The thing with Baekhyun and Jongdae is they’re very demonstrative. Baekhyun more than Jongdae, but some of that touchiness has rubbed off on Jongdae. For the most part, Chanyeol doesn’t mind. He hates being alone, and he adores his friends. He loves being with them.

It’s hard to not feel like a third wheel, though.

Baekhyun and Jongdae have been sort of dating for a while. Sort of meaning Chanyeol’s not exactly sure if they are or not, because they have both approached him with honest intentions—Baekhyun’s being dirty intentions; he has a thing for tall men and sometimes looks at Chanyeol like he’s a mountain to conquer. Comes by it honestly, though.

Maybe it’s flattering, but Chanyeol just feels bad. He knows he can’t give them what they’ll eventually will probably want. What any normal, healthy relationship involves. With Chanyeol, however, physical intimacy can only go so far before it gets gross and leaves a greasy, creepy crawly feeling over his flesh.

Biology is just gross, and he envies most girls that don’t have to live with a single-minded creature between their legs.

It’s hard to explain.

So he doesn’t.

He lets them down in a wishy washy sort of way. Not wanting to hurt their feelings, he leaves his responses open-ended. Room to hope for the future.

But that leaves a question: If they’re dating, why even come to him? They haven’t been fighting, when they approach Chanyeol. Not that he knows, anyway, so it’s probably not some revenge scheme. It’s not convenience—they both have lots of friends and now each other.

It’s frustrating.

Sometimes, Chanyeol wishes they’d just leave him alone, so he can get rid of the guilt and anxiety.

Most times, he wishes he was normal and could laugh about capades and boast about plans for hooking up with someone without wanting to throw up at the very idea.

Something must be wrong with him. Maybe his primal animal brain is underdeveloped.