I'm here with you, see?"

"It wasn't anyone's fault."

"How was our baby then?"

"B-baby?"

"Yuri, Tiff never meant to say those words to you."

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