HYUKJAE's POV

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I DO NOT LOVE YOU, the end, final, period. Stop saying you love me because I will never answer back.

His voice was ringing in my ear every time I close my eyes. I can hear his cold voice. I can see his blank stare. And I can't help but smile.

I know I sound completely stupid right now, and I look like a doofus for smiling right after Hae outright rejected me. But you see, he is my best friend; everyone knows that. And what type of person would not know if his best friend is lying? What kind of guy would not see if his best friend is trying to make him hate the other? What kind of a person am I to not see what Donghae is doing? As conceited as it may sound, I know he loves me. I know he still does. The way he would turn away to not meet my eyes, or the way he ignores my every touch, the way he retracts his hands whenever I reach out for him, the way he pauses before he leaves the room; all of those are signs. Signs that he loves me still. 

Donghae has always been like an open book; my personal book. And like a book, I memorize every page, every word, every little details written in it. Like Donghae. He wants me to stop loving him, because he is scared. I know, because I was scared myself. You can't blame me though, we've worked our asses off to get to where we are, we are finally savoring the sweet flavor of success, and there are a lot of people who would love to see us crumble down. This has always been my dream; to be acknowledged by people, to see them giving me encouraging smiles, hear them shout my name and feel their love even if I know it never lasts forever. This has always been my dream.

My and Donghae's dream.

We worked for it together; those extra times we spend in the dance studio in order to top the dance class, the extra tutoring we get from Yesung-hyung to pass the singing class, those effort we put when Siwon teaches us to make it through acting class, and everything we have to put aside in order to get what we wanted. I was there when Hae would weep in a corner, missing his family, especially his dad, and I would offer him a shoulder to cry on, and after a few minutes we'd both be crying because his tears affects me so much. He was there whenever I have anger issues with some of our co-trainees, and he would calm me down so I won't get in trouble. I was there when his brother fetched him in the company every weekend and brought him home, and I remember how it hurts to see him turn his back on me, walking forward happily with his hyung, but suddenly he'd turn back and smile at me, telling me 'see you on Monday, Hyukkie,' and that's what all it took to have me smiling again, and wait for Monday; when he returns. We are always there for each other, that is why I know what he is doing.

If he thinks I'd actually stop loving him because he said so, he is so damn wrong. He must know that whenever I want something, I do my best to get it. And when I say I get it, I really do get it. Because I just don't want Lee Donghae.

I need him.

I need him with me.

Forever.

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"What do you mean he's missing?" I said, surprised as Leeteuk-hyung was typing on his phone furiously.

"What can the word missing possibly mean, Hyuk? Missing! My Hae is missing!" He half-shouted, still on his phone.

Without a response, I returned to my room and grabbed my car keys, a black hat, which was Donghae's present a year ago, and made my way out of the house. Ignoring my anxious band mates who are all on their phone.

"Super Junior Lee Donghae was spotted on the mall this afternoon, and a ton of fans gathered in the said mall to have a look of the rising artist," a reporter's voice caught my ear and I stopped on my tracks, turned around and went back to the living room where all the guys are huddling together. Kangin hyung reached for the remote and turned up the volume.

"It is said that the artist was spotted with no one, but left with someone who is obviously a celebrity too, but the car was unidentified by the witnesses since it left in a flash, a girl said, though, that it was BigBang's G-Dragon," the reporter added.

G-dragon? As in that punk? Why on earth would he be there if they did not go together?

“Lee Donghae! You bad fish! Where the hell are you?! We’ve been trying to call you but you aren’t answering!” Heechul-hyung suddenly shouted that made us all jump, but as soon as we knew who he was talking too, we shut our mouths to listen.

“Sorry, hyung. I went out. I’m fine, promise, I’m eating dinner with friends,” Donghae spoke, and there was an applaud in the back ground.

“Who are these friends?!”

He chuckled, his adorable childish chuckle that made my inside feel all gooey just by hearing it through the phone; damn I sound such a lovesick puppy. “Say hi, my friends.”

“Hello Heechul-hyung!”

“Don’t worry, Donghae’s safe here,”

“We’ll feed him properly,”

“We’d keep him company,”

“Oh, Donghae, are you spending the night?”

