woe·be·gone

     [ˈwəʊbɪˌgɒn]

adjective

Affected with or marked by deep sorrow, grief, or wretchedness.

My mind is empty.

I don’t know what to feel right now.

Is there anything new to tell you?

Maybe.

Maybe there are things that I need to share, before my time comes.

However, I don’t know if it’ll do any good.

I asked Kris whether he wanted to die with me and he said yes. Even though that never happened.

It’s only natural for me to think that he finally got what he had longed for.

I’m wrong, though. Because I know better than that.

The moment I barged through that door and shouted his name, there were two people that turned towards me. Tao had a customer right at this moment and looking at the current situation, they were just done.

The guy, I remembered him… His name was Myungsoo. I didn’t fancy him at all. He had a pretentious stare and I just had to smack that off of his face. Tao screamed and backed away, looking at how I dragged Myungsoo’s body out of the room. I locked the door and ignored Myungsoo’s knocking.

Finally I approached Tao, grabbed his shoulder and pointed my gun at his face. I pushed it against his forehead and watched his eyes turn wide.

“Spill it or I’ll shoot.” I groaned. They had awakened a beast inside of me. The poison had turned my body into a self-destructive machine that made it harder for me to remain sane each and every day.

“W-what? I-I…” he started crying right now, but I didn’t fall for that. He was girly and weak. Maybe that was the reason I had been so attracted to him. That wasn’t going to happen anymore. Whatever we had, it was over. I couldn’t trust him.

I couldn’t trust anyone.

“You have ten seconds to think all that you have done through and another ten to tell me. I’m not playing games. I will shoot you.”

“But…” his eyes were filled with nothing but fear.

“Ten…nine…eight…”

“Okay! Okay! I’m sorry! I lied to you.” he broke down, hid his face and turned away from me. I rolled my eyes and felt my own heart become heavy as well. This was not the way I wanted to die, causing fear to others, but I had to. Whoever had poisoned me needed to pay. Even if it was Tao. I didn’t care anymore.

My heart turned into stone.

“Doctor Lee didn’t set me up.” he shook his head and walked to his bed, refusing to look at my gun. The thought of me ending his life didn’t scare him as much as I had expected it would. “Just listen to me. Don’t hurt me, please.”

I walked back, until my back rested against the door and closed my eyes. I was right about the riddle. Tao was a liar. A filthy lair. How could I have trusted him? How? I seemed blind to the truth. It was sad.

“I know he’s dead. I saw…” his lips started trembling, I could almost hear his fear. When I opened my eyes I saw his hands caressing Zico’s creepy cat. It looked at me with its hypnotizing eyes. It almost seemed like it was expecting something to happen. Filthy beast.

“I watched him jump. I was dreaming, looking outside and then he fell. He fell right past my window and I watched his life fade away. Every bone in that man’s body cracked. I could hear them break. The snow turned red and his fingers moved one last time. Doctor Lee.

Zico showed up after that and someone else. I couldn’t see who. He was masked. They didn’t move the body. They just watched. Zico put something in Lee’s pocket.”