"May I live like the lotus at ease in the muddy water."

-Thich N.

Happy Birthday to one of the brilliant commenters here - xe2d2205 

Sandara waited outside PO's room in the hospital. Hopefully, he was far from danger now. Few of the BLOCKB members were quick to send him to the nearest hospital on time. She hoped it was enough to save his life.

She has no idea. She has no idea that PO is part of BLOCKB. Her anger to her self grew every moment she's reminded of it. Indirectly, she has caused this to everyone. And if something seriously bad that have happened to PO, it would be her fault. 

But, but, not in a million years she would have thought that the thugs PO were hanging out with before were members of the BIGBANG's rival gang BLOCKB.

And why would PO be part of a fraternity gang, anyways? He is just a senior high school! Only Nineteen!

Sandara bit her lips as she waited outside his room, waiting for the doctor to confirm that PO is really out of the danger now.

Sandara stood up from sitting down as the door opened. She was expecting for the doctor to come out from that room but it revealed Zico, BLOCKB's leader, instead.

Zico noticed her right away.

Sandara wanted to scowl at the sight of him but dismissed her indifference to BLOCKB's leader for the meantime. PO is more important at this moment.

"How's PO?" Sandara asked him as he walked towards her direction.

Zico stopped in front of her. He was looking rather curiously at her. "Why does it matter to you?"

Sandara glared at him as her answer.

Zico held his hands up, surrendering to her glares. "Easy. I'm just kidding." He told her. "PO is fine. The doctors gave him narcotics so he is totally knocked out for now. He is safe but needed weeks of rehabilitation after this, though." 

Sandara sighed in relief hearing that. "That's all I needed to know." She just said, feeling tired suddenly, as she prepared to leave the hospital.

Zico stopped her. "Why are you so concerned?" 

Sandara looked at him, tired with the topic too. "He is my roommate and a friend."

Zico nodded at that. "But you are part of BIGBANG too. Does PO knows that?"

Sandara didn't answer Zico. There are lots of things about her that PO doesn't know...and apparently, she knows nothing about her roommate too.

Sandara just sighed. "I'm leaving." She just said.

Zico pulled out a cigarette from his pocket and was about to lit it when the nurse reprimanded him. He puts it back. "We didn't do it, you know. We didn't push Seungri from the building." He told her.

Sandara turned away her back from him. "I know." She just said.

Zico seemed surprised she believed him right away. "Well, that's good."

Sandara was about to walk away when she remembered something. She her heels and faced Zico.

"What?" Zico asked.

Sandara was serious as she spoken her next words, "Don't ruin people's future by recruiting them at such a young age to be part of your gang. They're too young to deal the harsh reality of your world." She glanced at the blood on her shirt and hands.

Zico just laughed at it as he waved his hand on Sandara. "No more high schoolers. Got it. Bye." And he left the floor using the opposite side of the hallways.

Sandara wanted to believe Zico at that but she would be a fool to do so. She will talk to PO some other time about this. Even if he won't listen to her.

Sandara left the hospital. Even if she wanted to delay meeting GD, she knew she has to face him sooner or later. He is far more important to meet after what have happened that night. She needs to explain her side, at least.

Sandara knows GD is mad at her. His hurt looks to her still haunted her.

Sandara sighed as she hailed a taxi to BIGBANG's fraternity house.

Her heart beating erratically. 

The frat house was quiet when Sandara arrived at the place. It was past midnight too so she is sure most of the members were tired from the fight and probably already sleeping in their own rooms.

Sandara climbed the stairs to the second floor to reach her room. 

Since their rooms are opposites to each other, Sandara stopped in front of GD's room for a while. 

GD was hurt from the fight earlier and she wanted to check on him, too. But his hurt looks on her haunted her so much she wanted to delay meeting him in person for a while. Maybe at least for now. She will deal with his anger tomorrow. 

Sandara bit her lips as she sighed and went to her room instead. She opened the door...just for her heart to almost stop beating.

GD was already inside. He was sitting on her bed, seemingly waiting for her...for a while now.

Sandara gasped in surprise to see him there. She didn't expect to see him there at this hour. So much for her plan on delaying seeing him for a bit.

GD was looking seriously at her.

Sandara quietly closed the door behind her as she quickly checked him. GD was shirtless but his torso was wrapped in bandages. She could tell he received lots of hitting on the ribs. If it hurts a lot, GD didn't show it to her.

Sandara glanced at her own self. She was still in her old clothes, stank with blood. Not hurt, but looked like she joined the fight because of the blood on her shirt and hands, plus her messy hair, too.

Sandara bit her lips, GD was eerily quiet. She was still standing by the door, too. Even if it is her own room, she couldn't help but feel intimidated under GD's presence here. It feels like everything in this room is not her's but his own. Even this whole house, it is under his lordship.

"I am--" Sandara started, clearing .

"I expect you to be gone in this house by tomorrow." GD cuts her, coldly.

Sandara gasped inside as she bit her lips again. GD is mad. He is truly mad at her.

GD then stood up. He bumped her shoulder on his way out. He didn't even looked at her again nor saying anything else. He just left her.

Suddenly, it reminded Sandara of the time they first met, at the hallway in the courthouse many months ago. Strangers to each other. 
 

That's how she felt right now. GD made her feel she's a stranger to him.

When the door was closed, Sandara's knees gave up and she fell kneeling on the floor. Her emotions inside were in chaos. While her subconscious mind was unusually quiet. Not hurling any witty remarks for now.

Why, but GD's coldness to her was something she didn't expect she would feel bad about. But at the back of her mind, she understood GD's anger towards her too. She betrayed the gang.

Sandara helped an enemy instead of helping GD. She even went to the hospital with them. The hurt look GD gave to her was clear.

She betrayed the BIGBANG Fraternity. She have betrayed him. He expected her to be by his side all the time, and she failed him.

Sandara couldn't help but get chills at the thought of the possibilities of what GD could do to her once he finds out that she was the one responsible to what have happened to Seungri. That she have caused Seungri's coma.

Sandara scoffed and wanted to mock her self after that. She felt so weak.


 

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