I have been working with Tablo hyung since late last night and I won't forget what he said.

"I'm leaving YG soon."
"Hyung!! Waehhh?!!"
"Our contract is about to expire and I want to try other things. But may I ask one thing from you?"
"What is it hyung?" I'm sad but annoyed. How can he leave us? After PSY hyung left, it doesn't feel like a family anymore. I haven't been seeing Chaerin noona around. No Suhyun. No Hayi. No Dara noona. It feels so different now.
"Please look after Hayi."
Hearing Hayi's name hurts. I don't know why.
"She has noone else here other than me. Other than you. She wants to go with me and the band but I can't. I can't let her go into the risk I'm taking. She's fragile. She's too fragile for this cruel industry. I can't let her suffer for things I am still unsure of."
"But she's suffering here as well, hyung."
"I know. That's why I'm asking for your help. When Jonghyun passed away, her anxiety came back. Jonghyun has helped her a lot. I'm worried that she'll go through anxiety again after I leave."
Now I know why it hurts. I see her suffer everyday.
"I've seen all the songs you wrote for her. They are all beautiful. Please help her."

All the songs I wrote for her to sing. Yes. Tablo hyung has read them all. But he has never read all the songs I wrote about Lee Hayi.