am i alone in feeling like this?
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this is really not related to any of the tags, just someone
with no other outlet looking for emotional catharsis in the
form of internet strangers sharing their feelings.
Foreword
i'm going to preface this with i'm really not sure if this'll even show up for anyone, or if anyone is going to click it. but, this isn't my main & i'll log out of this after i post it and go on with my night maybe checking in on a different account to see if anyone replied. but, writing your feelings out is helpful and i don't use like... whisper or those blog apps where you can just write out, so here i am.
i feel very alone and isolated. i know this is partially due to my introversion, and the fact my interests seem to be vastly different to the majority of people i meet (i'm into nerdy stuff that's like magic the gathering level but not mtg, and a lot of the people i meet are very nice but they're often into tv shows like riverdale or have very extroverted hobbies that have them in groups, like sports or something.) to slap a label onto myself, i think hikikomori fits me (at least to a degree. i'm a homebody unless someone i know takes me somewhere, and even then i get anxious. lol. very fun /s.) it , and it's something i actively try to work on but don't really feel comfortable doing (i would say i'm... severely more introverted than most other introverts, but that's neither here or there.) i've fallen out of my interest with roleplaying in closed rps after two years of doing so, and i can't stay active on freelance accounts because i'm uninspired and it just doesn't feel how it used to. all of the friends i've made through rp have eventually left, and i feel like i'm back where i started.
i know i'm not alone in feeling... alone, or lonely, and i know quarantine has made a lot of people feel like this at least for the time being. but i guess knowing others that are in the same general sphere as me feel the same would be cathartic. it's worth noting i'm mentally ill and none of these feelings are easily solveable, and i know that, so i don't expect any magic answers telling me the key to me becoming a social butterfly. i'm just hoping i can get a "you're not alone, gl hf"
and if anyone reads this and feels seen, maybe feels like this but couldn't post it anywhere, i hope it offered some comfort to you too. :) these feelings are difficult, and even while typing this i've just had a bought of crying, so it's ok to be sad about it. i hope we both can feel seen and like we belong somewhere someday
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