Voices erupted from Heenim's phone, and we can't really catch what they were saying because they all sounded so excited and happy.

"So Hae-hyung's really with BigBang?" Ryeowook whispered to Yesung-hyung.

"Guess so. That was unmistakably TOP's voice," Hyung answered.

“I’m fine Hyung. I don’t have schedule tomorrow right? Can I spend the night here?” Donghae's voice made me snap my attention back to hyung's phone, and my hands turned into fists. Why does he need to spend the night there? Even if they are close, he needs to get home. He has to. I looked expectantly at Leeteuk-hyung, who looks like he is thinking hard. I know he wouldn't allow his baby sleep in other people's dorm because---

"Be back at noon"

I snapped my head toward Leeteuk-hyung’s direction with wide eyes, and I was about to grab Chul’s phone but he kept it in his pocket.

“Hyung! Why’d you let him sleep there?!” I half-shouted, startling my band mates in the process, “Sorry,” I muttered and kept my head down and walked back towards my room with a heavy heart. Why does he have to sleep there? Does he really want to not see my face? Ugh!

Flopping down on my bed, Choco jumped up and lay beside me, looking comfortable in the pillow, few seconds later he was followed by a white fur ball, and laid on my pillow too, Bada placing his head on Choco’s body as they both closed their eyes, breathing evenly. I looked at the two with a smile; they are pretty much like Hae and I, when we use to sleep together when we’re tired, not caring at all if we haven’t take a bath since we are just drained to care, and would just love to cuddle and sleep in each other’s arms.

It is funny how we are pretty much a couple before all of this. We are always together; eating together, practicing together, watching movies together, going out together, fooling around with the other members, updating our statuses together, choosing clothes together, doing our hair together, having our make-up together, sleeping together, and just---every insignificant thing we do every day, we always do it together.

KNOCK.KNOCK.

“Who is it?” I spoke, Bada’s ears.

“Kyuhyun.”

Immediately, I sat up, “Come in.”

The door creaked open, and Kyuhyun entered with an unreadable expression. I knew for the fact that something’s up, or maybe he’s just being the evil maknae that he is.

“Do you need something, Kyu?” I inquired the other as he sat down on the chair in front my desk.

“Did something happen between you and Donghae-hyung?” he spoke.

“What do you mean?”

“Oh come on, monkey, don’t play dumb on me, you know very well what I meant,” Kyuhyun said, not amused at all.

I sighed, ”He rejected me.”

“Pardon?” Kyuhyun said, looking confused.

“I said, Donghae rejected me, when I confessed.”

He snorted, “Serves you right,” he said with an evil smirk on his face.

Feeling agitated, I turned to glare at him.

“So, are you giving up, then? Since he---rejected you?” he asked, emphasizing the last two words, and he looked like he is holding back a laugh.

“Of course not,” I hissed, not liking where this conversation is getting. Suddenly, he stood up and made his way back to the door, he twisted the knob, but did not open the door as he turned to look me in the eye.

“Good, since I did not let him go for you to just give up like whiny loser just because he rejected you once. If you ever miss this chance again, monkey, I swear you’ll never have another one cause I will do whatever it takes to make him mine,” he said, his voice sounded so threatening, but I did not back down.

“I will never let him go,” I said, standing up on the process.

He smirked and opened the door and I watched as he slipped out, but his head appeared on the small opening on the door and said, “By the way, Seung Ri told me, Ji Yong have a thing for Donghae-hyung. Just wanted to let you know since he is spending the night there and there is a big chance that he’d be sleeping in Ji Yong’s room, on GD’s bed, and with G-Dragon beside him.” Then the door was shut.

Not wasting another second, I grabbed my car keys, for the second time, and went out of the door, ignoring the calls I got from the rest since they might stop me from where I was about to go. Opening the car doors, I started the engine and drove off the dorm’s parking lot, arms tightly clutching the steering wheel from the vivid picture forming in my head.

There is no way that Hae would sleep in another man’s bed, and another man’s arms. There is no freaking way. The only one who has that right is me, and it is with me he is sleeping with tonight.

I will make sure of it.

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