I awoke , wrapped in Mina's arms. She smelled like rain and her body was warm and comforting to me. I watched her sleep on the pillow and wondered what I had done to get so lucky. Mina wasn’t Taeyeon. She wasn’t my great love but she was kind and she protected my heart where Taeyeon had only caused me pain. Mina was a true paradox. I got the impression that she cared about me a great deal but I also didn’t feel the hurt or jealousy coming from her, one would typically expect when they knew the person they cared for was in love with someone else. Instead, Mina felt my pain and longing for Taeyeon and tried to do whatever she could to make my life better. In some ways, I felt like she saw me as a problem to solve or a mission to complete but I didn’t care. She was gorgeous and as much as I wanted to believe Tiffany, I worried that it was me who had created the rift between Taeyeon and I. I worried that Taeyeon would never look at me with love in her eyes ever again. After Tiffany left, I spent a decent amount of time trying to talk myself out of going to Seogwipo for Hyoyeon's birthday, but how could I not go? Hyoyeon had become like a sister to me, she's my best friend and also the one that introduced me to Taeyeon and her circle of friends, who were nice, decent people that cared a lot about me, of course I have to make it. Besides, Tiffany was right. If there was the smallest chance Taeyeon was in trouble, we had to find a way to help. It was my broken heart and my total lack of self confidence that made me want to give up but my love for Taeyeon would never die. I had to try something. I rolled over and grabbed my phone. I was shocked to find a text from Taeyeon. It was strange. I didn’t expect it. She had been radio silent for so long and now, I had a tether to my heart. I was almost afraid to open it. I missed her so much I could barely breathe. I opened the text and re-read it over and over. I laid there in bewildered disbelief, praying I wasn’t still asleep and that my eyes weren’t betraying me. I know I have no right to say this to you Sica but I love you and miss you with all of my heart. I’m sorry I let this distance grow between us. I miss you. Sleep well. I wept immediately when I read the words “I love you”. I can’t explain why but it was like she had my heart in a vice grip since the day she returned and that text felt like she finally let go and showed me a little bit of love. It was small but I loved her so much when I read it. I shook uncontrollably and sobbed so hard, Mina awoke, immediately startled. She sat up and wrapped an arm around me. “Beautiful? What’s wrong with you?” I handed my phone to her and she read the text. “Are you okay? What do you think it means?” “I have no idea. I can’t tell if she is trying to screw with me or if she still has feelings for me. Why would she text me like this if she didn’t still care unless she is just being cruel. I love her so much Mina. I don’t know what to do”, I broke down and sobbed. Mina wrapped her arms around me in her typical fashion, she was loving and supportive. “We will go to Seogwipo and you will get the answers you need. One way or another, you will find out what you need to know. Everything will be okay.” I looked at her and I felt terrible. “I’m sorry if this is weird. I know it’s strange that I am crying on your shoulder and you’re here being loving and supportive. I feel like an .” Mina laughed and smiled brightly. “I am not looking for anything in particular. I care about you and you’re in pain. That’s it. I know your heart belongs to Taeyeon. You have never made a secret about that. You are not an . You are a wonderful passionate woman who I adore. You can stay in my arms and use me for as long as you need to beautiful.” I looked up at Mina and realized she was a gift. I wiped my eyes and she reached over and handed me a tissue. She leaned in and kissed my lips softly. She wrapped her arms around me and pulled me back down so I was laying on her chest. “We will figure this out. I promise.” ~~~ It was time to go, Mina had already packed our bags, but I was still laying in bed, hesitant. I don't want to go to Seogwipo. I don't want to be anywhere near Taeyeon for now because I'm so damn scared. But like I said, Hyoyeon is a friend and a sister, I couldn't let her down, not for any reason. As far as Taeyeon is concerned, I will say I'm already used to getting hurt by her. My stomach was sick and my heart felt uneasy when we arrived at the Ocean palace hotel, we were a little late but Hyoyeon was so happy I could make it and she greeted Mina and I warmly . I saw Taeyeon and Yuri immediately. Taeyeon looked over but she seemed aloof until she saw Mina. She narrowed her gaze and looked at Mina like she wanted to use a laser vision to bore a hole through her skull. She didn’t seem like the same woman who had sent me that sweet text message but it was nice to know she cared about something. I suppose you can’t be jealous if you don’t feel. I spent all day looking at the message. It was like my heart broke and was uplifted at the same time. In the end, I wanted to know she still loved me, even if we couldn’t be together but she wouldn’t say the words aloud. Seeing her message hurt me because I felt like the canyon between us had grown wider even though we wanted to be by each other’s side. My heart and my mind were a jumble of emotions. I knew I needed to get her alone somewhere and I was sure that was part of Tiffany's grand plan anyway. We walked inside the living room of the la