Chaeyeon's POV:

Sakura seemed to be lost in her thoughts the whole day, it was a surprise how soft her attitude is, I purposely called her Koibito earlier just to see her reaction. She's funny when she's panicking, the way her eyes widens when I say something a little playful to her ears was cute. She's really the cutest girl I've ever seen in my entire life. She was also the first person ever to prepare my lunch, at last, someone who knows how to cook apart from me.

Apart from her being my crush and bias in AKB48, I think she's really pretty, too bad I wasn't her first kiss, that title belonged to Matsui Jurina. The first ever woman to kiss my Sakura. I've seen footage of this lips to lips deep kiss they shared. That hurt my heart tremendously as I watched them lock lips on stage. Then like what Minmin told me Jurina and Anna may have done something, so I looked the trio up on Google last night on my phone, as I did my business in the bathroom. I found out that the articles about the trio were just fan speculations.

Jurina and Sakura for example had a wordy fight before the senbatsu elections, but was found to be a baseless rumor. Anna and Sakura likewise were baseless rumors. Minmin might be wrong after all. We were now waiting for our turn to perform, we were third to perform today. Yes, aside from repeating the choreography we have for a soon to be debuting song, we also have to draw lots to determine who goes first the day after.

I've been watching her drift off to her thoughts, I let her be for now, but when the second performer was called, I pulled Sakura out of the room as she was still zoning out. We only have three minutes to talk things out. She lets me drag her out of the room. I took her outside, at the end of the hallway. I spoke with her as soon as we reached the end of the hallway.

"I don't know what's going on with your head, but I need your focus for the next 7 minutes until we finish our performance, I need you to trust yourself and trust me in the next 6 minutes." I told her.

I cupped her face now, making her look at me.

"Trust me please." I followed up with her.

"Okay. Don't worry. I trust myself and you." She replied.

I kissed her in the forehead, her eyes closed as I leaned in. I let my kiss linger on her forehead.

"I trust you, Saku-chan. You can do this, I am here for you. Now let's go inside, smile give me your most beautiful smile, okay?" I followed up.

"Okay." She said barely inaudible.

I hugged her briefly and whispered to her.

"I am always here for you, Sakura. No matter what the results are you and I will stay friends." I followed up again.

She pulls me into a tighter embrace and held me there for a while before she pulls away and looks into my eyes and says.

"Thank you for calming me, I must've been just worried. Not myself today." She replied to me.

"I understand, I need you to debut with me, please remember that you need to debut huh? Okay?" I replied to her softly.

She only nods at me and smiled at me softly. I took her hand again and intertwined it with me as we made our way back to the room. I squeezed her hand tightly before re-entering the room and let her hand go as I entered the room first, she followed me back to our seats. There's only 1 minute left with the current's group performance. We sat back on our seats and waited for the second group to finish.

Once they were done, a round of applause followed as our group name was called. IZ*ONME, that was the name of our debuting team, as announced yesterday. We were really on our way to debuting. So, I can't loose the current line up. If I had to be like a Father or a parent to them, then I'll be. We tweaked the choreography to make it more of IZ*ONME's Choreography, like we owned this song and the choreography. We were the last team to perform, everyone was antsy to leave for the day already, so it was okay if we added a minor tweak.

The tweak was Yujin was supposed to wink at varied times in the song, since she's center. Then we'll have to sort of make a gesture that says hail to the queen when she appears center later on. Just some fun to lighten the mood, Yujin is a funny person, she has the fresh vibe and a mega watt smile. When Minmin and I see her both of us laugh so loudly with her funny charms. We were in fact laughing as we practiced the new tweaks we added. We also changed a particular part of the choreography the groupings, we were now divided into three groups with three members. We fixed some blockings and expressions.

