"And I get mystified by how this city screams your name."- Taylor Swift

There was a feeling of trepidation in the pit of my stomach as I fell head first. Everything is going wrong! How can it be going wrong? Those thoughts rang in my head as I heard the sound of bone crushing against the side of a cliff. In one moment I was transported back, and in my head I again stood at the precipice, thinking of how I wanted to prove him wrong, of how I wanted to show what I was capable of. Yes he knew me, maybe better than anyone else, but did he know me better than I knew myself? I was hoping the answer was no, and that I could just show myself that, that I wasn't lost without you...

I did survive...and for a split second I forgot about you. 

And then you came back.

....

Why didn't you stay in New York?