Dear Seungri

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This is not a fanfic. Just an open letter to the man who showed me how to be a better person

Foreword

Dear Seungri,

When I was in 7th grade a friend of mine sent me a compilation of k-pop MVs. I watched the whole thing but only one boy caught my attention - he had bright eyes, kind and childlike, angel voice and moves I've never seen before. There were GD&TOP, SNSD, 2ne1 MVs in the compilation but only the boy with the playful smile stole my heart.

This happened 9 years ago. And so many things changed ever since.

You taught me to get better with every single day, to try harder, to never ever stop trying no matter what. In high school I got bullied A LOT. I was failing classes, had no friends, my parents were so disappointed. But you inspired me to be the best version of myself. I studied hard until I got to the top of my class, even the top of my school. 

Your language skills made me give my best when it came to learning French, English, Russian and Korean. I went to national language competitions led by the thought of wanting to be "just like Seungri". I even got my English certificate extra early, 9th grade, being the youngest one at the exam.

You inspired me to be self-disciplined and lose weight, get in shape, change my look from being a weird nerd wearing glasses to being "one of those girls" who strut down the street in their high heels. I feel comfortable in my skin THANKS TO YOU and no one else. Today I'm confident because of Seungri and no one else.

I grew up antisocial and quiet because of all the bullying i went through in high school. Yet watching your interviews, being all talkative and bubbly, made me confident enough to be considered "loud" today. And I love it. I don't care that some find me annoying at times - I worked hard not to be the girl in the back of the room.

When I got admitted into university, with the highest (maximum) grade that year, Seungri's business inspired me to be a boss b*tch. I'm the girl who has her sh*th together, who works hard, who does many things. You're a dancer, singer, composer, dj, actor, businessman, EVERYTHING. That's why I picked up acting, drawing, graphic design, writing (not only fanfics but scientific work), translating. I want to do more. I want to take all the world is giving me.

My dearest Seungri, you're truly a part of my small family. I'm no longer a teenager, I don't call you "oppa" and I never had, mainly because when I look at you I see a brother... even better, I see myself. When I had no one else - I had you. That's why now you have me. In my worst days you made me smile. You saved me. You didn't just save me from becoming a person who's not doing anything with their life. You SAVED ME by cheering me up when I was suicidal in 8th grade and I was seriously about to end my life because I just couldn't see things getting better.

I'm 22 now but you're still my idol. I'm not into k-pop anymore but Lee Seungri will ALWAYS be the person I look up to. I love you with all my heart in the purest way possible.

They don't know you. Maybe I don't know you either but when I look into your eyes I see kindness. People love bringing down legends. It's because they are weak and want to feel strong by tearing apart the strongest ones. You're strong. You have always been strong. Lee Seungri, YOU'RE THAT B*TCH and you shouldn't let the small people get to do. You truly are the great Seungri. Always and forever. Being "that b*tch" is beautiful - you do what you wanna do and you do it well. I watched you grow up from a silly boy into a powerful man.

On this day I cried like I haven't cried since I was in high school. I don't want to miss you. I need you in my life just like everyone else. Your smile gets me going, it makes me want to improve myself.

You're a good man, Seungri. I know you might not be seeing it right now but there are so many people proud of you. We're not buying the disgusting propaganda and you're still shining as bright as ever in our eyes. Please, don't take away our light because of the ones who are blind for it.

Sometimes I call you son because I feel like an overprotective mom when it comes to my cutest boy who's all grown up now. And now like a loving mother, a young sister, I want to tell you to keep your head up. Hold it high up, don't let your crown fall off.

My biggest dream ever is to see you live. I hope it comes true one day, I hope you don't leave us...

Don't forget the people who love you. Please. Don't forget about us and don't stop thinking about us because we won't. You'll always be in our thoughts and prayers. I've been loving you for almost 10 years and I'll love you for 1000 more no matter what.

Stay strong.

We love you.

Baby, good luck to you.

 

 

G.M.

