Idiot… Why?

So many thoughts came into my head….

Why did mom leave me? Why couldn’t she take care of me? Why? Why did the Lee family had to pick me? Why did Donghae want to be a singer? Why did I go to America? Why do I trust people so easily? Why did I have to have my heart broken? Why am I an idiot?

“Alex?”

I looked up, and saw Leeteuk staring at me,

“It’s you” he said, and took out his phone and started to press a few buttons,“You ok?” he continued putting his phone back into his pocket, I noticed a plastic bad in his hands, probably from a convenience store,

“Completely fine” I lied,

“Just like Donghae, you cry, when someone talked to you, you lie saying that you aren’t crying when you can honestly SEE your tear stained cheeks” he sighed and sat on the bench next to me,

“Leeteuk Hyung-nim, please, I don’t want you to see me cry ok?” I got up and tried to leave, but he grabbed my hand,

~*~*Leeteuk POV*~*~*~*

He tried to leave, but I grabbed his hand… Even though I was trying to get his arm. Can a guy really have soft hands? Hm… Probably rice water… He has been cooking for us lately…

“Leeteuk hyung-nim, please let go” his voice cracked,

“I’m not letting go until you tell me what’s wrong” I said not releasing his hand, seriously, those things were soft!

“Hyung-nim, let go!” he started to pull away, ha, so weak, I pulled him back down to the park bench,

He looked scared, I looked at him and put my arm around him, which made him look even more scared.

“Lets go somewhere ok?” I tried to smile,

“l-like?” he stuttered,

“Somewhere we can take away your tears” I gave a better smile and grabbed his hand. I dragged him to a curry store.

“Why are we here?” he looked around,

“When you want to cry, eat something spicy. It’ll take your tears away from you” I tried to cheer him up, he just looked at me, “Plus this is where I usually go when something happens that make me want to cry” I sighed, “Like the only 13 fans, the ones who hate Henry and Zhou mi, or the ones that hurt my dear ELFS in 2008…” I started to get teary on that terrible memory…

“Alright, I’ll eat with you” he said, “But what’s really spicy here?”

“This place has curry level, 1 being the least spicy, 20 being the most spicy” Leeteuk pointed out,

“So what’s your highest?” he asked

“Ten! But when I’m really sad than 15” I smirked,

We sat down at the table, and ordered Curry spicy level 
#10, I was surprised that Alex didn’t even cry! Heck! He just pushed it off as it was nothing! We tried Spicy level 
#11, still nothing! 
#12 something, but only a few sips of his Dr pepper,
#13, a little bit more,
#14 still the same, 
#15 still, barely a tear, just heavy breathing, 
#16 drinking more of her dr. pepper, 
#17 same as the last one, #18 drink half of the Dr. Pepper, 
#19 hello tear action!
#20 wow, he’s amazing at eating spicy food!

I paid, and we both walked outside

“Aigo, I’m going to get fat!” Alex complained,

“Well, at least we shared. Think about eating a plate on your own!” I joked, he smirked, ha, his baby/girly face is so cute… Like a little kid, I’M NOT GAY!

“Leeteuk hyung-nim, thanks” he thanked me,

“Just call me Leeteuk, or Teukie” I smiled at him,

“Seriously?” he stared at me,

“Sorry, I haven’t been nice to you” I apologized, “From now on, you’re part of the family ok?”

“Really?” his face brightened up, “So you won’t be mean to me anymore?” he clasped his hands,

“Welcome to the family” I smirked, then he suddenly hugged me, which surprised me,

“Teukie hyung! Thanks!” he said,

Strangely…. My cheeks started to become pink… And my heart was going B-BUM B-BUM really loud.

“S-sorry! I’m from a hugging family” he laughed, I stared at Alex, that kid is weird…

“There’s one more place” I smirked,

“Where?” he asked, I grabbed his arm and started to drag him there,

We walked to this place full of cement stairs. It was a tourist attraction, but no one really came to it at night. Alex seemed tired of walking after a few steps (50 tops!) ha, thank goodness I work out!

“W-where are we going?” he panted,

“Follow me” I smirked, he listened and continued,

We walked upon a few more stairs, and then he stopped again midway,

“Hyung, I can’t anymore” he sighed, I looked at him,

“How much do you weigh?” I asked him,

“One twenty”

“Wow, gain some weight!” I said coming down towards him, “Get on my back”

“Eh?” he looked at me, I bent down

“Get on” I repeated,

“Hyung, I don’t think that would be a good idea” he stuttered,

“I know what I’m doing, I need some exercise! I need to keep my abs for this album!” I said,

“Ok!” he said and got on my back,

Aigo, that was good exercise! All those stairs! Oh gosh! Good exercise!

“Sorry” he said looking at me panting,

“N-no problem! I need exercise!” I breathed,

“But you’re really strong” he said and put his arms in a “Strong” way,

“Ha, thanks” I panted and sat down,

“So what did you want to do up here?”

“Scream” I said and walked to the corner,

“Scream?” he asked, I cupped the hands around my mouth

“YAH! SUJU ANTI FANS! NO MATTER WHAT YOU DO! YOU AREN’T GOING TO STOP US! DO YOU THINK I CARE IF YOU CALL ME GAY? OR A BAD LEADER? HA! TRY TAKING CARE OF 13 PEOPLE! NO! 13 GUYS! THEN TRY CALLING ME A BAD LEADER! AND ONLY 13 FANS! IF YOU REALLY LOVE SUPER JUNIOR, LOVE HENRY AND ZHOU MI TOO! THEY’RE FAMILY!” I yelled at the top of my lungs.

I turned around and saw Alex stare at me,

“No one’s going to hear you, I always go here when I want to scream, and walking up and down the stairs gives you abs” I looked at him, he nodded,

“Idiots… Why are there so many idiots in the world?! Backstabbers! Cheaters! Idiots! Why?! Why can’t there be one person who’s able to be trusted?!” He yelled, with his hands cupped around his mouth, he turned around and slumped down, and sighed,

“You’re done? That’s it?”

“Well the curry cooled my anger down” he joked,

“Well, you’re lucky! There’s a really good coffee place down there, we can get the green tea ice cream! But coffee first ok?” I looked at him, his face brightened up and nodded,

We headed downstairs, and surprisingly, it was easier to go downstairs then upstairs for him. We walked into the starbucks and started to drink hot green tea (Al chose it) then ate the ice cream.

“Teukie hyung, do you do this to the other members when their depressed?” he asked,

“Yup” I smirked, “That’s how I got to become known as their mom. I always try to make them happy”

“Thanks for taking care of a crybaby named Donghae” he said eating his ice cream,

“He’s the one that I have to worry about the most” Leeteuk sighed, “Then Henry, then Kyuhyun” I sighed,

“Well, I’ll help you at times ok? I won’t be a burden” he reassured me,

“I’ll take you up on that” I smirked

“Hyung-nim, are we going home after this?”

“Yup” I replied finishing the ice cream,

We both took a cab home, Alex and I walked into the dorm… Only to see Siwon kissing Kyuhyun… Seriously… This fanfiction is getter very strange by the second….