"I should go", Bom said slowly looked at TOP's fingers holding onto her hand. They'd reached the girls' apartment but it seemed like TOP didn't want to let her go.

 

 

TOP nodded and slowly let go of her hand, "Go in."

 

Bom bit her lip and looked at him one last time before opening the door and going in. She closed the door behind her and ran to her room shutting the door after her, she hit her head on the door and slid down to the floor covering her face with her hands. WHat the hell had she done?! Why did she kiss him back?! 

 

"TOP...i'm so sorry", she whispered as she hung her head low.

 

 

 

*knock knock*

 

 

Bom looked up at the door and straightened herself quickly before Cl came in.

 

"Hey", CL said quietly closing the door behind her.

 

"Hey", Bom slowly got up and sat on teh bed.

 

"Listen, chief isn't picking up and I need to talk to him", CL said quickly, "I think I might need to go to tthe station."
 

"What? No!", Bom stood up, "Are you mad? What if someone sees you?"

 

"No one's going to see", Cl said shaking he head, "I need to see him Bom, Taeyang thinks that someone in the government stole the NIS device."

 

"What?", Bom asked surprised, "WHy would the government need to steal anything from NIS?"

 

"Well it's someone in the government and Taeyang thinks that whoever it is is using the device to transport the E7 drug", CL whispered, "So I need to go see chief now!"

 

"I'll come with you then", Bom said about to grab her jacket.

 

"No, it'll be too obvious if we both go", CL stopped her, "I'll go and come back as soon as I see chief"

 

"Are you sure?", Bom held onto her arm, "What if..."

 

"I'm not going to get caught", CL sighed, "And that's why i need you here to keep an eye on things ok, don't let anyone know I'm gone."

 

"Ok", Bom nodded, "But don't be too long and ring me as soon as you talk to chief ok."

 

CL smiled and nodded and left the room.

 

 

 

 

 

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"I kept a picture of you", halmoni opened an old looking photobook and took out a small black and white picture of Jiyong as a baby, "Me and your omma took the picture in secret", she smiled as she traced the picture with her hands, "Here", she passed it to Jiyong who was sitting on the floor beside her.

 

Jiyong held the photo and stared at it for a long moment.

 

"I knew from the moment I saw your tiny face you'd turn out to be a handsome and good man", halmoni his hair, "I was right wasn't I?"

 

 

JIyong looked away slightly, he was anything but a good and fair man but he didn't have the heart to tell her that.

 

 

"You're right halmoni", Dara suddenly said as she took the photo from JIyong and looked at it, "Your grandson is a good man."

 

Jiyong looked up at her slightly not knowing what to say.

 

"He's a bit rude sometimes", Dara winked at halmoni who giggled, "and really really arrogant too", she smiled at Jiyong who looked away awkwardly, "but...his heart's in the right place", she said smiling at the baby picture of him.

 

Jiyong was having that feeling again, that feeling that only Dara seemed to give him, the feeling that he was human too, that he was worth something. 

 

 

"Is that so?", halmoni smiled at the two, "so how did you two meet?"

 

 

"We?", Dara looked at JIyong and started laughing, "We had a fight and I won."

 

JIyong cleared his throat gruffily and looked away again, pretending like he didn't care.

 

 

"How did you end up being together then?", halmoni geniunely asked.

 

"NEH?!" Dara sputtered, "Together...ani halmoni-"

 

 

"We just did", JIyong said bluntly.

 

Dara swivelled her head around to him and glared at him but he just shrugged.

 

"I'm glad you found someone Jiyong-ah", halmoni smiled warmly.

 

"But...no...huh?", Dara looked at halmoni and then back at Jiyong in a daze, "You're doing it again."

 

 

"Doing what?", Jiyong blinked at her,.

 

"Making it seem like we are together!", Dara whined.

 

"But we are", JIyong teased.

 

"I give up", Dara sighed, every single time he had this way of making her embarassed, making her sound like some sort of mistress!!

 

Halmoni laughed at the two quarrelling and sighed, "Soyeon...would have been so happy to see you two right now."

 

Dara and Jiyong quietened down and only silence filled the room for what felt like forever.

 

 

 

"Do...you have a picture of her?", Dara asked slowly, knowing that Jiyong wanted to see her but just didn't want to admit it.

 

Halmoni flipped through the old photobook again and stopped at another black and white picture, she showed Dara the picture while smiling sadly. Dara looked up at Jiyong who looked away uncomfortably, she sighed before looking a a picture of a beautiful young woman smiling brightly at the camera.

 

"That was when she was 17", halmoni smiled sadly, "It's the only picture I have of her...mianhe."

