2018

"Kim Hanbin, stop working with Hayi for now. We'll release Killing Me in an a few weeks."

This was the first thing I've read. I didn't know YG was really serious about pushing this fcking comeback once more. I mean, I've been there and I know how he was always been. But Hayi has waited long enough. I was about to call YG before my phone beeped again.

LEE HAYITING: "Hanbinssi, thank you for your hardwork. It's not your fault so please don't be mad. I'll be cheering for your comeback! We'll work together soon. If not in YG. kkkkk. Good luck! BI jjang!"

How could she still be this kind? If I were her I would have thrown a fit. I did it once, actually. That's why BDAY was released. I threw a large fit,, not even BIGBANG hyungs could control me.  IWhen it didn't go well, I heard those "I told you so" but I didn't regret it. I will never regret doing it. 

But then, this was the first time she's been this nice to me in a while. She never looked at me or said such nice words to me in a long time. And it was all my fault. It was all my fcking fault. I always say I don't regret anything I do. "Why would I regret?" But there was one thing I regret. It was not being nice to Lee Hayi, my light in this never ending darkness. 

2015 after release of My Type

Awards here and there, I was on a high. This is what I live for. I'd do everything for this to last long. I want to top the charts! Achieve more than our hyungs and sunbaenim