27: The First Snow

My Love That Is Forever

"Sign here please, Thankyou", The accountant smiled at them, as they got done after paying and got up to leave. As Taeyeon reached for her wallet in the clutch to put her credit card back, she realized it wasn't there.

"Oh fish! I think I forgot my wallet in the karaoke room", She declared to Chanyeol, as they started towards the exit door. She told him to go ahead despite his protests, and started towards the elevator.

She got out on the 3rd floor, realizing it was already twelve. She smiled, thinking Baekhyun’s birth day had started. Finding the door closed, she knocked lightly before twisting the handle and entering.

fell open at the scene in front of her.

..............................

Baekhyun found himself getting more and more light headed as he took in the form of the gorgeous girl sitting close beside him on the settee, their faces inches apart.

"So what were you saying? Something about lips was it?"

Suzy raised an eyebrow, clearly enjoying the flirtation. "Actually, I was just complementing your newly dyed hair. Blonde really suits you"

"Well sorry I didn't hear that. Guess I'm just a little too distracted....", Baekhyun leaned closer to her suggestively, fully enjoying the look of anticipation that crossed Suzy's face as he eyed her lips and she did the same. Baekhyun closed his eyes as his lips met Suzy's, the face of a certain person flashing in his mind momentarily and his forehead creasing, but he quickly pushed it to the back of his mind.

A gasp followed by the thwack of something hitting the floor, broke them both out of their trance and they jumped out of each other's embrace.

Taeyeon cursed herself for her clumsiness, as she bent down to fetch her mobile that had fallen out of her hands upon seeing what she had.

"T-Taeyeon?", Baekhyun felt like somebody had poured a bucket of cold water over him, making him come back to his senses as he looked at the girl in front of him, who he had so desperately been trying to get out of his mind.

"S-sunbae! We-we didn't know you were still here...", Suzy stammered as she smoothed out her dress, having gotten up from her place beside Baekhyun, flushing in embarrassment.

"I-uh-I left my-wallet here, so-so I came to fetch it....", Taeyeon was no less mortified herself, having walked in on a private moment. For some reason, a sick feeling settled at the pit of her stomach as she thought about what had been going on in the room. "I-I am sorry for interrupting...." She awkwardly apologized as she scuffled towards where she thought she had left her wallet, put it into her handbag and walked back towards the door, not meeting the eyes of the other two in the room.

Taeyeon turned around for a moment as she was about to cross the threshold and finally met Baekhyun's eyes, saying what she had thought she would say if she found him there: "H-Happy Birthday, Baekhyun" She tried to smile but it came out more as a grimace.

Baekhyun heart plummeted meters down as he saw hurt flash in Taeyeon's eyes as she wished him and then turned around at the speed of lightening and disappeared out the door. He sighed, feeling sobriety wash all over him as he thought about how she had managed to remember his birthday, despite him having been a jerk to her all evening. I don't want to think about her!

"Well, that was....", Suzy took a deep breath. "That was awkward, to say the least"

Baekhyun gulped, his fists clenching, almost as if his body was as much in denial of what he was doing as his mind. He coerced himself to stop thinking, as he put a sweet smile on his face and said the next words: "Do you mind if we take this somewhere a little more private?"

Suzy smiled back. "I thought you'd never ask"

_

"Well I don't think you can take him home in this condition, hyung", Sehun mused, as he stood beside the bed in his room along with Kyungsoo and Seungwan, overlooking a slumbering Jongin.

"He's right", Seungwan agreed with her brother.

As planned, Kyungsoo had come to Seungwan's house, to drop her and Soojung off first before he took Jongin home, but as soon he had stopped the car Jongin had jumped awake and ran out of the car to puke his guts out near the pavement. Seungwan, seeing his condition, had asked Kyungsoo to take him inside for a while to clean up with Sehun's help (who had been dropped home along with Yerim, by Yixing and Junmyeon only a little while ago). She had herself put Soojung to bed upstairs with Yerim and come down only to find Jongin sprawled on the bed, deep in sleep. He looked awful, and even Sehun who acted like he didn't like the guy one bit, felt concerned.

"Is he any better?", Mrs. Son walked into Sehun's bedroom, with a jug of water and some medicines. She had been at home when they had arrived, and her motherly concern had immediately taken over seeing Jongin like that. "Oh, he's already asleep. Well too bad" She said as she settled the tray on the nightstand. "Let us all go outside then, let him sleep"

"No actually I think I should take him home! It's already so late…", Kyungsoo said impatiently.

"Nonsense! You're not taking him anywhere in this condition!", Mrs. Son reprimanded Kyungsoo.

Kyungsoo sighed. "Well okay then, since you people are insisting. I'll come pick him up first thing in the morning" He gave in, not wanting to be impolite by refusing their hospitality. He then turned to Sehun. "Sehun-ah, message me as soon as he wakes up, okay?"

"Sure, hyung", Sehun gave him a small smile. Kyungsoo and Sehun had come to develop an amiable relationship between themelves, and it didn’t go unnoticed by Seungwan.

