Chapter 1: beautiful <3 this speaks to me so much, all the fears of both trying new things and being stuck in old things, wanting to be free from blame of uncontrollable things and just wanting to be in a world where things are under your control, where everything is safe and you can relax. And the worst - going along with things because of the fear of being alone. Why do we fear being alone, tho? Though I find solace sometimes in solitude, I'm also terrified of being friend-less, being without a family. I guess in this large, confusing world, we all need someone to lean on, even if we can't really be our true selves and have to hide a lot. gosh the words you used are really beautiful, i'm looking forward to see more of your writing <3 Good luck and you're doing great! :D