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Title: Yours to Hold

Author: Kayaris

Pairs: BaekSoo (Main) - KaiSoo - BaekHun // some HunHan and maybe SeKai..

-          It’s because you never really forget about your first true love.

For as long as Baekhyun can remember, Kyungsoo had always been there. He was there in kindergarten, proudly building some sandcastle that looked a bit weird and imperfect and which was later destroyed by little Baekhyun with much joy and laughter. Kyungsoo cried heavily back then and hit Baekhyun with his shovel, making the latter cry even harder what got Kyungsoo into trouble with the educator way too often.

He was there in pre-school when both of them started to learn counting, writing and a first few parts of reading. They sat next to each other, drawing on a single piece of paper together, creating a peaceful place with a huge lake next to a lonely wooden house in the middle of a beautiful forest that existed somewhere in their fantasy. It was the beginning of something both of them wouldn’t have ever dreamed of, something that others will never understand.

In the twelve years of school, Kyungsoo was also always there.

He was the first one knowing about Baekhyun’s biuality in ninth grade and the first one tasting Baekhyun’s lips on an uncomfortable bed in their dark room of a youth hostel when they had a school trip at the age of sixteen. Kyungsoo was the first one ever coming out of the closet in the cafeteria of their school when he confessed to Baekhyun right in front of everyone. And Baekhyun gladly accepted, making both of them to the target of society and also their friends, which in fact weren’t such good friends in the end.

Kyungsoo’s parents made him leave the house, telling him you’re not our son anymore, come back once you’ve made up your mind and so he started to live with Baekhyun and his father, Baekhyun’s mother had already passed away at his birth. But it drove them away from everyone else, both of them getting bullied at work for being gay and different.

They coped well with it for two years, Kyungsoo twenty and Baekhyun twenty-one years old, until one day two policemen came to deliver one of the most terrible messages Baekhyun ever received in his whole life. His father had a heart attack that morning, they said and he passed away in the hospital shortly after.

Kyungsoo was the first one to hold him and to wipe away his tears, to make him stop sobbing and to tell him I will be there, I won’t leave you. Baekhyun slowly calmed down but the sudden death of his father made him quit his job at the agency and Kyungsoo let him, because he wanted to give him space and some rest. It was not long after that Baekhyun decided to go back to school and all the bad things started to happen all over again. Kyungsoo was the one of them who tried to not care about what others said even though it still hurt and made it hard to become happy. Baekhyun on the other hand was crying every night, staying awake for hours and hours talking to Kyungsoo about what happened and how much it destroyed him inwardly.

It was one of those nights when it finally hit Kyungsoo and he decided that Baekhyun didn’t deserve this kind of life. He deserved to be happy, to laugh and to have fun, to have friends and someone who can give him more, more than Kyungsoo. Kyungsoo didn’t deserve Baekhyun and Baekhyun deserved better.

Baekhyun couldn’t believe his eyes once he discovered the plane tickets that came by mail one day. Both having different destinations; Los Angeles and London, America and Europe and Baehyun didn’t understand anything until Kyungsoo came back home from work, his facial expression so cold and uninterested in Baekhyun’s whining and crying of what is this and why are you doing this.

“Let’s break up. I will leave for America and you will live in Europe, let’s leave this place behind. Let’s leave us behind.”

Kyungsoo was the first one Baekhyun ever fell in love with and the first one who broke his heart into thousands of pieces, making him break down right at the spot once the words had left Kyungsoo’s lips.

He suddenly attacked the younger and made him lose his balance, both of them landing on the wooden floor, Baekhyun sitting on top of Kyungsoo while hitting him on his chest as hard as he could. Kyungsoo just looked up at Baekhyun and watched the tears running down his cheeks before they fell down onto his shirt. Baekhyun’s punches didn’t hurt a single bit because he was so weak, so weak that he had to stop after a minute to lie down onto Kyungsoo, crying his heart out on his shoulder, wishing for him to say it is April Fools’ Day and that he got fooled. That never happened and Baekhyun should have known as the first snow of November started to fall at that moment, marking a new stage of the seasons and a new stage of their relationship that no longer existed.

Baekhyun fell asleep after thirty minutes of crying and Kyungsoo waited for another five before slowly sitting up, his arms wrapped around the warm and delicate body of the person he just wished the best for but whom he would never see again. He planned this for a while now – seven weeks to be exact. He took care of everything Baekhyun would need in London, a job at a friends’ agency, a small but nice flat with all kind of furniture and even a car. Everything Baekhyun would need…. Everything… he will be okay, was what Kyungsoo thought as he laid Baekhyun down on the bed that they had shared for so long now. The sight of Baekhyun sleeping there made Kyungsoo hesitate for a while and he wondered if he could just lie down next to him and tell him that everything was just a dream and that he really would never leave like he once had promised.

But then he shook his head, took his already packed suitcase and left without looking back, just like that.

It takes Kyungsoo four years full of regret and sadness to fall in love again and it takes Baekhyun four years full of depression and hardships living all alone to be found by someone who loves him enough to make him forget. However, life’s not fair to anyone and you never really get over your first true love.