Sungmin POV

    That blue mountain is like my heart unchanging My love is like streams They keep flowing day and night From the mountain to the sea Same with my tears Having no end     "How dare you?!" A coffee is tossed onto my face then a slap lands on to my left cheek.   "Can you accept breaking up someone’s marriage?!"   She eyes me with an intense glare after dragging me to the wall of an empty alley. I should notice this would come before hand when she said she wanted to talk to me seriously back then. She’s our classmate. Hyukjae’s bestfriend (like she said). But I have no idea how does she know about our relationship. I and he kept all things in secret and we were sure enough that no one will find out.   She grabs my shirt “You’re curious how I find out, huh? I was just presuming but your expression told me all. You’re lucky that I don’t tell Yoona about this. I already warn Hyukjae. Yoona will come back here for holiday and I will keep my eyes on you. So please behave”   What could I do? Am I an open book. Am I that obvious? I am just remained silent. Hearing that his wife will come back to Korea feels like a thousand spikes hit my chest.   “This is for your own good. Sungmin. I still want to consider you as my friend. Just find another single man, Please!! Don't drown your self just for a short gleam of wind”   But as usual, I don’t heed her warning. Just be more careful next time because whatever my reason, no one will understand. Even him…     My happiness Not only love but pains I like rain countless the cold will always pouring the pains  and leaves the love remains So I keep going     I enter my apartment with clothes drenched by a heavy rain. I didn’t bring my usual umbrella. Maybe this is my unlucky day but I have to thank the rain. It make the burden on my shoulder less heavy. A bunch of guilts that always told my consciousness that this isn’t right.   No one will understand this. Even myself…   I take a hot shower. I refuse to look at a mirror because sometimes I imagine my own reflection talk to me.     Sungmin, stop this. You’re hurted     But I would keep shaking my head. I would keep tell it that I am happy. He will come tonight. So this time, I turns my back from the mirror, let the water pouring my body and hiding the tears from my eyes that kept coming since the rain came.   After changing my clothes, I decide to cook some dishes before he comes. I know today he have a soccer game with his juniors in high school. Eventhough he’ve never touched the food I made, I would always cook for him.   Since that day, our secret relationship have been going 4 months already. Not like an official couple usually do, we have to meet secretly. I am okay with that. Just knowing he reciprocates my feeling is enough to make me anticipate the chills of every bright morning to meet him. It's uncountable how many I would smile unconciously remembering our first kiss.    I finish cooking right after someone knocks my door. As expected, it’s him. He looks tired but still manage to give me a short smile and a peck to my forehead.   “I’ve cooked for you. Wanna have some?” I say with a welcome smile.   He carress my hair “Something happen?”   I shake my head. I remember Hyoyeon said she already warned him and of course if her words were true that his wife will come back soon, then he definitely know it all.   But I choose to ignore that and pretend don’t know anything. No one will understand. I know someday he will leave me. That’s why, even for a short time. Every seconds with him is like living a thousand years of happiness to me.   “How long you keep hugging me here? The air outside is getting cold you know”   “Ah sorry. I should close the door first. Mind having dinner with me? I cook some your favourite food”   He shake his head “I already ate with my friends from soccer club”   I sigh then go to the kitchen, pack the food with plastic wrap, then