he was pointing at the moon (but I was looking at his hand)

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There are about 7.6 billion people in the world, and 9.8 million in Seoul. Donghae can’t fathom how lucky he is to have met Hyukjae when they were kids, because he’s been his favourite person ever since. Hyukjae thinks he knows everything there is to know about Donghae, but even the best of friends keep secrets from each other.

Long story short, Donghae is in love with his best friend.

Foreword

Donghae is 7, and he’s sitting on the swing next to Hyukjae and watching the glee in the other boy’s eyes as he points towards the sky. 

Donghae is 17, and he’s on the treadmill running next to Hyukjae, pretending to watch his own running form in the mirror, when really he’s watching the way sweat’s gleaming off his best friend’s face as he complains about not beating his personal best. 

Donghae is 24, and he’s sitting on his bed, trying his best to study for his finals, all while distracted by the way Hyukjae’s face is adorably scrunching up as he forces himself to finish his undergraduate thesis. 

Donghae pines, pines, and pines, hoping that one day these feelings will either magically disappear overnight or he’ll get what he has always wanted. 

He does. 

Someday. (Or all along.)

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A/N:

Title is from Richard Siken's poem "Anyway". 

Came across the quote by chance and couldn't resist writing a fic about it. I've never actually written a pining fic anyway, so why not give it a shot! 

Will only be 3 to 4 chapters long.

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thepoppedcherry #1
Chapter 5: Just finished rereading this. Still the cutest... so pure. ❤️
thepoppedcherry #2
Chapter 5: 😍😍😍 cutie cutie cutieeeee
eunhiyuga #3
Chapter 5: Baguss
domhyuk #4
Chapter 5: hi, so I don't really know what I'm going to say about this. but I read this story in one sitting, all the while screaming about it on twitter and in my friends' dms too. I loved it. I loved every single word you wrote. I loved how I got to be inside donghae's mind and experience the way his fear of going to a new school evolved all the way to wanting to confess to hyukjae through his research paper. even though it's an au, their personalities were so canon compliant, I felt like I was reading a mini novel and in every single scene I was able to imagine eunhae just behind like that with eachother. the slight angst was heartbreaking too. but the fluff made up for all of that.
the way you wrote about them finally taking the leap from being friends to a couple was soooo beautiful because the fear was there but so was the need and the desire to be together because they both had come to love each other so much over the years. thank you so much for sharing this amazing piece of writing with us. can't thank you enough.
hope you have a great life ! ♡

also by any chance do you have twitter? would love to connect with you there!
kawaiiricky #5
Chapter 5: So beautiful. words aren't enough to describe the way i felt while reading this story. Their feelings, personalities everything was so well written and sweet. I could feel the love throughout the chapters. Honestly this is a work of art, I'd like to compliment your writing too, as it's amazing and I'm definitely looking forward to read more from you. thank you so much for writing and sharing this precious love story with us.
Lad7whisper #6
Chapter 5: Hello!
I had this story in my subscriptions forever it seems, but the right time to read it never seemed to come until yesterday night. Gosh, if it did keep me awake.
It never fails to marvel at me how inspiration can really reach out from very small things. I'm glad you were able to share with us this story.
Finding someone that stays by our side for good and for worse, patiently waiting, cherishing moments, never getting tired... to have that safety of knowing it's just the two of you. That's my very favorite cup of tea, so thank you, once again! You did a great job and it was very fun when Donghae almost chocked Hyukjae, it was very in character HAHAHAHA
sugar_snow #7
Chapter 5: Well, this is one of the best story about mutual pining I've ever read.
This is super sweet and lovely especially because it starts with their childhood, I have sweet spot for kids eunhae.
I find myself cry a bit on the last chapter.
Idk I'm not good with words but I just want to say I reaaaaaallly love this story.
SingMelodyyy #8
Chapter 5: I love this so so much! I took a pause from reading fanfics because life got in the way and this was the first story I’ve read after a while… and I don’t regret any second I spent reading this! The calm tone of the story from when they were kids up to their uni days was so beautiful. I loved the clues from Hyuk that were blindingly there and finally Donghae’s dilemma, realization and acceptance. I honestly teared up when I got to the part of Donghae’s essay because his definition of love was so soo overwhelming adding to the fact that the way you wrote this story made me feel as if I grew up with them and I watched (…read) how he fell in love with his bestfriend. I love them both in all of their stages and I love the way they love each other. Thank you so much for this, author-nim!! I hope you find joy in writing such fics because they are a gift to people who get to read them. 💕

P.S. Still think that Hyuk fell in love first but is slightly better at controlling his thoughts and words, not his actions though because God he was so obvious! 🤣
alinajr #9
Chapter 5: I love this fic so so so much!! It's so beautifully written 💕 Also I appreciate the Taylor Swift lyric references hahah I see you ;) Absolutely amazing! Never stop writing.
wayforrokkugo #10
Chapter 5: oh this was so nice i really really liked it
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