Growing up was a an extreme adventure for me. Simula noong na-bully kami ni Win nung grade school but in both different ways and in a different way on how to handle it.

siya magpapa-bully, samantalang ako, hindi! matapang ako sa pagkakaalam ko eh syempre, kwento ko 'to eh char!

Kahit siguro umiiyak na ako, pumapatol pa rin ako hmp!

School was a living hell for me. You wake up in a daze and later on, you see that you have 10 mins left on the clock and you're good to go. Classes pass by you in a blur. Pasok ka ng math, english, science and business course classes, until they all blur together. Uuwi ka nang sapilitan kahit ayaw mo umuwi.

You sit on your study table and do all your school works until maisip mo na, dinner time na pero, di ka pa makakakain kase nakikita mong wala ka pa sa kalahati ng school works mo. Tutulog ka nang nalipasan na ng kain and you gain your measly hours of sleep 'til you're ready for it to happen all over again. 

If school was a living hell for me, then, wala siyang pinagkaiba with how I live at home.

Gosh! My life at home is miserable. Parang wala akong pamilya. Ikaw ba namang uuwi, tutulog, gigising nang wala kang madadatnang tao. Well, meron naman. Si Ate Nonita/ Noni, helper namin sa house and that's it. 

My parents are both lawyers and my brother is a Neurosurgeon, working at the hospital where Win's father works too, that's why they're all very busy.

Akala ko home should be where you feel the most relaxed and happy. A place where you feel comfortable and glad to be. It doesn't have to be a house, it just has to be where you're happiest pero, hindi. It is the opposite for me. Not feeling my house is my home.

Hindi naman sa hindi ako masaya, I just don't feel comfortable or like, I 'belong' here. 

I am adopted.

Iba ang view ko sa buhay. Iba ang view ng brother kong sunod-sunuran sa magulang. Well, congrats at successful siya but, we're not close. We don't talk with each other a lot. 

'saan ka na naman pupunta?'

'saan ka galing?'

'nagmamagaling ka na naman'

'tigil mo na yang kaartehan mo'

'you're so stupid'

ISTAPHHHHH!!! AYOKO NA MARINIG!!!! PAULIT-ULIT LANG NAMAN!!!

ganyan lang makipag-usap kuya ko, yung paparinggan lang ako na masyado akong nagiging pabigat sa family namin hays buti na nga lang hindi siya nags-stay sa bahay palagi kase may sarili siyang condo at hindi ko rin naman kakayaning makita siya araw-araw! 

That day happened. Noong umuwi si kuya galing hospital. I think may naging problem siya at sa akin niya nabunton yung frustrations niya.

He invited some friends over for drinks. Tatlo lang naman sila. But yeah, I guess masama lang talaga ugali niya. Pinahiya niya lang naman ako sa harap ng mga kaibigan niya. He said hurtful words towards me pagtapos niya akong utusan na kumuha ng yelo. 

"Ito si Ning, wala naman tong ginagawa eh. Tambay lang to pag tumanda. Patanga tanga lang minsan, diba Ning?" sinabi niy