"I couldn't get hold of him last night either and I tried this morning and nothing!", Daesung shook his head as the boys entered the YG headquaters.

 

They hadn't heard from GD all night last night. They knew that at times like this GD needed to be on his own, it was his way of coping with difficul situations but with such big news they couldn't help but worry about their leader.

 

"Should we send a search party for him?", Taeyang asked TOP.

 

"No he's not missing, leave it he'll come back when he's ready", TOP said somberly and walked towards the office.

 

 

*CRASH*

 

"MIANHE HYUNG!!"

 

 

The boys looked at eachother wide eyed and ran into the office where the sound was coming from. They barged into the room and found GD trying to beat up Young deuk while Tedyy, Kush and Se7en were trying to hold him back.

 

"LET GO!!!", GD growled as he tried to free himself from his three hyung, "I'M GOING TO ING KILL HIM!!"

 

"GD NO!!" Teddy struggled to hold him.

 

 

"Hyung!! Mianhe!!", Young deuk wimpered on the otherside of the room covering his bloody lip.

 

 

"I SAID LET GO!!!", GD shouted again, he managed to free himself and grabbed a gun to aim at Young deuk.

 

"NO!", TOP and Taeyang ran in to stop GD while Seungri and Daesung ran to Young deuk, "WHAT THE ARE YOU DOING JI??!!"

 

"GET THE OUT OF THE WAY!!", GD growled trying to push TOP out of the way.

 

 

"STOP IT!!" Taeyang bear hugged him as GD struggled to push him off. TOP took the chance to grab GD's gun and throw it on the floor.

 

The boys could smell the strong smell of alcohol coming from GD and understood that he wasn't in the right state of mind.  

 

 

"m...mianhe hyung", Young deuk whimpered, he'd only asked if GD needed any help because he'd found him half unconscious in the office this morning but  that had just sent GD completely off the rails, saying that he was going to kill anyone who came near him.

 

 

"Young deuk", TOP said quietly, "You go take the day off."

 

Young deuk nodded and looked at GD who had basically collapsed in Taeyang's arm, "Is...is boss going to be ok?"

 

"He'll be fine", TOP patted his shoulder and sent the guy off.

 

 

"This is insane!", Seungri hissed, "How can hyung try to shoot his own?!"

 

"It's just his way of mourning", Taeyang said as he and Se7en helped GD onto his chair.

 

"But still-"

 

"How did you mourn then?", Teddy asked Seungri.

 

Seungri paused.

 

"Didn't you get angry at the world too?", he asked again, "Didn't you wonder why everyone else got a happy life but not you?"

 

Seungri sighed and nodded, "mianhe."

 

 

"But still, I've never seen hyung this bad though", Daesung said seriously as he looked at the sleeping GD. The others followed his gaze to GD and silently watched him wondering what to do.

 

 

 

 

 

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Seungri later drove back to the hotel, he stopped in front and slammed the steering wheel angrily as he thought about how much GD was mourning, how much TOP was hurting knowing his father was still the same. He leaned his head back, the last thing he wanted was his family to get hurt and that's exactly what was happening.

 

He sighed and got ready to get out of the car when he saw CL walking out of the hotel and going by the road to call for a taxi. He furrowed his brows wondering where she was going and so he started his car engine and drove up to her.

 

 

CL startled slightly at seeing the familiar yellow car suddenly stop in front of her. She stepped back as Seungri put the window down and looked out at her.

 

"Yes?", CL slowly said holding onto her bag.

 

"Where are you going?", Seungri asked gruffily.

 

CL looked around and then back at him, "It's my week off remember?"

 

"I'm not asking you why you're not with Minzy, I'm asking you where you're going?", Seungri repeated.

 

"Just..somewhere", CL said trying avoid eye contact.

 

"Get in"

 

"Sorry?"

 

"I said get in, I'll drop you off", Seungri said leaning towards the passenger door and opening it for her.

 

"It's ok", CL said looking down the road for a taxi.

 

"Can't you just agree with me on one thing?", Seungri asked tiredly.

 

CL looked back at him and now noticed his usual mischevious expression had faded and was replaced with something else. She bit her lip and knowing she shouldn't get in still did anyway. 

 

"Where to?" Seungri said looking straight ahead.