 

"She's beautiful", Dara whispered as she looked at Jiyong's omma. The resemblance was there, but this woman was so full of life, something JIyong was missing. SHe traced the picture with her fingers and smiled, she looked up to JIyong JIyong looking at the back of the photo, she placed the photo on the floor and slowly slid it to him.

 

JIyong immediately looked up at her, but her face was smiling softly at him, wanting him to let go off everything and just look at the woman who loved him more than anything in the world. Jiyong clenched his jaw and slowly picked up the picture, he took a sharp breath as he finally saw his mother.

 

 

"She was beautiful wasn't she?", halmoni said his hair. 

 

Jiyong furrowed his brows and kept staring at the picture, unable to take his eyes off the smiling woman in the picture. To him this face should be that of a stranger's but he felt this familiarity just by looking at her. He felt this warm glow from her smile, a motherly smile.

 

"She was always so happy, always full of life", halmoni continued to speak, "she wanted so much from the world...but the world wasn't fair to her...nothing was fair for her."

 

 

"how...did she...she...", JIyong couldn't carry on and had to clench his jaw again to stop himself from crying.

 

 

"cancer", halmoni said weakly, "we didn't know until it was too late...there was nothing we could do...."

 

 

Dara looked up at JIyong as his eyes filled with tears, he nodded slowly still looking at the picture of his mother.

 

 

 

Halmoni wiped her own tears and sat up, "It's getting late, there isn't much room but you can sleep in my room tonight-"

 

"No", JIyong stopped her, "Don't trouble yourself, we've got a room in town."

 

"But-"

 

 

"Halmoni is right Jiyong", Dara said, "You should stay with her tonight."

 

 

"Dara you're staying too", halmoni corrected her.

 

"Neh? No please I don't want to trouble you", Dara shook her head.

 

"Really it's fine, we'll come back tomorrow morning", Jiyong said as he started getting up.

 

"But...but", halmoni held onto his hands tightly afraid she'd lose him again, "...you will come back right?"

 

Jiyong held onto her hands tightly, "I'll be back tomorrow...halmoni"

 

Halmoni's lips trembled when he said halmoni, no one knew how much she'd yearned for him to call her that, for him to be next to her. SHe hugged him tightly, "I found you finally...i found you."

 

Jiyong hugged her back slowly.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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"Cl, did you see him?", Bom paced back and forth in her room as she talked to CL over the phone.

 

"Yeah, sorry I took so long, I'm on my way back now alright"

 

"Thank god, what did chief say?"

 

"He said he'll look into immediately, and if this is true then we need to do it discreetly"

 

"Ok, just hurry back arasso"

 

"Neh, did anyone notice that I was gone?"

 

"No I don't think so, Minzy's gone to bed already"

 

"Ok I'll be back soon arasso"

 

"Ok", Bom hung up and sighed with relief.

 

 

 

 

*ring ring*

 

 

Bom hurriedly looked at her phone thinking it was CL but it was TOP. She hesitated whether to pick it up or not, she sighed and threw her phone on her bed not picking up.

 

 

*ring ring*

 

 

Her phone went off again and she looked at it longingly at the phone, she covered her face in fustration before going to pick up her phone, she held the phone close to her ear but didn't say anything.

 

 

 

"Did my kiss shock you so much you've forgotten how to speak?"

 

 

Bom smiled slightly at his joke, "...mianhe."

 

"Come down"

 

"Down?"

 

"Come to mine...please"

 

"right now?...waeyo?"

 

"I need something so come arasso?"

 

Bom bit her lip nad hesitated.

 

"Don't worry I'm not going to ask you to kill anyone", he chuckled slightly.

 

Bom pouted, "nappeun nom".

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Jiyong opened their door and entered, Dara followed quietly behind him watching his every move. He looked so tired that all she wwanted to do was hug hug him tightly until he felt better.

 

JIyong started taking his jacket off and walked into the bathroom to have a shower without saying anything to her. Dara sighed and sat by the bed, he must e angry at her for going to see halmoni on her own.

 

But what was she to do? She couldn't just let him not find out he had family. This is what he's been missing all his life, and he finally got to know he hasn't been lonely all this time.

 

Dara huddled her knees close to her and leaned her head on her knees and closed her eyes.

 

 

 

 

After a while, the bathroom door opened and Jiyong walked out while drying his hair with the towel.

 

He went to sit on the other side of the bed, his back facing hers. Dara looked behind her and sighed, he really must be mad. She got up off the bed and walked into the bathroom to have a shower and get ready for bed too.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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"Hi nurse Kim", Seungri said as he walked into the lobby of their hotel.

