My Choice is you

The Dull One

L felt Jaekyung stiffen and she opened to gasp, but he kissed that breath away.

His hands tightened around her waist and pulled her even closer, kissing her tenderly as he wound one hand in her soft locks of hair.

His heart was beating irregularly, and he felt like he was complete. Finally complete.

As if he had been waiting for this moment for such a long long time and he finally got to it.

L felt Jaekyung resist to his touch weakly but he knew she wasn't doing her best. Would that mean he affected her as much as she affected him?

He couldn't help the smile even as he kissed her. Damn that Sungyeol, he was just genius. Freaking genius.

He had been confused all the while, but that moment that Sungyeol told him something happened to Jaekyung, he had made his choice.

Because even if he wanted to, he wouldn't be able to stay away. Deep down, he had already made his choice long ago and he didn't act because he was afraid.

But the moment when he thought something happened to her, that fear, that anxiety, that cringing of the heart....he didn't think that was just lust. He couldn't be more sure at that moment, in all uncertainties in love this was the only thing he could say without a tinge of doubt:

He loved her.

Jaekyung on the other hand was surprised beyond words. She hadn't expected for him to turn up all of a sudden. She hadn't expected for herself to miss him when he didn't talk to her that much. She didn't expect him to lean down to claim her lips, just like that.

Like it was something he had wanted to do for so long.

His desire, he wasn't acting. Jaekyung could feel it from the way he held her tightly, the way his heart thudded so quickly in his chest under her palm, the way his hands held her nape of her neck as he kissed her.

She couldn't help but close her eyes and lean into his touch even though she tried to resist. She couldn't help sighing into the kiss even though she didn't respond. She couldn't help but feel like she died and went to heaven.

She couldn't help but realize, what she had missed for so long:

She loved him.

The acknowledgement to herself made Jaekyung feel strangely exhilarated and she wanted to squeal for some odd reason. And then she remembered.

L was Chaekyung's boyfriend. Chaekyung was in love with him. She was Chaekyung's sister.

Chaekyung Chaekyung Chaekyung.

Jaekyung tore herself away from L, gasping loudly and backing away quickly. L's face fell at her actions and he made a grab for her, but she dodged.

"What are you doing!" Jaekyung tried to shriek but she didn't have much of a voice left after a kiss like that and it only came out as a whisper.

Jaekyung's eyes darted everywhere but at L and her hands flew to her lips. "Oh my gosh. I can't believe I kissed you. Oh no. Oh no."

"Jaekyung, please can you listen to me?" L moved forward to grab her hands and held them to his heart. "Listen to me, please?" he murmured, his eyes seeking hers.

Jaekyung gulped, her heart thudding fast. Why must he look at her like that? Why must he be so darn perfect? Why must she fall for him out of so many guys in the world!!!

"You better have a good reason for this." Jaekyung threatened weakly, trembling slightly. Her knees were about to give way any moment, and L knew. He held a firm grip on her hands and the other on her shoulder.

"Jaekyung, I know this is going to be shocking. I know you might think badly of me there after. But I also know that if I don't do this, I'll regret it for life." L whispered fiercely, staring into her eyes.

"Jaekyung, I have never loved Chaekyung." L murmured. "I never liked her with any feelings more than how a brother doted on his sister. I was so stupid to never have seen it from the beginning, and I foolishly thought I could grow to love her if I tried hard enough. I couldn't."

Jaekyung trembled. "No you can, if you try hard enough-"

"Do you realize how hard it was for me to even kiss her cheek?" L questioned. "Do you remember my question? That'll make you happy if I kissed her? Remember?"

Jaekyung swallowed.

"I did that for you." L whispered. "Because you were bothered. Because you asked me about me. Because I wanted to make you happy and when you told me that if I kissed Chaekyung, you would be, I really tried to do it."

Jaekyung felt like butterflies were squirming madly in her stomach and the feeling of dread and exhilaration at the same time was beyond understanding.

She had an idea where his speech was going. The Lee Jaekyung inside was squealing madly with delight to find that the guy she loved might return her feelings.

The Lee Jaekyung who was an elder sister wanted to kill herself for that.

"Jaekyung, I think you have an idea what I'm about to say." L made him look at her, cupping her cheek. "I know I shouldn't have taken such a long route for this, I shouldn't have accepted Chaekyung, I should have discovered this sooner. But that's all done and I have to do my best to right things."

"You're the best thing that has ever happened in my life, I don't know why it took me a freaking cupcake and a prank for me to see it. You realize I have so many more things to talk about with you than Chaekyung? You realize I yearn for every second with you when I can even overlook Chaekyung when she's around me? Lee Jaekyung, do you know what I'm trying to tell you?" he pleaded for some form of positive response.

Jaekyung squeezed her eyes shut and closed her eyes. *Please don't say it. Once it's out in the open, I can't pretend I'm not in love with you. Please don't, it'll change everything.*

"I love you, Jaekyung."

