Joy Added You and 9 Others to A Group

Joy changed the group name to 'NDD'   Joy: Alright ladies it’s that time of the year again! No December begins tomorrow! As the only lesbian amongst us, I, as always, will be the interviewer! You know the rules: 1. No for the entire month of December. - This means no real , s, etc ladies! 2. If you fail and get dicked down you MUST leave the chat silently like walking the walk of shame 3. Once I’ve seen you’ve left I’ll be messaging you for an interview - Questions include: Who it was with? Why? And was it good? 4. This is all fun and games but the winner gets a gift card of their choice per the usual! (Everyone will chip in $5 including myself because I enjoy this way too much! Making it a $50 gift card!)   Karina: Bring it on, es!!!   Giselle: This is gonna be hard, I have a boyfriend this time around!   Tiffany: Me too!!! It was easier last year!   Seungyeon: My legs are closed! Ima win this year!   Sorn: XD You all have to beat our two-time winner Riahn first! Will she win for her third time in a row this year??   Riahn: Not funny!     I sigh putting my phone down. For the past three years my friends and I have participated in this game of sorts we saw online. It was one in which you didn’t sleep with a guy during the entire month of December and I, who have been single since birth have obviously won the past two years because I don’t put myself out there.   It was just hard for me to do that, I was extremely shy and just thinking about sleeping with a guy made me nervous. But after winning two year’s in a row it was a blow to my self-esteem. Now listen I know very well I don’t need a man in my life, I’ve survived nineteen years without one but it would be nice to have someone to spend my nights with, they could also dethrone me from being the NDD Queen.   It’s mainly because I wasn’t trying, my standards were so high and I just found a negative in every guy I looked at. Mostly due to my own insecurities, because what if I made a fool of myself? It’s one of my biggest fears to become interested in someone who clearly does not feel the same way. I did not want to be humiliated.   [August]   Yet, the time finally came where I had set my eyes on someone. It was the first semester of sophomore year of college when I first laid my eyes on him. My mother was helping me move into my dorm the week before classes and low and behold my neighbor from the dorm next door happens to open his door.   When he steps out I avoid eye contact with him because that has always been something I’ve done. It would be embarrassing to be caught staring at someone whether you really were or not. I don’t pay him any attention even when another boy is pushing through the door to swing an arm around the boy’s shoulder causing my mom who just made it up the stairs to smile towards them both.   Her smile causes my stomach to drop, no, mom, don’t!   “Why hello there gentlemen.” My mom’s smile is so wide that the corners of her lips almost met her eyes.   “Hello.” They both greet her back with nods of the head to be polite.   She glances at me and I silently beg her through my eyes to not say anything more in order to not embarrass me but she’s my mother and it’s her job. “I’m glad my daughter has two handsome men staying next to her, I’ll rest assured at home knowing that.”   I groan under my breath keeping my eyes lowered thoroughly embarrassed. “Oh, thank you, but we’re not that handsome.” The shorter of the two replies. “We’ll definitely look out for her though.”   I glance up at the two of them awkwardly as I wait for my mom to open the door and that’s when I officially see him. He’s tall, more so on the scrawny side, with black hair parted near the side of his forehead. His eyes are almost feline like, nose practically perfectly proportioned just for his face, and lips in a thin line like he could possibly be pissed off.   That very look on his face causes me to snap out of my daze to quickly turn to my mom who has unlocked the door. Once inside I let out a breath that I didn’t know I was holding in. That boy, he was really something else. It wasn’t like I hadn’t found guys attractive before but I didn’t linger on the feelings like I was doing now. I didn’t let myself get too deep like I hoped this wasn’t.   I had never seen him on campus before but that makes total sense given how many different majors were offered at our school. I was a secondary education major so I was often only on one side of the campus and in the previous year I was in the freshman dorms on that side of campus. You only really ever saw education or majors related to that in that area of campus.   This year I moved into a coed dorm as it was cheaper and it was closer to the center of campus. I also had my own room since Seulgi, who was my roommate from last year, decided to live off campus.  The rest of our friends went to college in other areas around the country aside from Karina and Giselle who dormed together, and Joy who roomed with her girlfriend, and Seungyeon who still lived with her parents.   But thank god I roomed by myself in the coed dorms since I got to see the face of the handsome boy outside.   “Those boys were good looking, weren’t they?” My mom coos plopping down on my bed. “Especially the one with the blonde hair, he has the looks of a kpop idol.” She hums and I backtrack, holy the other guy had blonde hair and I didn’t even notice? Was I that absorbed in the black haired boy to not notice that?   “Yeah, I guess.” I hum in return, moving to grab my phone.   -   Throughout the month I continuously see the black haired boy. Some mornings his eyes are wide and innocent like, and on others they are narrow with tiredness making him seem to be in a bad mood. It made me wonder what exactly his major was that kept him from sleeping properly. During this month I had gotten used to the occasional times we’d make eye contact, nodding or smiling softly towards one another. No words really exchanged but it didn’t matter, his smile made me too nervous to talk anyways. It was breathtaking and almost always knocked the air out of my lungs when directed at me.   By the time October rolls around I’m in over my head and I haven’t even held a proper conversation with him other than the occasional head nod. I was beginning to lose hope, until he actually greets me with words one morning.   It was a rough morning for me, having stayed up most of the night studying for a exam. I really didn’t want to run into him so I left a few minutes earlier only it didn’t matter since we ended up exiting our dorms at the exact same time.   We both pause noticing each other and he chuckles under his breath, “This is a first.” His eyes giving me a once over since I was in sweats today.   I glance down at my attire and instantly regret all my life choices. I hate my life.   “Rough night?” He asks as he locks his door.   “Um, yeah, I have an exam today. I can’t afford to fail it.” I murmur embarrassed, turning to lock my door.   As I turn to leave thinking he’s done talking to me, he rests a hand on my arm causing a fluttering feeling to erupt in my stomach, my eyes raise to him who is closer than he’s ever been. He gestures for me to put my hand out so I do.   “Here.” He rests a muffin into my hand. “You probably skipped breakfast, didn’t you? You shouldn’t do that before an exam.”   I swallow, my stomach doing somersaults at the action, eyes trailing along the plastic bag it was in. “Oh, yeah, I did. Thanks, this means a lot.”   He shrugs smiling softly, “It’s no problem, good luck on your exam!” He says before walking down the hall leaving me to myself.   I really shouldn’t be as excited as I am about receiving a muffin from him, by him doing so it didn’t mean anything. It wasn’t like he was like “let’s date” or anything even remotely close. It was a “do well on your exam,” but god did it get my hopes up that he may at least somewhat be interested in me.   [November]   “So, anything else happen with that crush of yours?” Seulgi sips on her water during lunch. Seungyeon glances at me with a sigh knowing full well everything that’s happened, since she’s in the same major as me. She was the one I spilled most of the juice to.   I sit my chopsticks aside, “I mean he offers me muffins every now and then. He talks more to me, but yeah, no nothing else.” I lower my head, I shouldn’t have got my hopes up the first time because now that nothing else has happened beyond that my heart has began to crush.   This is exactly what I was afraid of, falling so deep for someone who doesn’t feel the same way in return. Had I made it obvious that I was into him? I mean I felt pretty damn obvious. I was always getting caught staring by him, I was almost always stammering when we talked, my hands nervously fiddling around. He on the other hand always seemed so in control of himself, so composed, like I didn’t bother him in the slightest bit.   It made me feel like maybe I had taken his kindness for granted, maybe I misunderstood it as flirting. I felt extremely stupid.   “Well don’t give up yet.” Seulgi leans forward patting my hand. “You never truly know how a boy feels until he says it.”   Seungyeon glances at her, “But she also shouldn’t get her hopes up. I mean he hasn’t done anything really to show he’s interested in her.”   Seulgi shrugs, “All guys are different, maybe that’s his way of being interested in someone?”   Seungyeon shakes her head, “Seulgi, you know better than us all having bedded the most guys out of our entire friend group how guys are when they are interested in someone. If someone is interested in them and they are interested in them even just a bit they don’t beat around the bush.”   Seulgi shrugs, “It’s not like I’ve had with every guy in the world, I can’t possible know how all of them would react when interested in someone. He could be shy!”   Seungyeon hums, “He could be, but if this guy were shy would he even be talking to her? He just sounds like a nice guy!”   My stomach sinks as they lightly argue back and forth essentially over if the guy likes me back. I stand up causing them both to pause to look up at me.   “I have to go to the library to research for my final project in English. I’ll see you guys tomorrow.” I wave goodbye to them sauntering off.   I come back home later than usual so I was tired when I finally slouch onto my bed but I only get a minute’s rest before someone’s knocking on my door. With a groan I trudge over to the door, a sigh leaving my lips as I open the door only for the air to get back in instantly hitting the back of my throat at who stood behind it.   I quickly cough trying to regain my composure after gasping for air. What the hell was he doing here? “Um, hey.” I glance down noticing one of my mom’s glass baking dishes in his hands. My eyes widen, how in the hell did he have that?   He smiles, “Your mom stopped by earlier and I’m guessing you weren’t here. I heard her knocking endlessly so I went out and yeah,” He glances down at the dish. “She left it with me and asked me to hand it over to you once you got home.”   I quickly take the dish from his hands noticing its cookies. “Oh my god, I’m so sorry. Thank you for bringing them over!”   “It’s no problem.” He shrugs, his eyes seemingly dart around my face as silence engulfs us. He awkwardly raises his hand to wave goodbye, clearing his throat. “Have a good-.”   “Did you want to come in and try one?” I found myself saying before I could even think. , why did I say that? I wanted to slap my hand over my mouth but can’t due to the baking dish in my hands.   His lips shut before finally opening after a few seconds, “Uh, yeah, sure.” He nods stepping forward as I open the door wider for him.   I sit the dish down in the small kitchenette after I’ve shut the door, opening the dish gesturing the cookies towards him and he takes one into his hand bringing it towards his lips that I’ve dreamt about. As he chews on it he hums, eyes sparkling, “It’s really good.”   I smile softly, “Don’t let her know that or it’ll go to her head.”   He laughs biting into it again, “So, I just realized I don’t know your name, even though we’ve lived next to one another for roughly three months now.”   I lean onto the counter across from him, a fluttering feeling rising up my spine knowing that he wanted to know my name, “I’m Riahn, a secondary education major and you?”    He finishes off the cookie, arms pressing into the counter in front of him. “I’m Doyoung, my major is in nutrition.”   I felt discouraged at his words, his major was nutrition. So that meant all those times he was handing me muffins was to make sure I was eating well. Maybe Seungyeon was right, maybe he was just a nice person and I was taking it the wrong way?   “What year are you?” I raise an eyebrow trying to keep the conversation going.   “First semester, sophomore.”   “Oh really? Me too.” I let myself smile at the thought. So we were the same age then?   His lips move to reply but his phone buzzing in his pocket causes him to pause, he pulls out a blue iPhone typing away on it before sighing. “My roommate is looking for me.” He stands up.   I push the dish towards him, “Take some with you, there’s no way I’ll be able to finish them all myself. Let me get you a container.”   He hums glancing at the cookies and then to me as I begin placing them in the container. He takes them from me, fingers brushing mine, holding it to his chest which causes me to blush.   And that brings me back to tonight, November 30th, the night before it begins. Joy having sent the announcement out moments ago. This being the most fun for her as she got to play host essentially.   I really wanted to lose this year. But losing in this case was way harder than winning for me.   [December 2nd]  