 

"Hello Seungri, how are you my dear?"

 

"I'm fine thanks, just wanted to see how Minyoung is?"

 

"She's fine, she missed you and CL today?"

 

"Mianhe, tell her I'll come by soon"

 

"I will, she loves the teddy bear you got her though, she doesn't leave it alone for a second."
 

Seungri smiled as he got into the elevator, "Really?"

 

"Really, anyway I'll let her know you phoned."

 

"Thank you sister kim, goodnight", he hung up and was about to scan his thumb print when the lift doors suddenly opened again, he turned to see CL running into the lift.

 

 

She looked up and saw Seungri at the same time, she looked away and tried to look calm. Seungri furrowed his brows and looked at the time.

 

"Where have you been?", Seungri asked.

 

"Me?", Cl asked back, "Um...I...went to see omma"

 

Seungri's face suddenly fell, he'd just spoken to nurse Kim and she told him Cl hadn't visited today. He looed at CL as she tried to avoid eye contact.

 

"You went to see Minyoung...at this time?", Seungri asked again seriously.

 

"Yeah", Cl lied still not making eye contact.

 

"Wouldn't she be asleep?", Seungri asked again, knowing she was lying.

 

"No she wasn't", CL lied again begging for the lift to go faster.

 

"Hm", Seungri scoffed as his floor arrived, he was about to walk out, "I knew you were a lot of things....but I didn't think you'd turn out to be a liar too."

 

CL looked at him in surprise as he walked out, CL blinked slightly and stepped out too, "What was that?!"

 

 

"What?", Seungri said still walking to his door.

 

"Lying? You don't know anything about me!", CL said following him angrily.

 

"Trust me i know", he opened his apartment door.

 

"Really!", CL walked after him, "What do you know huh?!"

 

"That right now you are lying to me!", Seungri turned back to her.

 

 

Cl clenched her teeth as Seungri walked to the lounge, "SO what if I am lying to you?!!", she followed him again, "Why does it matter to you?!!"

 

"It doesn't", Seungri threw his keys on the table.

 

"Then who are you to call me a liar!", Cl shouted angrily, "Stop acting like you know me! I don't like it!"

 

Seungri sighed heavily and shook his head, still not facing her.

 

"You think you know me just because of my mum-"

 

"Don't bring Minyoung into this", Seungri turned around.

 

"SHe's my mother!!", CL shouted.

 

"Are you still angry that I tried to help?!", Seungri shouted back now, he didn't even know why he was so angry but neither did CL. They clearly had something between them but both denied it fustrating them both.

 

"Help?!!", CL shotued, "Giving me false hope is no help Seungri!"

 

"You know full well that doctor can help!", Seungri muttered through gritted teeth.

 

"Why are you even helping?!", CL asked, "Do you even care about my mum?!"

 

"How can you ask that?", Seungri asked slightly hurt.

 

"I told you to not help, to stay away for your own good-"

 

"GOOD? For my good?!", Seungri suddenly stepped up and held her arms, "Why?! What's going to happen?!"

 

"I just don't want you near her ok! I don't want you near her! You kill people!! I don't want someone like that-", Cl suddenly stopped when from the corner of her eyes she noticed something on the wall. She turned her head to the wall and froze up when she saw the drawing her mum had made for Seungri hanging on the wall.

 

 

"That's why?", Seungri said letting go off her arms, "Because I'm...not worth..."

 

CL looked back at him, wishing she could take it all back when she saw how distraught he looked by what she'd said. She looked back at the picture on the wall and realised just how much Seungri had grown attached to his mum, just how much he cared for her. She slowly looked back at him as he sat on the sofa and hung his head low.

 

She looked back at the picture of him...her...and her mother...what looked like a perfect family. She shut her eyes cursing at herself quietly, she slowly opened her eyes and walked to him before sitting down slowly next to him.

 

 

"...i'm...sorry", she whispered as she looked straight ahead of her.

 

Seungri looked at her without saying anything.

 

"i...didn't mean what I just said..."

 

"you're right though", Seungri sighed, "I am a murderer...i understand now why-"

 

 

"no", CL said quietly, "You don't understand...it's me...i'm scared...i've always been scared."

 

Seungri waited for her to say more.

 

"i'm always been scared to let people in...because they always end up leaving and you...you...i'm scared i'm letting you in"< CL admitted.

 

Seungri looked at her intently, he then looked down at his hands and slowly placed on top of hers, "it's ok to be scared."

 

"It is?", Cl asked back, "what if.."

 

 

"I'm not going anywhere", he said earnestly. CL bit her lip, would he still say this when he knew the truth? Seungri looked at her and pulled her gently into his embrace, "i promise."

