The you in me
Description
Waking up in unfamiliar places with unfamiliar faces has become a very normal thing for me. Not being able to remember what I've been doing yesterday or how I ended up having detention for getting in a fight was not surprising anymore. In fact I've learned to accept it. My weakness. My illness.
The you in me.
Everytime you did something unexplainable I found a way to cover it up. Making stories to make sense of the most stupid things you did, never once I tried to chase you away. But I can't do this anymore. All this time we lived together sharing our time. I never complained about anything you did. But now you are trying to control me, my world. I'm not letting that happen. I'm not weak. I will show you whose in control no matter what..
Foreword
"You are a monster. How could you do this to me? Why can't we be like before?" my cheeks were wet with tears and the cut on the corner of my mouth started to sting reminding me of what happened earlier.
"Because you are no fun. Why are you so weak. Why beg like that. Those freaks deserves it" he spat it out with a mocking smirk lingering in his lips. I could feel my legs trembling. I felt so small in front of him.
"Look at you. You are trembling like a little puppy. That's why I told you to let me handle it."
"I'm not weak." I can feel my tears flowing down like a river. His laugh echoed throughout the bathroom walls. A sharp pain went through my head.
"You are pitiful. You are a shame Park Jisung. A shame.." My head was throbbing so hard. My vision was blurred.
"No. no.... I'm not... not weak.. I... please... Aaaahhhhhh..." I felt like hundreds of needles piercing my head. Everything was floating. I could see his laughing figure staring at me through the mirror. I wanted to rip my head out from my body. My legs gave up.
"Weak. Park Jisung.. You are weak. Still a baby. So pathetic. You can't live without me."
His voice pierced through my eardrums. I could feel my last meal making its way up to my mouth. My whole body was trembling. My eyes lost focus. And the last thing I saw before they closed were the blue and black sneakers running rowards me.
" Jisung-ah... "
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