Joy:

Night 2! So far everyone has stayed free!   Soojin: This is unfair for me, Tiffany, and Giselle, we all have boyfriends!   Yuqi: They’ll get over it and learn to use their hand again. That is if you want to win this that is.   Giselle: I don’t know why we go through this trouble when we already know Riahn will win   Riahn: This year is my year to lose, I’m really gonna try this year!   Soojin: I’ll believe it when I see it   *Sorn has left the conversation*   Seungyeon: Already???   Joy: It’s my time to shine ladies, I’m heading in for the interview!   Tiffany: Ngl I figured Seulgi would be the first out   Seulgi: I’m a woman of innocence this December, I don’t know what you’re talking about.   Taeyeon: That’s another, I’ll believe it when I see it.

Side Convo:

Joy: So you lasted less than 48 hours. Why? Who? And was it good?   Sorn: I ing forgot about it!! But anyways, this guy in my math class I’ve been trying to since October finally made a move so...didn’t think twice. And honestly it was a tad bit disappointing! Not worth $50 but what can I do now?

 

[December 3rd]   At lunch I sat next to Seulgi as Joy slinks her way into the booth across from mine, her girlfriend Anna slipping in beside her. They didn’t have any food so I assumed she was here to gossip about the game or about my love life.   My love life being correct since as soon as she opens she’s saying “So, how’s it going with your potential boy?”   And truth be told, things weren’t going good again. “Not good at all, it’s already day three and I haven’t managed to catch a glimpse of him yet.”   Seulgi sighs again, since this is like a repetition of the conversation we had a couple of weeks ago with Seungyeon. “Girl, you just need to go for it, if you wanna lose the challenge you have to try. You can’t just sit back and wait for it.”   Joy nods, arm moving around Anna keeping her close, “Yeah, you need to at least talk to him, otherwise you’ll get nowhere.” Anna smiles into Joy’s neck at her gesture.   I sigh at their affection for one another, it was something I could only dream of. “I don’t know, it’s just I’m very nervous.”   Seulgi who’s been friends with me the longest alongside Seungyeon and Soojin nods placing an arm over my shoulder reassuringly, “As you should be, you’ve never done it before. You have a right to be nervous.”   Anna speaks up, “Yeah, there’s no pressure to do anything. You can always win again, no harm is done by winning. Plus you get what $50?”   I let my hands join in my lap nervously, “But I really don’t want to win again. I also really like him, and I honestly,” I pause embarrassed that I was about to say this. “Don’t think I’d mind being dicked down by him.”   Seulgi chuckles pulling her arm from my shoulders after patting them, “I raised you well!”   Joy sighs but still had a smile on her face, “Then talk to him, nothings ever wrong with talking to someone.”   That was true, I tried to build up the courage in my chest. “Okay, so I’m just going to walk up to his door when I get home tonight. I’ll knock on his door and then ask him if he wants to sleep with me.” I nod even though it sort of sounded like a terrible idea and not like me at all.   Joy reels back so fast the back of her head hits the booth behind her, “What the , no!”   “What?” I blink towards her confused.   Anna begins laughing under her breath and Seulgi draws my attention towards her. “Riahn, I’m a for , and even I know not to do that.”   “What’s wrong with that?” I questioned her, I was utterly confused. Is that not what they did when they wanted to sleep with someone?   “Do you want to freak him out?” Joy says rubbing at the back of her head.   “Would I?” I scratch at my temple.   “Dear god.” Seulgi mutters, elbows gliding onto the table as she rests her face into her hands.   