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Joohyun's P.O.V

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, ‘I’ve got something to tell you.’
Wendy sat down and ate quietly. Again, I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn’t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce.

I raised the topic calmly. She didn’t seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, ‘Why?’
I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the fork she was using and shouted at me, ‘You are not a human!’
That night, we didn’t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I didn't try to wipe her tears. I didn't hug her tightly and told her not to cry. I let her cry her heart out and tried not to care.

But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jenny.
I didn’t love her anymore. I just pitied her! With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement, which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30 percent stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent two years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jenny so dearly.

Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce, which I had obsessed over for several weeks, seemed to be firmer and clearer now. I fully understood that my feelings for her slowly faded as days went by. 

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn’t have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jenny. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.
In the morning, she presented her divorce conditions: She didn’t want anything from me, but needed a month’s notice before the divorce which surprised me. Why would she divorce me after a month? It will be the same if she divorce me now. But I didn't ask anything.

 
This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that every day for the month’s duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. Then her other condition was to held hands and hug her whenever she wants. It was weird to think beacuse we didn't initiate any skinship for many months. 

I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request. I told Jenny about my wife’s divorce conditions.
She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn’t had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy.I felt annoyed too but didn't say anything since it was her condition. 

Her words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over with her in my arms.
She closed her eyes and said softly ‘Don’t tell our parents and friends about the divorce Joohyun’
I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, we were more at ease. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse.  I almost forgot how this girl smelled. I used to like her smell whenever we were intimate. She smelled the same as college days. Sweet vanilla fragrance. I realized that I hadn’t looked at this girl carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young as she was in college any more. She dyed her hair brown which I noticed now and she cut her hair short which made her look so cute with her bangs. I used to love her bangs. It always mattered to me. So after our marriage when she wanted to grow out the bangs I told her not to and she obeyed.

When we layed on the same bed togehter she told me face her which I didn't do since I started seeing Jenny. But now as the conditions I had to obey her so I did but didn't look at her in the eyes. 'Joohyun' she called me softly as she always did. Then the thougth striked me that it has been so long that I called her by her name. "Wannie" "Seungwannie" I used to call her these cute names but I didn't know when I stopped. I opened my eyes only to meet those soft brown orbs looking back at me. 'hug me' Wendy said and I did like before. I put my hand on her tiny waist.Her waist became so unknown to me as she was loosing weight. She put her behind my back and kept no distance between us as she snuggled closer to my neck inhaling my scent. We slept like this and I missed this very much. She was warm and I missed my warm Seungwan. I forgot she was my pers