She had dreadfully finished finals, albeit arduously, but she was glad that she had gotten that over and done with.
The next few weeks following her confession had been awkward.
She hadn’t seen much of Jungkook since he had mostly been in the photography studio, or the library, where she had avoided greatly since she didn’t want to see him and chose to study at home instead.
Jimin was livid when he heard what Jungkook had said to Hyorin, but Jihyun merely shushed him and made him promise not to tell anyone else that she had heard their conversation. Needless to say, he had been giving Jungkook side glances and a glare whenever he could, and even though Jungkook didn’t know entirely what Jimin was angry about, he knew it had something to do with Jihyun.
Jungkook was a mess.
He had tried to focus on his work and finals, but nothing could keep his mind off Jihyun’s confession.
He didn’t have time to recover from it, and by the time he was composed again, Jihyun had been long gone.
He spent the next few weeks trying to mug for his finals, and figure out his feelings at the same time.
Did he want to break up with Jihyun? Absolutely not.
It was frustrating, he knew that deep in his heart, there was a part of him that wanted to try being in a relationship with Jihyun for real, but there were too many reservations. He could never forget the way her eyes sparkled when she was amazed by something, or the apple and lavender scent that she wore every time they met. His presence brought a source of comfort to him, and he liked the fact that he could just be himself around her.
“Let’s party tonight! Drinks at the Kim’s garage to celebrate the end of finals!” Hoseok cheered as the entire group gathered at the entrance after the exams ended.
Jihyun snuck a quick look at Jungkook to find that he was already looking at her.
She cleared awkwardly before speaking up, “I uh- have a thing tonight.”
Jimin and her two brothers knew she was lying. ‘
Jihyun had been bugging them to have fun after finals together and she barely had any friends apart from the group. Who else could she be hanging out with?
“Ji, we are your only friends.” Yoongi rolled his eyes while the rest of the group snickered.
“That’s not true!” She pouted but Jin merely ruffled her hair and whispered in her ear, “Come on Ji, it’s the end of finals. Besides, it’s at our garage, you can go home anytime you feel uncomfortable. Don’t let Jungkook stop you from having fun.”
The group had been aware that Jungkook and Jihyun had broken up, but no one mentioned a thing, and the two were thankful for that (even if they knew that they had been secretly talking about it behind their backs). The last thing they wanted was for their friend group to fall apart, but it seemed that there were no sides taken and everyone was neutral about it.
The rest of the group looked at her expectantly before she finally breathed and gave in, “Fine. I’ll see you guys tonight.”
The group cheered loudly before heading to their respective homes to prepare for the night.
Jimin wasn’t who he had expected to see when he opened the door after his shower.
“Sorry for showing up abruptly, Jungkook.” Jimin scratched his neck awkwardly while he shook his head, glad that this was the nicest the elder had been to him in a few weeks.
“What’s up?” He asked as he dried his hair in a towel while Jimin made his way to his grey sofa.
“I think you might have an inkling of why I’m here.” Jimin said as he looked at Jungkook, who merely sighed and settled down on the loveseat nearby.
“Tell me more.” He said, knowing fully well the reason why Jimin was here.
“Ji’s been a mess these past few weeks, and I’m sure you are too.” Jimin started, while Jungkook nodded his head.
“I think you both should talk things out and really understand what each other’s thinking.” Jimin advised and Jungkook wasn’t sure if he could express his thoughts into words properly.
“You know I’m not very good with words, I might end up screwing things up again.” He said as he smacked his forehead with a sigh, and Jimin shook his head.
“You just have to be honest, Kook. Have you been honest with her about how you really feel?” Jimin asked, and Jungkook was at a loss for words. How did he feel? His thoughts were all over the place and he didn’t even know how he felt for her.
“Tell me what are you thinking, maybe I can help you with it.” Jimin encouraged, and Jungkook could see the sincerity in his eyes - that the elder meant no harm and genuinely wanted the best for him.
“I-I couldn’t stop thinking about her the entire time.” He sighed as the thought of Jihyun never left his head no matter how hard he tried to distract himself.
“I just miss having her beside me. I think I took for granted the fact that she would always be beside me, that when she left, I just felt so lost.”
“She was such a huge source of comfort and took me away from all the sadness I was feeling about Hyorin. It’s so different being with her as compared to Hyorin.” He said with a small smile, and Jimin couldn’t help but crack a smile when he saw the loving gaze in the younger’s eyes.
“Being with her brings me a sense of comfort and I feel so happy all the time. Time passes so quickly when we’re together and I look forward to the next time we hang out. We never have to struggle to find topics to talk about because conversations flow so naturally and I like the fact that I can be myself around her.”
“Then what’s stopping you from getting together with her? Do you still love Hyorin?” Jimin asked curiously.
“I don’t love Hyorin anymore. I know how it felt when I was in love with her, and it’s just… not the same.”
“When I see her now, I don’t have the urge to want to get back with her like before, I don’t feel like being near her, and I don’t think of her all the time. But I feel that way with Jihyun all the time. The moment we parted, I missed her already.” He let out a bashful smile as Jimin shot a teasing smirk towards him.
“This new feeling, albeit comforting, is also scary at the same time. I don’t want to fall as hard as I did for Hyorin, only to have her leave me at the end of it. Jimin, I’m really scared of getting hurt again.” He said with a pained expression, and the elder couldn’t help but feel sorry for the boy. Park Hyorin had really ruined his perspective of love and hurt him greatly.
“Kook, you know that Ji’s not someone like that, right?” Jimin asked, and Jungkook nodded slowly. “Sure, she has a fair share of crushes.” The two snickered as they thought about the love letters that Jin and Namjoon had sent out.
“But I know she means what she says. So when she says s