Joy takes the liberty of explaining it to me, “If you were dating him and have slept with him before I’d say, hell yeah, you walk straight up to him and tell him you want his , but Jesus, Riahn, are you serious?” She can’t help but laugh at me, I felt embarrassed again. “If you come on too strong you’ll look desperate.”   I blink towards her confused, “But I am desperate, aren’t I?”   She slaps her hand to her forehead, “Forgive me if I’m wrong, but you said you like him, right?”   Anna mutters, “She said she did.”   “She may be a lost case.” Seulgi mutters back to her.   “Yeah, like a lot.” I blush, cheeks heating up as I say it out loud once again.   Seulgi turns to me once again, “Then you don’t come right out and ask to sleep with him if you want it to last longer than one night.” She sends me a look asking if I got it. “If it were me, and I was in a club, I could get by with asking someone I only intended to spend one night with that. But if it were to be someone I was interested in for a relationship, hell no, off the table.”   I nod understanding what they were saying now, “That makes total sense, I would’ve made a fool of myself.” I turn from Seulgi to glance back at Joy and pause noticing Doyoung was walking into the cafeteria with his roommate at his side. Of course, the first time I saw him in the month of December had to be in the cafeteria. “, there he is.”   “Oh my god, where?” Seulgi quickly looks across the cafeteria, eyes searching over the sea of men that loitered around the room. Even Anna was curious as to who finally caught my eye after all these years, glancing over Joy’s shoulder.   “The one in the back of the lunch line, next to the blonde.”   Joy’s lips purse, “You’ve got to be kidding me.” Her eyes turn to me, a weird look on her face. “The one who looks like a bunny?”   My eyes trail back over to him, now that I think about it he does somewhat resemble a bunny, “Yeah him, his name is Doyoung.” I swallow thickly at the outfit he decided to wear today. He had such an impeccable sense of style.   Joy shares a look with Anna who snorts before Joy is standing up, “Be back.” She winks, and my stomach suddenly sinks.   “What is she doing?” My heart beating in my chest beats faster and harder as she approaches the two boys. “ing hell!” I grasp onto Seulgi’s arm, burying myself into it.   Joy taps Doyoung on the shoulder to which he and the blonde boy both turn towards her. Both of which send smiles her way, before she’s gesturing in our direction. My eyes quickly dart away to Anna who glances back at me with a shrug.   “Seulgi, Anna, I’m going to ing kill her.” I say through my teeth. God, what was she saying to them?   Before long Joy is slipping back into her seat, “Well I’ve got good news and I’ve got bad news.”   I glare towards her unamused at her antics.   “The good news is that both myself and Anna went to high school with both Doyoung and Taeyong.” She smiles knowingly towards me. “So don’t kill me yet, I know that murderous look.”   “So, what’s the bad news?” Seulgi raises an eyebrow leaning onto the table.   Joy clicks her tongue, “Doyoung was notorious in high school for never dating anyone, he sort of just kept to himself and his friends. Every girl who tried to conquer getting him as their boyfriend ended up being turned down. He simply didn’t have time for girls and well, was pretty serious about school." She hums, finger moving to her chin. "I don’t think I ever saw that boy at a party once. But he did talk to me, I mean that could’ve been since he knew I wouldn’t ask him out since I was out by then.”   My stomach sinks at her words, “So I have no chance then?”   She clicks her tongue again, “I didn’t say that. The Doyoung from back then is not the Doyoung today. Anything could happen, he could’ve became a manwhore after graduating for all I know, I have no idea, this is the first I’ve seen him since then.”