 

CL clicked her seatbelt in place, "The...um...", she looked at him nervously, "um....Seoul...pschyhiatric hospital...please."

 

Seungri took a quick glance at her nervously looking out of the window but didn't say anything and started the car.

 

 

 

 

 

 

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"He's back?!", Minzy ran into GD's apartment with Bom and Dara behind her.

 

 

"Woah!", Daesung stopped her from running into GD's room, "Steady....he's sleeping."

 

 

 

"Taeyang shi is he ok?", Dara asked just as worried as Minzy.

 

"He's drunk", he bluntly replied.

 

Dara bit her lip and looked towards the bedroom door.

 

"But he'll live", Taeyang said as he looked at Dara curiously.

 

 

 

TOP came out of the kitchen and met Bom's gaze, she smiled warmly at him and he felt like smiling too but he looked at the floor instead. Bom furrowed her brows, he must still be upset about what happened yesterday.

 

 

"Oppa?", Minzy called out to TOP carefully.

 

TOP glanced at her and then sat on the sofa rubbing his forehead.

 

Minzy hung her head low and slowly sat next to him, sneaking glances at him anytime she could, "...oppa?"

 

"I'm going down", TOP stood up and said to Taeyang and Daesung, "Let me know if GD wakes up."

 

"Oppa!", Minzy grabbed TOP's hand, "oppa mianhe...I'm sorry!"

 

TOP sighed and pulled his hand off her hold.

 

 

"Minzy!", Bom cried out when she saw Minzy suddenly go onto her knees behind TOP.

 

TOP turned around and saw his sister kneeling in front of him, "Yah!!", he grabbed hold of her arms and pulled her up.

 

Minzy looked up sadly, "I'm...so sorry oppa...I just want you to be happy."

 

TOP sighed and looked to the side where Bom was. Bom looked at Minzy and then at TOP and nodded slowly. 

 

"oppa?"

 

TOP looked back at Minzy and finally pulled her into a hug, "It's ok."

 

Minzy smiled with relief and hugged him back. He looked up and caught Bom smiling warmly at him and Minzy.

 

 

 

 

 

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"Do you visit your mum a lot?", Seungri suddenly asked after a whole 10 minutes of complete silence.

 

CL looked at him in surprise, "...as...much as I can."

 

Seungri nodded while CL quizzically looked at him.

 

 

"What's it like?", Seungri asked again.

 

"What's what like?", CL asked back.

 

Seungri checked his side mirror before turning left into the road, "What's it like having a mum?"

 

CL suddenly remembered what Minzy had said about Seungri and how he'd been an orphan living on the streets since he was a child.

 

 

"I..don't think my mum is the same as everyone else's", CL smiled sadly.

 

"What happened to her?", Seungri asked seriously.

 

CL took a deep breath, "My parents got...into a car accident a few years ago."

 

"Sorry."

 

CL turned to face him again, he was full of surprises today. No jokes, no arguing her...obviously something was on his mind.

 

 

"Do...you remember your parents?", CL asked cautiously thinking he'd probably not say anything.

 

"No", Seungri replied, "I don't remember."

 

 

For the first time CL forgot he was a criminal, a gang member and saw him just as someone with a sad past.

 

 

"We're here", Seungri said suddenly stopping the car.

 

"Neh?", CL startled and looked out at the hospital, "oh...well thank you", CL unclicked her belt and got out of the car. She turned around and bowed to him before starting to make her way in.

 

 

"What's it like having a mum?"

 

 

"Do you remember you parents?"

 

"No...I don't remember."

 

 

CL turned back around and saw the car still there, she looked back at the hospital and sighed before walking back to the car. She knocked on the window gently.

 

 

"Did you forget something?", Seungri asked as the window rolled down.

 

CL looked at him intently for a moment, "Would...would you like to meet my mum?"

 

Seungri stared at her in confusion.

 

"I think she'd really like you", CL said smiling.

 

Seungri slowly nodded and got out of the car and followed CL into the hospital.

 

 

 

 

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Bom wanted to knock on the TOP's apartment door but her hand for the 10th time refused to knock on the door.

 

"aish!!" she stomped her feet, "Why am I even here?!!"

 

She turned away and walked to the lift but then hit her head in fustration and walked straight back to TOP's door and after a little hwaiting fist she knocked on the door.

 

No answer.