 

 

 

 

 

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[Music: Winter love by The One]

 

 

 

 

 

 

Dara stepped out of the bathroom and looked at the bed where Jiyong was lying with his arm across his eyes. She pouted sadly before turning the lights off and slipping onto the otherside of the bed. She turned to her side so she wasn't facing him and closed her eyes.

 

 

 

 

 

 

"....thank you"

 

 

Dara slowly opened her eyes when she heard Jiyong thank her, she slowly turned her head towards him and stared at him, he still had his arm across his eyes. She slowly turned her body towards him and waited for him to say something else except he didn't.

 

 

 

"...jiyong"

 

 

 

"hmm"

 

 

"...nothing", she sighed as she placed her hands under the side of her face and watched him.

 

 

Jiyong finally took his arm away and turned to look at her, Dara blinked slightly and looked down.

 

 

"I mean it..."

 

"neh?"

 

"Thank you..."

 

Dara smiled slightly.

 

 

 

JIyong turned to face the ceiling, "...even though I know the truth now...why don't I feel any different."

 

Dara looked up at him sadly.

 

"I wasn't abandoned, and there were people that loved me all this time...but I still feel wronged...is that normal?"

 

"it is", she whispered sadly, how could she feel so much hurt for someone else...someone like JIyong.

 

 

"I still feel like my life was stolen from me...nothing's changed", he clenched his jaw tightly, "...it feels...worse."

 

Dara furrowed her brows sadly and bit her lip as she looked at him staring up at the ceiling.

 

 

 

"jiyong?"

 

"hm"

 

"There's something I've wanted to do all day...", she said slowly.

 

"What is it?", he said slowly turning to look at him with tired eyes.

 

"don't shout at me neh?", she asked geniunely.

 

 

JIyong nodded and waited for her. Dara bit her lip and slowly sat up, she slid closer to him and laid down beside him. Jiyong blinked slightly not knowing what she was about to do.

 

Dara hesitated slightly, but in the end wrapped her arm around his torso and leaned her head on his chest. Jiyong froze up unable to comprehend why she was doing this.

 

"I've wanted to do this all day", she whispered as she gently patted him, "Jiyong...it's ok....it's going to be ok..."

 

JIyong looked down at her as he softened up, he lied his head back on the pillow as Dara closed her eyes hugging him. How could a girl make him like this? Who was Dara to him anyway? A few months ago they didn't even know each other and suddenly she was here trying more than anyone else had done in his life to make him feel better, make him want to be good. Jiyong's hand slowly reached for her arm and he gently placed it there as she fell asleep in his arms.

 

 

 

 

 

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[Music: Baby don't cry by Daesung]

 

 

 

 

 

 

Bom knocked on TOP's door and waited for only a few seconds before he opened the door.

 

Bom looked up at him expectantly, "Why..did you call for me?"

 

TOP took her hand and pulled her gently into his apartment and headed straight for his bedroom. Bom realising where he was taking her pulled him back, "...wae.waeyo?"

 

 

TOP turned to her and looked at her gently making her loosen up, he then led her to his bedroom again and sat her down on the bed. He went to the otherside and lied down on the bed.

 

 

"TOP....what...what are you doing?", Bom stuttered as she eyed him nervously.

 

 

"I said I'm not going to make you shoot anyone so relax", he said in a serious tone but was obviously trying to .

 

 

Bom pouted angrily and looked away.

 

 

TOP smiled and pulled her down to lie next to him.

 

 

"yah...what are you doing?", she asked as she laid next to him.

 

 

"I've been thinking", TOP said softly, "After our kiss."

 

 

Bom looked away nervously.

 

 

"Something's not right with you", TOP said slowly making Bom look up at him quickly before looking away.

 

"That's why I've come up with a plan", he said proudly.

 

 

"What...kind of plan?", Bom looked at him.

 

"A plan to make you tell me everything", TOP said looking at her, "Bom...something's not right with you i can tell", he said seriously, " and I don't know why but deep down here", he hit his chest, "it hurts everytime I think you're sad."
 

 

Bom's lips started to tremble slightly.

 

 

"So my plan is to make you feel as comfortable around me as possible so in the end there will be no one you can trust more than me", TOP said half joking half serious.

 

 

"so...that's why you brought me here?", Bom said quietly, "forcing me to sleep in same bed with you is meant to make me trust you?"

 

 

TOP smiled slightly, "Ani, I just called you over because I missed you", he said as he edged closer to her and hugged her tightly.

 

 

Bom closed her eyes and felt the warmtn of his body, she felt so right in that moment. And more than anything in the world, she wished she could stay there with him like that forever.