Our songs are getting slower and less emotional, have we lost our spark? The very thing that took us to the top will bring us down? 

To be honest I've had enough, that special essence has diminished, it just ain't no fun anymore. I'm lucky, I have a backdrop, my acting career is still very bright for me. But what about the others? Our leader no longer leads like he used to or compose the way he did. Our main dancer is more interested in dancing for his girlfriend than to the fans. Our maknae will always be the maknae, but even he is starting to fall onto the wrong side of the media. And of course Daesung, he has already left for the army. My duties of serving my country is due to be the end of this year. 

My wick isn't long either. I'll have to say my farewells sooner or later, they'll probably replace me like they did to Daesung. I miss him. 

We've been on hiatus for more than 2 years, ever since the incident at the Alive World Tour. I prefer not to talk about it, I promised Seungri that I wouldn't remind a soul.  

Our contract with YG entertainment isn't due till 2016, 2 years later. I can almost guarantee that the contract will not be as easily renewed like in 2011. The thing is, will we last till the end like we once promised when we were unaware of what was ahead of us? Our fan club is decaying by thousands per day, even if the whole world was VIPs, we would hardly have any fans by the end of this year. 

Yang Hyun Suk promised us a comeback this year. But I doubt that will happen since he's more interested in the new groups, he even has to promote Minzy, CL, and Dara's solo debuts, which he decided to do simultaneously. 

Seven, my favorite hyung, has already has already left the company,  he said he was keen in becoming a father. So am I. 

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Thanks for the comments, I'm going to resume writing in Seunghyun's journey towards (hopefully) finding a wife.