(GAI POV) I don't know why I feel uneasy when I saw Mavin and Josh hug each other. I don't even know why I'm thinking about it. Lately,I've been thinking about Josh hyung a lot. Its strange because Josh hyung and I are close , really ... Like bff's. As in. So its really weird for me that I couldn't seem to shake his image off my mind. Everytime I close my eyes,I see his gentle,shining and beautifu—no handsome face. I always have this urge to get close to him. I always make sure to be a few steps away from him. And then I get agitated when I see him with the other members like Mavin,Roy,Blink and Perry and even Sid! god damn it I am jealous. Especially with Mavin because they're so close. Closer than I and him. What should I do? “Hey Gai! What are you zoning out about?” Perry hollered at me while sipping his Taiwanese drink. Speaking of drinks,I brought lots of Japanese drinks and they're on the fridge. Gotta get them and maybe hand one over to Josh,he'll like it and then maybe we can have a lil chitchat after that. Sighs. I really need to relax. I know that what I'm feeling isn't love. Its simply a desire to be closer to Josh. That kind and cool Filipino guy just gives me a lot of inspirations. Damn,this is confusing. I never thought that going to Korea to pursue my dreams would bring me to this situation. To this confusion. I'm baffled to say the least. “still not gonna answer me? What's with you today? ” Again,Perry yelled at me. “I'm fine just distracted.” Perry hummed before leaving me alone. Ugh. Finally. I saw Josh coming towards me with his signature gummy smile. His bright smile that never f