Snow In Summer
Description
If I told you to close your eyes and picture the one you long the most, would you ended up with their face smiling or scowling at you?
After several years being apart with him, I finally able to bring myself back to him. Few scenarios laid out in my mind as to how I would react when I meet him again, all of those involves me smiling so big whilst running for his arms.
But now. Here I am frozen. Despite him being so near to me.
He doesn't know me anymore. He doesn't want me anymore.
All of my wish somehow turned real in a twisted way. The sun shone brightly above and there he is, smiling so big as if he was the happiest person alive, whilst running for another man's arms.
He could easily notice me if he would just move his eyes for a bit, but the man in front of him took everything in him.
I stay silent as I watched them move closer until I can't look anymore. I shift my eyes elsewhere.
What am I doing here.
Foreword
"Don't you get it? I was there first! It is me who always be there for you not that random guy!" he ran his hands through his hair, frustrated with all of my dumb choices. What can i say, i already know this would end badly. "I know you first! I help you first! And I became the first person you can actually trust! And i was the first to-"
"But I love him first!" suddenly I shout at him, i can see a picture of me regretting this in the future, but i can't keep leading him on like this. No matter how much i gave him the hint to realize i am not interested, eventually he wouldn't listen. My sudden outburst seem to froze him as he stood there wide eyes, begging me to take it back. "I love him first..." i said again this time lowering my voice "....even before i met you. So please, let me have my happiness." i can't bear to look at him right now. The glint of hurt flashes in his eyes.
He nodded at me, signaling he understand what i want, and left.
Footsteps can be heard somewhere behind me, getting nearer every second. I don't care if someone heard us; the only thing in my mind is how to get my best friend back.
"He will probably hate you now." The voice cutting off my mind. Turning around i saw who it is, i replied with a small crooked smile on my face.
"Good, at least we have something in common." Gazing the floor beneath me, i can feel the tears forming "I loathe myself even more"
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