✵ polaris. 「dprian x cl semi-au」HIATUS


Mito and Ian are the two sides of the moon. Like the moon, Ian/Mito are different faces of the same person. Without one, the other would cease to exist. For some time, Ian manages to keep Mito behind closed doors, suppressing him the best he could. Chae is back in South Korea to finally claim what's rightfully hers. Fame. Recognition. Freedom. Love. She's the key that could free Mito, the cold and selfish bastard with no regard for others. And, he needs her to finally take over Ian, consuming the mutual attraction that links them. Ian is left to the side, witnessing the damage Mito caused to the woman he has secretly loved for years. She never seemed to reciprocate Ian's feelings, but felt immediately attracted to Mito. "What does that bastard have that I don't?" Ian is conflicted - to finally stay with Chae, the woman he's hopelessly in love with, and burning her down like a used candle or to let her go and keep loving her from afar?


Necessary warning.

This fic Is loosely inspired by “So Beautiful” and “5STAR”.

I’m in no way trying to romanticize mental illness. DID is a serious matter and this is just the exploration of the concept treated in the m/v in a fictional way (like Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde) and in no way an accurate depiction of this disorder. If this makes you uncomfortable, please don’t go further.




I zoomed in on her face and noticed a rebellious lock of hair levitating in the warm breeze brought by the sea of Crete.

I took a few steps towards her and slowly brought my hand to the strand of hair covering her shiny eyes in the attempt of tucking it behind her ear.


My heart sank. She avoided my hand, a slight hint of panic in her voice. I knew she did not want it to make it awkward for me. She was like that. Making people uneasy wasn’t her thing.

“I-I got this!”. She fixed her hair by herself.

That small episode perfectly mirrored the unrequited feelings I had been growing for a year and a half in her favor. I resented myself for not being able to keep those feelings from developing any further. That strong admiration slowly became a solid friendship and before I realized it, I was into her world.


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Chapter 5: not sure how but i feel like ive read the recent update elsewhere. maybe my mind is playing games with me @.@ excited when CL and Christian reunites!
ireneanstasia #2
Where is the 6th chapt ? 🥲
Chapter 6: You an always trust me to be around til the end!! Excited to read the next chapter! <3
ggijibe #4
Chapter 6: Yes so glad to see you here! I can't wait for the next chapter to see what happens next but anyway fighting!!
Chapter 5: You have no idea how happy you’ve made me!! I was just re-reading mrs insanity til i got the notification 😍 oh how i love how you tell a story!!! I felt every pain and insecurity running through her mind. It hurts me everytime i think about how Chaerin had to go through that in reality. Not in the exact same happenings in the story but the gist of pain caused by betrayal. Looking forward to the next! ^^
Chapter 4: YES!!! still as invested in the characters and in the story. Looking forward to your next update ^^
shannaros #7
Chapter 4: I'm sooooo happy to see this update! I was so sure you've abandoned this fic 🥺 But of course I'll def keep supporting and be waiting for the next update! All the angst so far is much appreciated 😌
🥺 just read your note. You got this authornim! Rooting for you! I just keep re-reading the first three chapter til we get a new update lol
🥺 just read your note. You got this authornim! Rooting for you! I just keep re-reading the first three chapter til we get a new update lol
omggggg I just wanna say how each chapter is really well written. I can clearly picture out Ian’s confusion on MITO and his mood-swings. Now I’m even more excited to read how he’ll be when CL comes back.