Jaekyung choked a sob and her knees gave way. L held onto her tighter and hugged her with every bit of strength he had. "Jaekyung please tell me those are happy tears." L whispered. "Please don't tell me I'm alone in this."

Jaekyung sniffled and pushed herself away, backing to the wall. "You can't do this Myungsoo. It's wrong."

"I know it is. But can you honestly tell me there's a mistake that feels more right than this?" L asked earnestly. "This is a mistake because I'm with Chaekyung right now. But in truth, me being with Chaekyung is the mistake, I'm just correcting it."

Jaekyung shook her head and closed her eyes. She wanted to stay in his arms so badly, the warm from his hands were comforting, his embrace was addictive. Her skin felt cold and bare just seconds after she backed away.

"You can't do this, Myungsoo. It's still wrong. Chaekyung will be heartbroken." Jaekyung croaked. "Just forget about this and let's pretend it never happened."

"Can you pretend you weren't ever born?" L questioned. "Because as sure as you are of how you're standing in front of me, I'm sure I love you. There are so many mistakes in this already, Jaekyung. The next right thing for me to do is to stop misleading her, and break up with Chaekyung."

Jaekyung's eyes widened. "You can't! She'll be devastated!"

"I know but I can't be bothered about that right now!" L closed their gap. "What I'm concerned about is you. Jaekyung I've bared my heart to you, can't you even hint on what you feel about me? I don't believe I'm alone in this, this thing between us feels too real to be fabricated. Please, tell me." he cupped her cheeks and made her look at him.

Jaekyung swallowed. *I love you. I love you. I love you.*

"I don't love you." Jaekyung whispered weakly.

"You're lying." L murmured, not even flinching. "I know you too well, Jaekyung. Don't lie to me, don't lie to yourself."

"I don't love you." Jaekyung said again with more conviction, but was utterly disappointed when L didn't even blink. He didn't believe her. At all.

"Whether you believe me or not, I forbid you from breaking up with Chae." Jaekyung said, struggling hard for her voice not to break. "If you do, I'll never talk to you again."

*She's serious.* L knew as he stared at her. "You can't do that, Jaekyung. It's wrong for me to stay with her when I don't love her. My choice is you, it will always be you. So stop fighting it."

Jaekyung closed her eyes and wrenched herself away. "I said what I meant. If you choose to break up with Chae, be prepared to forsake our friendship."

With that, she stalked out of the door.







Jaekyung never cried as much as she did that night.

Oh of all ironies in the world, why must she fall for L? Why why why! There were so many mixed feelings, so many contradictions.

She wanted for him to stop this nonsense and continue being Chaekyung's boyfriend, but she also wanted him to fight for her. She wanted to hear those words again. She wanted to see those eyes look at her like she was the only person he could see.

"How did things become like this?" Jaekyung groaned.

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"Jaekyung, let's go for lunch." L grinned at her and tugged at her wrist. Jaekyung stared at his hands and swallowed, feeling the familiar cartwheels her heart was doing.

Exactly three days had passed since L told her he loved her.

Three days of him trying to get her to react to him.

Three days of her trying not to react around him.

It was hell.

No matter how cold or fierce Jaekyung was to him, L wouldn't budge. It was like he could see through her entire act, her facade, her soul.

It was like he knew she loved him back and was just waiting for her to admit it.

And it was getting harder and harder for Jaekyung to avoid him because, God, how she wanted to just bury herself in his chest as he murmured sweet nothings in her ear.

The first time she fantasized about something like that, she was shocked and scolded herself fiercely.

And then those thoughts kept coming and by the end of two days, she gave up and continued dreaming.

"I don't want to." Jaekyung mumbled, keeping her eyes on her book. "I have my lunch right here so I'll eat here."

The Infinite boys watched in interest. They knew L confessed, they knew Jaekyung rejected him. And they could see she like him back.

It was so interesting to watch, really, as L struggled to get closer to her and she tried to run away. They were going in circles.

"Okay then I'll stay here with you." L sat back down and took out his own bento. He grinned at her.

Jaekyung frowned. "No you should go, Chae will be there."

L gave her a look. "Do you want me to say it out loud right here?" he asked. "Because I told you I'll be where you are because I lov-"

Jaekyung smacked her had on his mouth and L grinned, kissing her palm. Jaekyung gasped sharply and retracted her hand, sending him the fiercest glare possible.

*Cute.* L chuckled softly.

"I'll go to the cafeteria with you guys." Jaekyung mumbled, muttering a string of curses under her breath as she followed the Infinite boys.

Woohyun gave L a thumbs up and L grinned.

He wasn't too sure of how she felt about him at first. But then he realized, she could possibly love him back too.

Because the Lee Jaekyung who was in love with him would have acted exactly the way she was.

And the Lee Jaekyung who was Chaekyung's sister would have given him a slap on his face.

Seeing how his pretty cheeks were bruise free, he knew how she felt.

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Chapter 70: She’ll really be Mrs. Kim. No questions there
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Chapter 58: Finally she said it back!!
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