Some might think that after the reunion of Soojin and Shuhua/Susan it would be easy but it wasn't, that night they talked for hours, even after the event was over they continued talking, Susan told the pieces of memories/dreams she had and an excited Soojin complemented the rest of their story, Soojin wanted to call her parents and tell them about Susan, she wanted to ask for the Yeh's phone number too but Susan became overwhelmed and she decided not to call, they exchanged phone numbers and Soojin ended up leaving Susan at her apartment with the promise that they would see each other the next day.

Soojin left but Susan's head didn't stop spinning, she was overwhelmed with everything that had happened, Jin ah existed, Jin ah is real and used to be her best friend, her dreams really were fragments of someone's memory... her memories? Shuhua´s? Who was she? For so long she was tormented by those memories and now that Susan had an explanation she knew she wasn't crazy... but, does she really have two people inside her... or was she two people? Susan thought about calling her mothers and telling them what was going on but they would probably think she was crazy, what would she do?

Susan doesn't know what time she fell asleep but she woke up disoriented to someone knocking on her door, she looked at her watch and saw it was close to noon, she walked to the door and as soon as it opened

-Soojin ssi?

-Hello Shu...I mean Susan I hope I didn't wake you up

Susan yawned but smiled

-You woke me up but don't worry about it, what do you have there?

Soojin grinned and walked into Susan's apartment with a box.

-I remembered that I had some pictures

-Photos?

-From you, I mean Shuhua

-Alright, you can show me

They sat down and Soojin opened the box and took out some old photos and handed them to Susan.

-That's you, I mean Shuhua

Susan analyzed the little girl in the photo, she had never seen her reflection in her dreams so it was a nice to see Shuhua's face, they kinda looked alike but not very much, Susan was a faithful copy of her eomma Taeyeon, the only thing she had looked like Shuhua were her eyes, they were definitely the same eyes and the curly hair

-She was beautiful

-She was and this is ... me

Susan felt her heart beat faster and go dry, it was Jin ah, this was the girl who inhabited her dreams since she was a child, she would recognize her anywhere, it was all real

-Jin ah...

Soojin gasped and Susan looked at her confused

-It's just that... can you say that again?

-Jin ah... ?

Soojin's eyes filled with tears.

-It's really you...

-I think so

Soojin opened a huge smile and went on to show Susan photo by photo and explain who those people were and what they were doing, Susan had recognized some faces in the photos but she didn't have as many memories of them as she had of Soojin

-Wait what?

-I said that I still have your sister's contact, we can arrange a meeting with her

-Wait wait Soojin ssi, stop

Soojin looked at her in surprise.

-What?

-Look, I know that all this is very exciting for you, I know because this is all a huge thing for me too, for years I thought I had some problem you know? I had a whole parallel life in my head that I remembered and no one could explain to me why and I'm finally getting answers but meeting Shuhua's family now... it's too much

-Too much?

-I'm Shuhua...but I'm not Shuhua Soojin ssi, I am Susan and I have another life that has nothing to do with her...

Soojin got sad but nodded in agreement

-I thought it could help you

Susan smiled at her

-Don´t be sad, it helps a lot but it's a lot of information to process... can you understand that?

-Yes...

-Maybe if we take baby steps...what do you think?

Soojin gave her a shy smile.

-I think it's a great idea.

-Good, I'm hungry let's order something for lunch, I only have strawberries in my fridge

- Strawberries?

-Yes, I love them, why?

-Shuhua doesn't like it...

Susan raised an eyebrow and she became quiet.

-What do you think of Thai food?

-I love thai food

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When Susan entered Neverland she never thought that she and Soojin would become friends but that's what happened, despite being a busy person Soojin made a point of seeing her every day, they usually have dinner together since the office was empty and no one would make unnecessary comments about the two of them. Soojin was a fun and caring woman and it wasn't difficult for Susan to fall in love with her, the only problem is that Soojin didn't see her as Susan, Soojin wanted Shuhua back, she always talked about her, told stories about them and sometimes she got frustrated when Susan couldn't remember something, but it wasn't Susan's fault, most of Shuhua´s memories were little moments, Susan had lived much longer than Shuhua and it was normal for her brain to have more memories of Susan's past than Shuhua´s. Sometimes she wondered if it would have been better if she never remembered anything at all or if she had never approached Soojin that night, then she wouldn’t have this guilt for not being the Shuhua she wanted so badly.

It all came down when Soojin kissed her after a movie marathon, Susan was taken by surprise but as soon as Soojin tried to deepen the kiss she pushed her away.

-Stop

-Why?

-You're not in love with me

-I love you, I really do

-No, you don't! You love an echo of the past Soojin

-Shu...Susan

-See?! That's exactly what I'm talking about, you don't see me Soojin, when you look at me you only see Shuhua

-I...

-What do you like about me Soojin ssi? Be honest!

Soojin was silent and Susan sighed

-See? I'm sorry you lost Shuhua and lost all the life you two could have built together but I´m not her! And please, let's not talk about reincarnation right now, I know I've always shared my mind with Shuhua but I can't bear to share the woman I like with her

Soojin looked at her in surprise.<