"What is Love?" 

If that question is a million dollar question or a national exam question, surely, I will fail. I have lived for 20 years now but I have yet to experience attraction, what more love. I just really don't get its significance in my life. I admit that I am quite a late bloomer, and I realized that when the rate of change of interest among my friends aren't just the same as mine. I remember when we were in junior high school, all my friends were caught up in the idea of crushes  and relationship. On the other hand, there's me, who don't give a but keeps on listening to them. I find them quite hilarious and weird, ranting about problems that might seem really big but in truth, they're not. I don't get why they want to act mature when they are still young. What's wrong in being immature when you're young right? No one really expect full maturity from you and it is acceptable. Believing that, I have lived as immature and traditional AF. I mean I was quite shocked when my bestfriend entered school with a matching Hickey with his partner. I felt betrayed because I

 thought were the same. As entered the psychology Department during my Senior Highschool, I learned to cope with it and discovered that it was actually part of the normal process. Well, knowing that, it didn't yeild my beliefs, "no attraction, no love... but who cares" 

You know what? I am full cause I ate what I just said when during our graduation ball in senior highschool, 

Someone streched his hand out to me with a blinding smile

"Hey! Changkyun! This is Jooheon. Jooheon this is Changkyun" Hyungwon introduced.

He was mesmerizing, but I can't keep my eyes at him, he makes me shy. 

What the, I studied human mind and emotions, so how the f**k can't I explain mine?!