We had to make sure that each group was showing their adorable sides. The promise of dinner engrained in Hyewon, Min-ju, Chaewon and Nako's mind, that's why the four of them worked really hard for this presentation. We started to move like a synchronized clock once the music started. The opening steps were quite dramtic, the raise of hands, everything looked sultry, a warm up from the song's tempo, it gets a little intensely faster later on. My team mates are doing well, they seriously make my heart swell in pride. They dance with no difficulty at all, except for the J-Line, but two of them was catching up quite good, Sakura is better than the two, if she just thinks she's talented, but she catches up on point unlike the two younger ones who were all smiley even in a serious setting. Truly adorable, Nako and Hitomi were just little balls of cuteness.

After our performance, Teacher Sejeong announced the daily rankings. My Team kept their spots, added to Team IZ*ONME was Jang Wonyoung. Yujin's closest maknae trainee. We invited her to have dinner with us but she declined us. She said she needed to attend her school classes. Since she and Yujin were roomies we decided to let Yujin take home any left over for Wonyoung.

We are now at the grocery, shopping for dinner. The kids are with us, Sakura and I pushing the cart as we watched the kids go crazy with their purchases, Min-ju ran up and down the aisle together with her 'siblings' Nako, Tomi, Yuri, Chaewon, Hyewon and Yujin trying to stop Min-ju from getting junk foods. This went on for about 20 minutes until Sakura might have had enough and reminded Nako and Hitomi to only get healthy foods or she will not pay for their food. The two ever so obedient with their Okan, brought back the food they had in hand and looked for something healthier.

"How do you do that to your kids? My kids are crazy for junk foods. Look at them." I told Sakura.

"Nako and Hi-chan are good kids, they know that they can't gain weight because they were J-Idols, they're very disciplined with what they eat, rarely they'd crave for junk foods and they know I'm not kidding when I say they'd have to pay for their junk foods. They gain a lot of weight, so when I tell them to not buy junk foods because I won't pay for them, they quickly reevaluate their choices, pay for their junkfood or lose money and starve." Sakura said calmly.

Min-ju, Hyewon, Yujin and Wonyoung rarely gains weight even if they consume a lot of junkfoods, if they ever gained more weight they lose it as fast as they gained it, Yujin and I are a different story, we had to really stick to a strict diet, low sodium, low sugar and low calorie options for us both. In the beginning Yujin and I would cry with the diet we'd go on. But our bodies quickly adapted to the diets until we learned how to accept the healthy food we were supposed to eat. We got rid of our cravings for junkfood, whenever we were craving for junkfoods, we munch on cucumbers and carrots.

"Maybe try it with your kids, tell them not to buy junkfoods or perhaps don't pay for them?" Sakura told me.

My family had no problem with money, my parents are rich and loaded, they'd often give me 500 thousand won for my weekly allowance, which I spend buying food for the dorm and my kids by kids I mean Minmin, Hyewon, Wonyoung and Yujin. Yujin often drops by our dorm to eat, her dorm was located across our dorm. I spoiled these kids so much that I can't deprive them of things they wanted to eat. Min-ju especially. She loves to hide food under her pillow and as soon as she wakes up, she munches on her junkfood hidden under her pillow. Not until we merged beds did I banned her from hiding food under her pillow and I also banned eating junkfood in the bed, she sulked over it for about a week, not talking to me and avoiding me on purpose, until I bribed her with breakfast did she talk to me.

"Kkura-chan, I can't do that. I love my kids, Hyewon, Min-ju, Wonyoung and Yujin. I always spoiled them with food, drinks and whatever they wish to eat." I replied to Sakura pouting.

"You have to try now, look at your cart, it's filled with Junkfoods already." Sakura replied and when she saw Min-ju already on her way back to dump more food to the cart.

"Yah, Minju-yah. Stop getting junk foods, this cart is already filled with enough junk food to kill you guys until the next life, enough. Chaeyeon won't pay for all this." Sakura intervened.

"Jagiya?" Min-ju called out to me for help.

"Your Eomma is right, you need to stop buying junkfoods, Minmin-yah. Let's try to buy healthy food options from now on, Minmin-yah." I repl