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ninadebrov23 #1
Im crying reading your letter. He is my inspiration too. I don't usually give af about kpop but lee seungri he makes me cried for him love him. He's worth everything. I'm really sad when people belittle him thinking that he is not important. you thought big bang will become legend if its not because of him too. I'm so mad the fact that he went through 24 trials for something he didn't do!! I miss him too much 😭
soleyjun #2
My God this is heartbreakingly beautiful, thank you for this, thank you for not giving up and for being here for him today, thank you for being that boss b*tch now thanks to the light that he gave you, thank you for these words that reflect a lot of what I feel too, I hope that he returns to us, that he is an even brighter light and that he and we are always very happy, I send you hugs with my eyes full of tears.
Befun21 #3
Thank you so much for this warm word ,i hope Seungri can read letter
haennaseyo
#4
I hope somehow messages like this will reach our Seungri to give him strength
drrreash #5
this made me crying at half past 2 in the morning. i miss him so much
aelin_vip #6
I still remeber that day in late January when I woke up to the message "WTF is this" in one of my GCs..I feel like everything since then has been a bad dream. I want to do something for Seungri, because like you he was my inspiration in my hardest days. I feel like I owe him something.
But I can't go onto TW or IG to support him fully, because seeing all the hate he gets from ot4 is breaking my heart. Daesung is my bias, but Seungri was the one I related to the most. Maybe I see fragility in him that I myself am so desperate to hide in myself. Every time I see VIPs bashing him, discrediting his contribution to BB and saying he is not important..I am back to that dark places and I feel like they are telling me the same things.
I will support Seungri, I will support Dae and I will support BIGBANG if they decide to back him up. But I will never again be a VIP.
I will just stay on aff, reading all the fan fiction where Seungri is loved properly. Sadly, VIPs loving him was a fiction I once truly believed in.
AleenaAdiba #7
I was crying cause of your letter. Great to know there is someone else still love n support our baby panda.
klaviatoorka
#8
I hope the VIPs will remember Seungri not only from the scandal, but also from all the good times he gave us from BB and solo.
And thank you for writing about him.
Your job gives me hope for a quick, positive solution to the scandal.
Let's hope that his brothers and his leader will support him in this difficult situation.
Because he can not count on most of his VIPs ...
Pandafans #9
I m touched reading your letters for him.. Im grateful ur gained confidence and success through him.. Actually im new vip in the late 2016..i ve known bigbang through running man and top through commitment movie.. Im a fan of kim yoo jung too.. Then i watched taeyang fantastic duo.. Its the 1st time in my life searching their old video until found their documentary.. Then i watched seungri episod in that documentary.. Im found him a very special kid.. He is so kind.. Cute n cheerful boy.. Until the part yg make them fight with each other in dance fight and he is a leader of his team.. Im so touched by him when he massage youngbae after exhausted with the dance practice while jiyong scolding his team.. I hope he rest well this day..spend his last moment with family and true friends.. Before enlistment.. Once again thank yoh for ur support.. Hug and peace to all vip in the world who still supporting him till the truth come out..
ibethesunnylee #10
Crying... again. That was beautiful. What I would give for him to be able to read that and know that there are still so many of us who haven’t turned their back on him and cherish, love and support him. My heart breaks just thinking of how alone he must feel. Like his whole world just got pulled from underneath him and everyone has turned against him. It’s so painful to even look at my twitter/ig feed, I’m shocked and appalled at how many people I considered his fans that have him -all with no solid proof of wrongdoing- and certainly not given any chance to defend himself. And seriously, this all started because there was an altercation at one of his many clubs, and some hat wanting to take ‘everyone down using Seungri’s name”.. and overnight the whole ing country has decided he’s guilty of what exactly!? It makes me so disgusted. Anyway, my point is - this was a heartbreaking, beautiful letter, not only for Seungri but for all of us who are still behind him, and are also feeling abandoned and alone right now.
Thank you for sharing your love with us.