Here I am patiently waiting for Amber. She's talking to her former lover kasi hoping if she can get the person back. She keeps on insisting me to do the same too sa ex ko. Paano ko gagawin yun when nakamove on na talaga ako. I mean, I can talk to her nga ng wala ng bitterness and I don’t think na gusto ko ulit magkaroon ng karelasyon ngayon. My first one is too much to handle na. That heartbreak was something na ayoko na maexperience ulit. Pinagpalit niya ako sa isang lalaki telling me na she wants a family, yung totoo. But I guessed my fault din ako for pushing her too much na mag-out kami. I was too insensitive din na mahirap sa kanya yung situation. Though may fault talaga ako, hindi naman yun enough reason para ipagpalit ako diba? I think lahat ganun din. Even Amber's former lover, kasi pinagpalit siya sa lalaki. All girls na straight na papatol sa ganitong klaseng relationship are the same.

Unlike kay Amber na pumunta lang here sa Philippines to see her ex, ako kasi my intention is different. Family related. My mom died six years ako kaya napilitan akong umalis ng Pilipinas. It was tough for me. We were arguing kasi at that time, I discovered na I was an illegitimate child and while she was chasing me when a car hit her. That night when I go back sa house namin, my tito said nasa ospital daw si mom. I was too young pa non kaya nagulat nalang ako when my tito told me na nakikipagsettle yung another family. I didn’t get the chance to talk sa family nila since I was very mad. Tito decided to accept the money saying na it will be more practical so that I can start my life too using that money. I didn’t agree pero mas matanda si tito kaya mas siya yung pinakinggan. Later on, I discovered na inscam lang pala nila ako. Tito and Tita used the money for their personal gains so after I discovered that, I left. Going back to my intention here, I came back kasi I have leads na to look for my dad. Pero everything is nonsense na kasi someone told me he’s gone na din.

I have no plans to stay na here since it’s nonsense na. I might go back nalang sa UK. Joy keeps on insisting na I should stay kasi nga she will stay here na for good at least for now. Palibhasa kasi she will settle na with her long-term girlfriend Wendy. For the meantime nakikitira si Joy sa condo ko na binili ko lang recently sa Tagaytay kasi nga need kong may matirhan while staying here and while hinihintay nilang matapos yung rennovation na pinapagawa nila dun din malapit sa area ko. Not that I am rich pero kasi wala naman akong pinagkakagastosan ever since nagwork ako. Before I move to UK, apprentice na ako nung 1st year college palang ako ng isang media entertainment there. Nakita kasi nila yung mga works ko online and they offer me the apprenticeship. They even told me na after graduation, they will hire me so I grabbed it after everything na nangyare. I dont have any plans to reconnect pa with our other relatives. I will go back nalang in UK peacefully and live my life as quiet as possible.

I already waited for 1 hour sabi ni Amber saglit lang siya. But there's this girl na kanina padin nakatayo sa harap ng building malapit sa pinag-aantayan ko. I think nag-aantay siya ng sundo. I enjoyed watching normal people struggling kasi that’s where I get inspirations to my works. While I enjoy watching her, may kumausap sa kanyang lalaki and I know she is uncomfortable with the way she stands there. Maya maya pa is umatras siya while umabante yung lalaki. I don’t like men harassing girls so I decided na pumunta sa kanila to shoo the person away but to my suprise, sumakay siya sa motor ko. Not that I dont like it pero kasi she's not cautious enough what if manloloko din ako diba. Binigay ko yung helmet ko na favorite. Gamit ko kasi tong angkas na limited edition na design. I helped the company kasi with its graphic so they gave me this as a token of appreciation aside sa rate syempre. Nakakahiya naman if ito yung ipahiram ko sa kanya. That girl keep on saying na ako yung angkas driver niya and sumakay nalang din ako kasi mukhang takot na takot siya sa lalaking yun. Nakikita ko yung weird na pagdikit niya sa akin sa likod. Is she smelling me? Interesting.

After kong ihatid yung girl bumalik agad ako kasi need na ako ni Amber. Mukhang brokenhearted siya sa kinahinatnan ng pag-uusap nila and late ko ng narealize na naiwan ko dun sa girl yung favorite helmet ko. Hindi naman sa gusto kong habulin yung helmet pero kasi favorite ko yun and hindi na ako makakabili pa ulit nun kahit magmakaawa ako sa company nila. Limited edition lang kasi yun. For sure din hindi ibebenta ni Amber yung kanya kahit kulitin ko pa. Itatry kong balikan yung girl bukas.

I look stupid kasi I forgot yung mukha niya paano ko siya mahahanap? I am not good din with directions since Tagaytay lang yung route ko. I dont know na where siya nakatira.

"Why not try mag angkas kaya? I mean, malay mo mabook ka niya. Call the angkas CEO nalang para they can give you access sa app and you can choose ng customer. Then if sa tingin mo siya na yun, accept mo." Ang effort ko naman masyado if that's the case. Andami kasing tao everyday and sobrang liit ng chance ko na makita siya. May iba pa nga akong napagkakamalan na siya nakakahiya. I only need my helmet huhu.

"Or I should give up nalang kaya sa helmet? I'll try to talk nalnag talaga sa company to produce one?"

"Sabi nila sa akin the materials are not available anymore so I dont think magkakaroon ka pa non. Dont mind the helmet nalang malay mo may iba pang magbenta online."

"Ayoko naman nun di ako sure if authentic." Parehas kasi kami ni Amber sa pagkaaddict sa mga motor and accesories nito. We are planning to join nga yung sa mga motorcross para sa libangan namin. We like the adrenalinr brought by the activities. I follow Amber's stupid idea. I talked to angkas management hoping na magwork kasi aalis na ako in a few weeks need ko na talaga makuha yun. I rejected many passengers na sa tingin ko hindi siya. Dun ako nag-aabang kung saan ko siya nakita.

Irene De Ramirez Arellano, I dont know if this is her but she looks pretty. May nakanote sa booking niya na please accept or else karma will come. Natawa naman ako so I accepted it. Pag dating ko sa area nakita kong may nanghaharass nanaman na lalaki sa isang girl. Wala bang security sa area na to at parang it’s too dangerous mag-antay? Tumingin ako ulit sa detail, maybe that's Irene yung customer. Pinagmasdan ko siya and parang lumiwanag yung mata ko nung nakita ko na si Helmet. Thats my girl there. I think its time to intervene na. After ko pasakayin yung girl na si Irene, galit na galit nanaman yung lalaki. Siya din ba yung last time na nanghaharass sa kanya? Tinuro ulit niya yung way and nasundan ko naman kaagad. Medyo hesitant pa siya humawak sa akin. Gusto ko sana sabihing akapin niya ako kaso baka magsound creepy ako.

Nung makarating na kami, nagtataka ako at hindi padin siya bumaba. Sinabi niyang wag ako umalis and babayadan niya pa daw ako. Ang want ko lang naman yung helmet ko miss. Tinanggal ko yung helmet ko and mukhang disappointed siya. Is she expecting a guy? Nung akmang aalis na ako, iaask ko sana yung helmet pero bigla niyang sinabi i