Champagne was definitely a member of the so called group "Samahan ng mga malalamig ang Pasko"...Taon-taon siyang miyembro nito sapagkat wala naman siyang mayakap sa mga panahong ito. Cheesy as it may seem but she wanted to be in love. She wanted to experience how does it feel to be love and to love someone. How does it feel when someone takes care of you? Bring flowers? Chocolates? Or even text you how are you? Then one day, she found herself on a place called dating app. She created an account, put some descriptions and viola the dating begins.  What will happen to the girl who was never been inlove? Never ever had a boyfriend? Never have been in a relationship? The girl who was never been love?

The Untold Story of The Never Been Love

4 letters
One word
Thousands of meanings

Love...

If someone will ask you, what is love? What is your answer?

Is love like a rosary that's full of mystery? Is that it?

Is love so painful that others are so afraid to feel it?

Is love so hard to find that some people have taken the risk of reaching it but got wounded and failed?

Is love so near yet so far?

Does love means letting go of the person you love?

Does love means being selfish because your love is overpowering?

Does  love means being happy and sad at the same time?

Does love means hoping? Hoping that person would be the one? Hoping of not getting hurt? Hoping to love and be love?

Does love means loving until the world ends?

Does love means being crazy over one person?

Does love means no boundaries? Age doesn't matter? Distance doesn't matter?
Does love means being happy with that person not minding the consequences? Not minding the people around you? Not minding all those criticisms? Not minding if someone is hurt? As long as you're happy, everything is worth fighting for?

Is it really worth fighting for? What if the other person is not fighting anymore? Are you still going to fight for it?

Is that what love means?

According to the dictionary, love means a feeling of strong or constant affection for a person.

How strong that affection would be to know that it is love?

Love also means an attraction that includes ual desire,
 the strong affection felt by people who have a romantic relationship.

Do you have to be in a relationship to know that it is love?

What do labels mean anyway? How does it define love?

How can you define love?

Do you know what love is?

Tinuklap ko ang papel na pinapasagutan at bumuntong-hininga.

"Cham, ang tagal mo naman dyan. Bilisan mo na!" Sigaw ng aking kaibigan na si Tequila.

"Oo na. Teka lang at ililigpit ko lang ang gamit ko." Ani ko "Para saan ba kasi iyong pinapasagutan mo sa akin?"

"Ay! Ewan ko ba dun sa lider namin. Basta ibinigay lang yon sa amin. Pasasagutan daw para sa project namin. Alam mo naman ako dakilang tagasunod lang. Hihihi" bungisngis niya.

"Hay! Ewan ko sayo at baka kung ano na pinapagawa nung lider niyo sa inyo. Bakit puro love yon? At kung anu-ano pa?" Reklamo ko.

"Eh kasi emotions and feelings topic namin eh at natapat sa amin ang love kaya ganon." Wika ni Tequila "Kaya wag kang mag-alala for research purposes lang yon. Eh ano bang mga sinagot mo?"

"Wala lang."

"Anong wala lang feeling ko meron eh! Uy! May who is your crush ba? Who is your first love? First kiss? Ganon parang autograph?"

"Wala nga sabi eh. Bilisan na nga natin ang paglalakad at baka nandyan na iyong sundo ko."

"Kaya hindi ka nagkakaboyfriend eh dahil panay hatid sundo ka ng tatay mo."

Hindi ko na lang pinansin ang komento niyang iyon. Hindi ko alam kung dapat ba akong maniwala doon o hindi. Hindi naman sa nagmamadali ako pero ni minsan hindi pa talaga ako naliligawan. Minsan naisip ko na baka may mali sa akin. Hindi man ako ganon kaganda ngunit hindi rin naman ako ganon kalala. Minsan naisip ko rin kung meron bang nagkakacrush sa akin o di kaya.... Hay wag na lang. Baka umasa naman ako sa wala.

"Uy! Ano to? What is love? Tapos ano itong sagot mo ha?"

"Wag mo na lang basahin. Wala lang yan."

"Anong wala? Eh parang may hugot ka dito eh. Tingnan mo. Ahem ahem what is love? Love is blank. You won't know the true definition of love until you feel it. I may not know for now what love is but one thing is for sure love always comes with pain to be able to reach happiness." Bulalas ng aking kaibigan "Beh nanosebleed naman ako dito. Akala ko ba hindi ka pa nagkakaboyfriend eh parang ang lalim ng hugot mo dito. Sabihin mo na may boyfriend ka na noh?"

"Wala nga sabi eh.  Porket ganon ang sagot may boyfriend agad. Eh kita mo ngang ni manliligaw wala kaya paano ako magkakaboyfriend. Pwede ba nabasa ko lang iyon." Sambit ko. "Oh andyan na yong papa ko na dinadahilan mong kaya hindi ako nagkakaboyfriend. Oh siya alis na ako" medyo patampo kong sagot.

"Ehhhh sige na nga pero sabihin mo sa akin bukas ha."

"Wala akong sasabihin!"

"Oh edi ichat mo na lang"

"Wala akong ichachat!"

"Oh edi wala! Sus! Indenial ang peg mo" tumatawang sambit niya " Sige aalis na ako at andyan na ang sundo mo. Pero tandaan mo balang araw sasabihin mo din sa akin yan."

Napailing na lang ako sa kanya. Kalokohan niya talaga. Wala naman talaga akong sasabihin sa kanya.

Wala nga ba?

Hay!

"Mano po pa"

"Oh ang tagal niyo ata" sambit ng aking ama.

"May activities lang po sa school."

Pinaandar na ni papa ang aming tricycle at binaybay ang probinsyang aking kinalakhan.

I looked at my father and remembered what my mother said after one of their fights. Sabi niya kung hindi lang para sa amin na mga anak nila ay matagal na niya itong iniwan. Hindi na niya kaya. She was crying while saying all of these.

And then I ask her...

"Ma do you still love papa?"

She took awhile before answering and said, "I love you and I will not leave you"

She did not answer my question...

And I realized, love must be really painful. Love is really painful that because of too much pain you won't feel it anymore...

*Beep  Beep*

*Vermouth messaged you*

I click the notication and it says...

"Paigne, I'm sorry."

And then a drop of tear came.