Someday After the nightmare incident of burning sun case, seungri life shatter into pieces. No friends like before where he can hangout everyday and travel arround the world. They succes to ruin seungri life. Now Seungri is dead. He forget all sweet memories for past 13 years. Seungri is move on, he need to keep alive. Seungri continue his life not as seungri but as riri. Riri he like that name rather than seungri. Now at 10.30 closed his mini caffe. Slightly smile appear in the innocent face that throw hatred by people arround the world 3 years ago. After finished militery service, seungri move to japan. That moment he remember vividly how his mom cry so hard and his appa can’t do anything meanwhile hana so furious. Seungri leave korea and stay at japan for almost 8 months. He cut all of the communication with all of friends include his four hyungs. Its not easy but riri want to forget those painful memory. He can’t stood sturdly at the place where all of hatred and bad comment for him. No one looking for the truth they just need some one to hate. Unfortunately seungri is the one. Accidently a tears fall down, take a deep breath. “aish.... its ok. Its ok. You are save now” seungri forced himself to be strong.he put hard effort to hold his tears but how hard he try always failed. Tears cant be hold and he cry silently alone. “hikss......I miss them”. The last sentence before he fall sleep. “eomma, please...please let me go” seungri begged, he wasn’t cry that time even his mom cry hard. He wan numb and no left single tears anymore. Seungri dont give up to ask permission leave gwangju. He try so hard to confince he will be ok. Everything will be ok. “seunghyun ah...please....” seungri eomma can’t continue her sentence. Its so hard, she can’t do anything. Her oldest son the little seunghyun the naughty kid but has high responsibility to change economy. That time 11 years old little seunghyun told his mom to trust him, he can take them all from poverty and give them delicious food, comfy home, best clothes and pay all of debt. She never know his little son will work that hard to give better life for his family. Until at the moment little seunghyun give money to his parents in his first year debut to pay all of debt. He give all money to his parents. At that time seungri promise they will proud to have kid as lee seunghyun, the smartest boy. “please eomma, I need time, i need place where i can heal. Place where i feel save and no one know me. I want breath mom...i need breath..it suffocated me.” His eomma hug seungri thightly. It so hard to let seungri go. Seungri promise will give them a call but he beg not to give his address or number to any one include his hyung. Seungri panted and get up from his sleep. He gulp and breath slowly take a sip of water. Again almost one year he leave those all memmory can’t be erase. Seungri remember the last time he meet his hyung. “what do you mean?” ask jiyong look at seungri who sit opposite. Top and taeyang stand not far from seungri and jiyong. Meanwhile daesung sit on the floor with blank expression. “ I am very sorry. But I can’t. It my decision to retire from showbize. I can’t continue........” CRASSHHH Jiyong throw a vase of flower, seungri flinch clutch his palm and look at jiyong directly. They look at each other for a moment. “don’t talk about bul. You are big bang. We will stay together no matter what happend. I will bring you back and clean your name. Just wait until the contract end.” Seungri hug his knee and cry that is the last day he stay in korea. He didn’t tell them if he will go, he cut contacted them. Maybe they will hate seungri like those holy people who feel disguting at seungri. “hufffff........”seungri take deep breath wipe his tears, get up wash his face. This is his daily life now, open mini caffe serve simple snack and drink. Seungri life save and well here. Sometime he visit a grandmother who stay not far from fujiyama, she is the only friend seungri has in japan. This place is far from crowded. Seungri also not use social media, he close and delete everything. Next year he has plan to go to college to take law major but he need save more money for it. “Riri ganbate.....you are the best” seungri smile widely at mirror before he go. We never know what will happend in our futere. Sadness will not stay forever it will replace by happiness and happiness also will not stay forever it will replace by sadness to. But how hard our life now, still there is tomorrow. Still there is hope and forgive in this world. Let sadness and happiness be memmory and for next day we create our best memory.

TBC Noted:

Hi i feel now for this case. I want write a long story but on process. Lets keep strong and support riri. I write this ff by listening to riri’s sweet voice ost pinoccio. I am crying due to seungri photo blurr by YG. I pray everyday for riri to stay strong and to keep alive. I miss his giggle and smile #tears