The fall

'Hyung this is yangyang'

Taeyong looked at the shy boy and all he can do is smile,the Chinese boy is too cute,he was literally hiding behind kun,too nervous to show himself fully,he wonder how old he is, he look younger than the maknae. 

'HI yangyang'

He wanted to coo, it feels like talking to a baby,he earned a smile,a very cute one,it warmed his heart,the same way mark and haechan did whenever they did something cute.... 

Here I go again... 

I really need to stop no matter how raw my wounds are! 

I don't want to remember....

I truly don't.... 

'This is hendery and this is xiaojun'

The other two new really good looking members bowed to him and that got taeyong surprised,it took winwin so long to learn korean manners.....

Taeyong wanted to smile at the memory of cute winwin with long hair and the nicest smile ever....

It made taeyong wonder,was winwin one of the members who visited the ceo to get ride of him?

Who exactly did it? 

Who went to the ceo and did it? 

How does that happened? 

Who spoke? 

How long he was living in the dark not knowing what happened around him? 

He feels hurt how he was acting all normal meanwhile they were just waiting for his fall

How can they be so cruel? 

He knows And he is sure he did his best! And how he was rewarded? 

His chest hurt, it was unexpected punch especially when it came from the side he though it was safe, a family, friends, a bonded band.... 

They are a bonded band but without him

He was never included... 

He wants to forget.

To start again.

No pain, no thoughts, no memories,No stress.

No worries.... 

He wants a brand new memory deserted from anything that have to do with any of them!

A new beginning includes Just working hard to achieve his dream,he will do his best ,he will use this chance to be better to himself and to the other new members.

'Taeyong hyung will share room with me'

The leader is glad he didn't cry in front of the members and he will try not to,crying won't bring back anything.... 

Lucas wrapped his arm around taeyong's shoulder pulling him out of his deep, dark train of thoughts, his perfect line of teeth are on display, it impossible for you not to smile back at him and although his situation he smiled back.... 

Chenle pouted at his hyung's words

'But I already kicked Renjun out so Taeyongie hyung can share my room with me'

Renjun doesn't look that upset,just a little betrayed.

'Hyung I can rap'

Jisung said taking taeyong's hand into his,his eyes are sparkling and so hopeful

Honestly taeyong is flattered,he doesn't Know what to say.

He is overwhelmed by the kindness and the opened hearts, honestly he can't take any more worries and problems and the most of it, he can't think no more, he can't exhaust his brain no more. 

He is really grateful for them. 

'Enough kids'

Kun said before looking at taeyong

'Taeyong hyung will make this choice,you can take your own room too,we don't mind hyung but we prefer having you sharing with us so you won't be lonely'

Kun smile,eyes disappearing in process.

Taeyong was fast to brush the idea of taking a room for himself, the Main reason he didn't want to impose plus being alone is the less thing in the world he can wish for, he wants to be busy so