[14] Fix you

Santa Quaranta
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Haneul spends most of her nights out. Since the weather is always warm in Santa Quaranta, she doesn’t worry if it will suddenly rain or get cold. So every night finds her lying on the sand, just a few feet away from the ocean, watching the stars. It’s become her favorite way of passing time lately. The peace that surrounds her is what she wants and needs. She hasn’t been herself for a while and she finds pieces of the comfort she misses in the stars that always shine the Santa Quaranta sky.

Through one of the notes that she put on her fridge, she came to read a letter, his letter that he had written for her, and through the other note, she came to read a diary, her diary, where she had written about him. Just like she had guessed, he had chosen to remove his memories of her, but this wasn’t a game he could beat her at. Not when she was the one who created it. Still, Haneul didn’t hold any grudges against him. Jongin had seen her in the real world and the guilt must have been too much for him to bear. It was all speculations at this point, but she had a feeling she was right about it. She could confront her father, since it had probably been him the one to remove Jongin’s memories. But truth be told, she had been scared to do it. What if her father confirmed her thoughts? That would mean Jongin would not be coming back to Santa Quaranta anymore, not even as a tourist. Even the thought of that being true is scary to Haneul. She knows she’ll have to muster up the courage to do it and it’s better sooner rather than later, but not tonight. She’ll enjoy the quiet as it is, without thinking much about anything else.

 

 

Kibum tries to be there for Haneul more than he used to. He has always been her best friend and it’s obvious he would be in every important moment of hers, but he maximizes his efforts. Segi also came to meet him one of those days, asking he keeps an eye on Haneul and Kibum didn’t need to be requested twice.

When he notices Haneul mostly being absentminded, he knows something is wrong, but he chooses to respect her boundaries and wait for her to come talk to him. He just makes sure she eats every day and that she knows she is not alone in whatever she is facing. It takes a while before Haneul tells him everything, but he is patient with her. He can see the sadness in her eyes every time they talk about what it means to be able to live only in Santa Quaranta, so Kibum figures she must be missing someone from the real world.

“Kibum, could you tell my father I want to see him?” Haneul asks him one day.

He is surprised. Haneul has never asked him to arrange a meeting with any of her parents. When they first started coming to Santa Quaranta, she would see them frequently, but that changed with time. The feeling of not being able to be with them in the real world, made Haneul slowly push herself away from them. But she is aware of the fact that her parents still come visit Santa Quaranta and they meet with Kibum to get updates about her.

“Yeah, sure. Any reason why? I mean, is that all you want me to tell him?”

“Just that,” Haneul answers indifferently.

“Okay,” Kibum assures her.

He doesn’t like the tone of her voice, but he’ll comply with what his friend asked of him.

 

 

Haneul has thought everything through. She feels nervous before meeting with her father, but it’s not because of what she is going to ask of him. It’s simply been a long time since she last saw the man and meeting him after knowing all that she knows, makes it even harder. She tries to hold herself strong, because there are some more things she needs to know before announcing the decision she has taken.

The first thing she notices when she sees her father is that he has gotten older since the last time they saw each-other. His hair doesn’t betray his age, but there are a few wrinkles on his face that unmistakably witness the process of time going by for everyone, including Shin Segi.

“How have you been?” He asks Haneul, his tone a bit hesitant.

Haneul is relieved her father is equally nervous as her. Maybe this will make it easier.

“Good,” she simply tells him.

“That’s good to hear,” Segi nods.

A moment of silence stretches between them before Segi decides to break it. “So Kibum told me you wanted to see me.”

“I had a few things I wanted to know from you and one thing I want to announce to you,” Haneul tells her father.

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sb1202 #1
Chapter 18: When I first started reading this fic, I was simply excited to read about your interpretation of virtual reality. In no way was I prepared for the emotional rollercoaster that you took me on. The pure mystery in the first half was enchanting, and the revelation of their true relationship heartwrenching. I was initially wary about character development because I usually read fics with rather long chapters, but the pacing and development felt very natural. I'm actually glad I waited until you completed this fic, because I would have gone crazy with anticipation between updates. Although I wish we could have seen more of Haneul's and Jongin's interpretations of happiness in Santa Quaranta in the epilogue, the ending serves as a more fitting closure.
I don't remember how your story found its way in my attention, but I'm so glad that it did. Thank you for Santa Quaranta, and I look forward to reading more from you!
JaeKnight
#2
Chapter 7: Okok let me collect my thoughts. Firstly, the way my heart fluttered when jongin hugged shen tian from behind. Then they kissed!!