 

Bom knocked on the door again.

 

No answer.

 

Bom pouted and hit the door handle but she hit it hard enough that the door opened. She furrowed her brows, if he wasn't in then whay was the door unlocked?

 

 

 

She slowly opened the door and peered into the large apartment, "TOP?"

 

When no one replied she crept in again and looked around, she walked to the lounge and found TOP there sitting on the floor leaning on the sofa with a picture in his hand. He must not have heard her knock.

 

 

"TOP?", Bom called out slowly.

 

TOP startled slightly when he saw Bom standing there, he quickly hid the photo behind him and sat up a bit, "Is everything ok there?"

 

"Yeah", Bom answered softly looking at how distressed he looked.

 

"Then....", TOP tried to figure out why she was here.

 

 

Bom bit her lip and slowly pulled out a plastic bag full of beer and shook it slightly in front of her, "I wanted to drown my sorrows and feel sorry for myself tonight but I had no one....so I came here."

 

 

TOP smiled slightly as Bom walked over and sat next to him, she took a can of beer and handed to TOP before opening her own can and taking a big sip, "Ahhhhhh"

 

TOP smirked again and shook his head at her before taking a sip of his own.

 

 

 

 

 

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"oppa?", Minzy knocked on GD's door, "I made you some soup."

 

But no one answered.

 

"Minzy lets leave him for now", Daesung said as he took the soup bowl off Minzy.

 

"Daesung's right, and you haven't rested either", Dara said. The two girls had come back down wanting to see how he was doing but he was still in his room.

 

"But...", Minzy sighed, she couldn't handle this anymore and she barged into GD's room...only to find empty, "OPPA?!"

 

Dara looked in and didn't see GD either, Taeyang and Daesung ran in past her, "Sh!t!! Where did he go?!"

 

"Dammit! He must have gone out when we were in the kitchen!", Daesung muttered.

 

"Call TOP hyung", Taeyang ordered Daesung.

 

"No!", Minzy stopped him, "TOP oppa has enough on his plate, let's go find him ourselves!"

 

"Ok ok, you two girls stay here and we'll go look for him arasso!", Daesung said to the girls before him and Taeyang ran out of the apartment.

 

 

 

"Unnie ottoke?!", Minzy sighed as she sat on GD's bed..

 

Dara looked just as worried as she went to sit next to her.

 

 

 

 

 

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Bom opened her third can of beer and drank it.

 

"Steady on!", TOP stared at her in disbelief.

 

"Ahh!", Bom wiped with the back of her hand and looked at TOP, "What are you hiding behind you?"

 

 

TOP blinked slightly but slowly took a picture out from behind him and gave it to Bom. She looked at a photo of a young dad holding a baby in his arms smiling happily at the camera.

 

"Is...this you?", Bom asked slowly, "so cute..."

 

"Yea...with my dad", TOP sighed as he took another sip.

 

"If you hate him...why do you have it?", Bom asked.

 

"I don't know", TOP said taking another sip.

 

 

"After you left me...you went back to see him didn't you?", Bom said softly.

 

TOP picked at his can in his lap not saying anything.

 

"Did you talk to him?", Bom asked slowly. TOP shook his head and leaned his head back on the sofa with his eyes closed. Bom looked at him for a momnet before fiddling with her own can.

 

 

 

"Why did you leave the police academy then?", TOP finally asked.

 

Bom's eyes grew wide and she took a quick glance at him but he still had his eyes shut, "I...I just did."

 

He then opened his eyes and looked at her side ways as if not believing her.

 

"I guess...I stopped believing in justice", she lied not looking at him.

 

 

TOP looked at her for a bit longer before turning back to his drink, "You said something yesterday."

 

Bom closed her eyes with relief that he was changing the subject.

 

"About your...dad", TOP said quietly.

 

Bom suddenly froze up, she had blurted out about her dad to him in the heat of the moment yesterday. She shouldn't have said anything, it was one thing she detested talking about. She chose to ignore his question and took a drink instead.

 

 

"Was he like mine then?" TOP sighed taking a sip too.

 

"Something like that", Bom shortly replied, wanting to not talk about it.

 

"Something like that", he scoffed slightly and shook his head, he suddenly paused when he felt Bom's head on his shoulder.

