A Flawed Love

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This is a story about a former couple who shared a beautiful love, but it all went downhill when the boyfriend, Lay decided to cheat on his girlfriend. Her heart shattered into a million pieces and she couldn't face him anymore and decided to let him go. Lay regrets his actions and wants her back but she doesn't want to put herself in the same position again and ignores all his efforts of reconciliation. He doesn't want to let go and starts writing her letters, showing her that he has changed but will she forgive or forget? 

 

Foreword

My one and only love

I knew it was love, since the first time I laid my eyes on you. I adore every single thing about you, the way you laugh, the way you smile when you're around me, the scent of your hair, the way you embrace me and the way you kiss me. I simply love you, even if you get on my nerves sometimes you're the only one my heart beats for.

Do you remember the first time we met? I couldn't tear my eyes off of you, you were perfect, standing alone in a long pearl white dress. I nervously approached you, I remember when I almost tripped over myself from nervousness. When I was standing in front of you I couldn't utter a single syllable. Your breathtaking beauty had me at a loss of words and I knew from that moment on that you'd be mine and only mine and that I would never let you go. I remember it all so clearly, but do you?

How could two individuals, who once loved each other more than anything in the world become complete strangers in a flash of a second?

I want to pull you into my warm embrace again, lets' pretend that everything's okay. Just for a moment, I beg you. I know you still love me , so please let us give it another try. It's been a year since I had you beside me, a year without your tender kisses, a year full of misery and pain. I know I did wrong by sleeping with her, but I was young and foolish. I've changed, and I realized that it was the dumbest and most unreasonable move I had ever made in my whole entire life and I regret it to the core of my aching heart. I guess the saying you never know what you have until you lose itis true. I wish I could go back in time and correct that one mistake, but I know it's to late now... 

But know this I love you, from the bottom of my heart, I really do. And I'm sorry, so sorry for hurting you. I beg you for one more chance because a life without you isn't a life worth living. 

I will not stop writing to you until you reply me. No matter how long it takes, I will wait. Because my heart belongs to you and only you. 

Yours sincerely, Lay

I sat on the bed, feeling how my tears slowly dripped on the letter, erasing some of its letters. I missed Lay, with all of my heart I missed him. I still loved him but I couldn't go back, I was to afraid of him possibly breaking my heart again. This past year had been a living hell without him but I couldn't, I just couldn't allow myself to fall in love with him again. I crinkled up the letter and threw it on the floor, my tears wouldn't stop falling as I kept thinking about what we shared once upon a time. It was a beautiful love, a love hardly no one gets to experience. I trusted and loved him with every living fiber in my body but he betrayed me. I remembered it all so clearly, the feeling as I saw him laying on top of her. The way my heart shattered into a million pieces and the way the meaning of life disappeared in just a split of a second. He was my everything, the reason for my existence. I knew I would never be able to forget, maybe never even forgive but I still had feelings for him. Maybe he had changed but was there a guarantee that he wouldn't hurt me again? Was he worth it? Was he precious enough for me to possibly go through yet another heartache? I knew the answer was yes deep down in my heart but I tried my hardest to suppress that answer.

I stood up, feeling weak and ill. This was the affect he had on me, he had stirred up so many emotions that my brain couldn't quite handle it. I went to the bathroom and splashed water on my face multiple times, in hopes of waking up from this terrible nightmare called reality. I stood in the bathroom for a long time, staring at my reflection in the mirror. My puffy red eyes and the sad expression on my face made me even more depressed, if that was possible. I sighed at reflection as I dragged my body to my room again. I threw myself on the bed, not having the energy to crawl into it. I closed my eyes, trying to redirect my thoughts away from him but he would still finds his way into them again. I saw his face so clearly, his beautiful hazel eyes and his smile. Oh that smile that made my heart flutter every time I laid my eyes upon him.

When would this pain go away? I couldn't stand it anymore, I missed his warm embrace, his laugh, his everything. I cursed upon this flawed love. It's was eating me up from the inside, there was no escaping it. The heart and the mind had a life of their own, I couldn't control it, no matter how hard I tried and wanted to. 

I accepted my miserable destiny, I would never find someone like him. He was the one and only that could give me everything and then take it all away in less than a second, he had such power over me. Without him in my life felt like having a rainbow without its vivid colors. 

I took some sleeping pills as I laid my throbbing head on the pillow, forcing myself to sleep, to forget, to let go. 

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melissa4eversone #1
Chapter 1: The foreword just drives me crazy!!!
Update soon author-nim
choisooyeon #2
uhm. hey, there seems to be a problem.
well, as you can see... i was deeply immersed with the first chapter then i reached the end... and there was no 'next' button.

i hope it would get fixed soon.
OKAY HAHAHAHAHA PLEASE UPDATE SOON ♥
i love heartbreaking stories, a part of me wants to make the oc character to meet him and another part of me (a bigger one, as cruel as it sounds) wants lay to be heartbroken otl.

i'm really a sadistic, sorry for being so christian grey on you okay haha okay. ouo
NatashaVader
#3
Chapter 1: update soon! please, I beg you..
GigglesnBits
#4
Chapter 1: Those quotes tore my heart to pieces...
It was so easy to understand which made it hurt worse...

I want her to meet him though~
Even if he did cheat,she should go see him.
I know i would've been so fast meeting him,i'll be there before the required time...with no shoes on!
>___<
ChOrCeE
#5
Chapter 1: oh yixing...:(
my gosh this story... can't wait for the next update! goodluck!
GigglesnBits
#6
Lay why would you cheat~???
The sadness was killing me as i read the foreword,and as much as i want to pull away from this fic i just have to stick around!
The curiosity wont leave~!

update soon!