And now this, aww they forgot about each other. And tables have turned, Jongin is now the hot stuff here. Now i wonder if they’re in a continuous loop in forgetting and not forgetting bc it seems like what Jongin felt in the first few chapters, where he felt a deeper attraction with Shen Tian the moment he saw her, is similiar to what Haneul is feeling rn.

Btw ive watched the San Junipero episode of BM and im keeping my guards up 👀
JaeKnight
#3
Chapter 5: Finally they met. Jongin sure is whipped for Shen Tian lol. Now my silly mind thinks do they know each other from the past?
I'm not sure if it has been said before but what happens after midnight?!?! It's all so mysterious
JaeKnight
#4
Chapter 4: Nooo I thought im gonna read their interactions in this chapter. you're good keeping us in our toes asjkdhas
but lol key telling jongin that he wont be able to find her. Yet jongin only has an evil grin inside
DeeDee101
#5
Chapter 1: Very nicely written prologue, you lured us into mystery to question who is that boy. I love description of setting, I actually visualized where she is. It's like I am dreaming instead of Haneul. Amazing! Good job!
JaeKnight
#6
Chapter 3: Finally a background of the title. I'm really digging the title, Santa Quaranta, makes you question what kind of place this is. And no kidding, Mile High Tower with 400+ floors? I admire your imagination! I loooooove lovee the setting, the city girl in me is so satisfied with the setup.

And OH GOD I’m loving it! I cannot wait for their interactions! Jongin is still a mystery at this point, we know more about the Shen Tian from Jongin’s perspective. And I’m reminded about the prologue, it’s in a woman’s POV, not Jongin’s. Jongin definitely remembers a blue-haired girl from his dreams. But how about Shen Tian? DO THEY RECOGNIZE EACH OTHER FROM EACH OTHER’S DREAMS?!?! OR the other came from a different dimension? :OOO very very intriguing

I also reanalyzed the films/series of which you were inspired from. I’ve watched Eternal Sunshine, but only heard things about Black Mirror, and TIO well—

SHOULD I PREPARE MY MIND? and maybe perhaps MY NON-EXISTENT HEART? I’m honestly—

sorry I talk too much but I hope people get to read this!
JaeKnight
#7
Chapter 2: WAIT could coffee be a key plot since you mentioned it a couple of times??? Now that I notice it, the chapter of the title is "The awakening". Doesn't coffee wake you up?
I skimmed back at the chapter, he didn't drink all coffees!! This is all too mysterious, or am i thinking too much?
JaeKnight
#8
Chapter 2: Oh no! I also have no time to react, so much is happening in his dreams! Did he almost drown? D: Was he hit by the car? Was the open door a dream or was it real? What's gonna happen next! Anyway I'm loving the eccentricity of the dreams <33 And loving the blue hair honestly <3

PS: as a coffee lover, i cannot emphasize how I melt every time you mention the smell of the coffee. It's as if I'm smelling it ughh
JaeKnight
#9
Chapter 1: + And I'd be lying if i say I'm not hoping for a chemistry that's similar to our main couple in TIO bc I AM (I need more of them), especially with the seemingly forbidden romance-esque in the description and now THIS prologue. but thats just me ><
JaeKnight
#10
Hello uhm,,, I was browsing under the tags and thought i saw a familiar name, clicked it, and I was SO SURprised seeing TIO as one of your inspirations for this story AAA Thank you ;; idk what to say (i'm still surprised D:). I'm keeping this in my subs list and read it in my leisure time. It looks interesting already as it gives you that cyberpunk vibes despite the the utopia tag, but it gives off that similar vibe at first glance with the tags and poster and description. And YOU HAVE NO IDEA I've been craving to create something cyberpunk aaa anyway quite looking forward to check this out hehe