 

 

"aahhh I'm tired", Bom sighed as she rested her head on his shoulder and closed her eyes.

 

"Yah!" yah", TOP nudged her slightly but instead she wrapped her arms around his arm and snuggled closer to him. He didn't know if she was drunk or not but it was totally unexpected of her.

 

 

"bom...bom?", he whispered softly but she didn't reply, "yah-", Bom's head suddenly tilted slightly backwards making TOP startle again. He slowly held her head and placed it to the otherside so her head was leaning on the sofa instead of his shoulder.

 

He took another sip of his drink but couldn't help but look at Bom again. TOP sighed and then reached behind her head and pulled her back towards him again and placed her head back on his shoulder, Bom moved slightly making herself comfortable as she wrapped her arms around his arm again. TOP looked at her and couldn't help but smile no matter how much he tried not to.

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Dara had finally persuaded Minzy to go back to their apartment and rest, she'd promised her she'd go back down and wait till the boys had found GD. 

 

Just like yesterday she curled her knees to her and sat by GD's door waiting for the guys to come back. She knew she shouldn't be worrying about him like this, especially knowing that she was here on a undercover mission, but what could she do if her heart felt uneasy everytime she thought about him.

Thinking all these thoughts, she fell asleep there waiting for the boys to come back.

 

 

She heard mummurs suddenly, she squinted her closed eyes as the voices got louder and closer. She forced her tired eyes open and looked down the corridor to find Daesung and Taeyang following GD. But what she saw made her feel a tight squeeze in her heart when GD was walking towards her with a a skimpily dressed girl all cuddled up in his arms.

 

Dara slowly stood up as GD walked up to her.

 

 

"We found him drinking at the club", Daesung whispered into Dara's ear but all she could do was look at him with the girl.

 

The girl giggled as GD whispered something into her ear, she then bit her lip and pulled him for a kiss. Dara took a deep breath and looked away but both GD and Taeyang noticed. GD furrowed his brows and looked at her while the girl continued to kiss him.

 

He opened his door and whispered to the girl, "wait in there."

 

The girl smiled seductively and strolled into the apartment. Dara shook her head in disgust and looked away angrily. Why was she even feeling these emotions?

 

 

Suddenly GD walked up to her, she looked up and edged back but GD kept walking to her until her back hit the wall and she was trapped. He placed his palm beside her and leaned in for a kiss. Dara turned away and caught Daesung and Taeyang trying to look away too.

 

"what are you doing?!", dara muttered still not looking at GD.

 

"Isn't this what you want?", GD raised a brow and looked at Dara who turned to face him looking horrified.

 

"What?!", Dara said angrily.

 

"Kissing me, coming to my apartment late at night, waiting up for me, getting jealous that I'm with another girl", GD explained stoically, "So if you want me to kiss you then let's do it here right now."

 

"You're disgusting! I can't believe I was even worried about you!", Dara pushed him off her. How could he say all this? In front of the guys and not to mention while he had another girl waiting for him in his bedroom. She glared at him and walked past him but he pulled her back and grabbed her arms angrily.

 

"Get off!", she muttered, "I don't know what you think but I don't want you so get off me."

 

GD smirked and didn't let her go.

 

"Get off!!"

 

"There's nothing to get jealous about", GD shrugged nonchanlantly, "I'm just going to do what everyone does and that's to use that girl, give her false hope and then abandon her just like that, if you want I can do the same to you?"

 

Dara gritted her teeth and pushed him off with force before slapping him hard right across his face. GD touched his cheek and smirked before looking at her.

 

 

"B*stard", she muttered angrily before storming off.

 

GD turned to the boys who just shook their heads before turning away too. GD's smirk finally faded when they'd all left, he gritted his teeth before entering his apartment.

 

He walked to his room where the girl was leisurely waiting for him by his bed. He stoically looked at her, "Leave."

 

The girl blinked slightly, "but-"

 

"Get out...now", his eyes flickered angrily making the girl nervously gulp. She grabbed her clothes and ran out of the apartment in a hurry. After she'd left GD sat down on his bed and fell back on his bed. He raked his hair in fustration. Just seeing Dara and the disgust in her eyes when he said those things to her made him feel like sh!t. This wasn't the first time, the time she was scared of him and called him a brutal monster he felt the same. That girl was doing something to him and it scared him for some reason.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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