it was a very random idea, but i'm glad i wrote it. a soft, silent happiness i wished to portray, i'd found and learnt to define as i wrote this. some of these feelings are my own. and i'd wish i can hold onto those precious feelings like gems, that ownership of the warmth in my heart i feel- sometimes that just makes you feel like a real person. a happy one, surrounded by lots of beauty even if life gets ugly, even if times get lonely. stars are some pretty stuff, flowers too. but as i always say and believe, people are more beautiful than flowers (actually, i found this in a song IOI covered on Immortal Songs II).

i wrote a lot of the second chapter thinking about a friend, a precious one i'm grateful for. it is truly a huge blessing i met her early and- unlike yuna for eunbi- there were my ugly times she had unfortunately needed to witness. but the fact that she had taught me to love and the fact that she is always here holds so much meaning.

and ofc, we've all been missing sinju. our sweetest babies. hehe. i've been looking at these two for a long time and i find that the kind of company and love they give each other, they're so special. i guess as someone calls it "destiny" and as someone insists a purple flower for her first love 💜 hehe asdfgHJKL THESE TWO ARE TOO CUTE I CANNOT

hehe and as you can see, my autumn was a lot happier, tho more boring, than my summer was. haha well it was another attempt of intellectualising my feelings and summarising my season (tho there's still another month till winter but it feels like fall is ending bc the school sem is ending HAH UNI) and like yuna mentioned to eunbi in chapter two that the waves came again yet did not drown eunbi earlier this month, that was me exactly and i'm just vv thankful to God who gives me strength and joy to carry on. thankful to God for the lessons i could learn and from there become a stronger person who also has learnt to seek and understand beauty.

i hope you've enjoyed reading it as much as i've enjoyed writing it! i do hope i will get to write more again soon i love our mainline and since the vacation will be here soon~