"And who said, you're going anywhere?", Mrs. Son interupted their exchange, raising her eyebrows. "There is a snow forecast for tonight, you know that right? So what's the point in going now, when its already so late? You and Jongin can both leave in the morning, when the weather's clear"

"No, but I really-"

"No buts! I’ll call Minjee and tell her that you two will be staying here for today. She's buried in a ton of paper work anyway so she’ll probably sleep in the office tonight. Meaning there's no one waiting for you at home", Mrs. Son said in a tone of finality.

Kyungsoo felt a little tongue tied since she had put up a good argument and although he didn't show it, he felt kind of excited at the possibility of staying there.

"Well okay then, I guess...." What was the harm in staying anyway? He could keep an eye on Jongin too, in case he woke up and caused trouble.

"Great then! Sehun lend him your pajamas", Mrs. Son immediately started working up the sleeping arrangements.

"I would but I don't think they would fit him seeing as his height is kind of –“, Sehun teased with a smirk.

"Yah!", Kyungsoo protested at first but then chuckled with Sehun.

Seungwan smiled seeing the light hearted exchange, wondering yet again how they had managed to break the ice between them. Mrs. Son went on to insist that Kyungsoo sleep with Jongin in Sehun's room but this time Kyungsoo strictly refused (seeing as Sehun was making faces, he understood that he probably didn't like sleeping in other places, he was already being generous enough letting Jongin sleep in his room) and insisted that he would take the couch.

_

Baekhyun sighed for the umpteenth time that night, as he stood at the glass window of his bedroom and watched the snow falling outside, sleep nowhere near his eyes even though it was about two in the morning. He sighed in frustration, thinking about the night's events and how royally he had screwed everything up, especially the events that had unfolded in his very room several minutes ago.

"Do you like my room?", Baekhyun asked, as he sat himself comfortably on his bed.

"Well it's nice....", Suzy shrugged.

They had agreed to go to Baekhyun's house as it was nearer, after they locked up the karaoke room and handed back the keys. Suzy drove Baekhyun's car as he was under influence. Throughout the drive, Baekhyun tried to fight off the tightening he kept feeling in his chest, with Taeyeon's face flashing in his mind every now and then.

"Well, I can certainly make this room more memorable for you….", Baekhyun smirked, feeling like a hypocrite, as his mind kept screaming at him to stop with the charade and save the little dignity he had left.

"Really, how?", Suzy smirked back, as she took slow steps towards him and he pulled gently at her hand, making her sit close beside him on the bed and then leaning towards her as she leaned back.

"How ever you want", He whispered, his breath fanning against her cheek and she visibly shivered. She only closed her eyes as she leaned back further on the bed and he did the same, now almost hovering over her.

You can never forget her like this you know, you're only fooling yourself, Baekhyun felt a ringing in his ears as the words ran through his mind and he halted from inching closer. I am not thinking about her she doesn't bother me, he clenched his jaw as he tried to convince himself and he closed his eyes only find Taeyeon's face staring back at him with hurt written all over her face.

You honestly believe that? The voice ran through his mind again, louder this time. You're a coward and that's what you'll always be! Baekhyun felt all his energy drain away as the rational part of him chided him again and again. He was going to badly regret what he was doing and he needed to stop before the damage got beyond repair.

"I can't....", He sighed in defeat, standing back from his position on the bed, as Suzy's eyes flicked open.

"What?", Suzy asked incredulously, as she sat up from the lying position, brushing away locks of hair from her face.

"I can't. This – me and you – this can't happen, I'm sorry", Baekhyun wanted to pull his hair in frustration at what he was blabbering because he himself couldn't understand why he was rejecting a captivating girl, who was right there in his bedroom, for God's sake, and more than willing.

"Why not? What happened Baekhyun, you were fine just now....?", Suzy looked utterly confused at the sudden change in his demeanor.

"I just...!", Baekhyun huffed covering his face with his hands. "I just-can't"

"Then why did you bring me here?".

"I don't know myself either I – “, Baekhyun looked at her, wanting to punch something hard. He knew the girl had every right to be angry at the way he was acting. "I'm sorry"

"Well, screw you!", Suzy grabbed her bag angrily from the table placed nearby, and stomped out of the room.

Baekhyun ruffled his hair furiously, as he heard the entrance door of his apartment close with a click.

No matter how much he thought about it, Baekhyun came to the same conclusion: he had been a complete and absolute jerk that day. It was highly unreasonable of him, to feel angry about something which had no solid base and even if there was, he had no right to feel agitated about it. Not to mention how ungentlemanly and shameless it was of him to bring Suzy to his house and then make her leave. She had every right to be furious at him.

I’m going crazy.

_

"You're still awake?", Kyungsoo sat up slightly from his lying position on the couch and looked away from his phone, seeing Sehun enter the lounge.

"Yeah, I was just playing games. Now I'm hungry", Sehun shrugged. "What about you?"

Kyungsoo shrugged in response. He hadn't been able to sleep after almost an hour of trying, so he had decided to watch a movie as it usually helped him doze off.

Sehun skimmed through the contents in the fridge and upon discovering nothing to his liking amongst the already cooked items, he decided to try making a sandwich, which it looked like was something he hadn't tried in a long time.

Hearing the clattering of plates, Kyungsoo's attention was diverted towards the kitchen. "Need a hand?", He asked.

"N-no-" There was some quick shifting as Sehun tried to balance the ketchup and mayo in one hand with the bread and plate in the other, which as expected, resulted in him dropping the plate, as he tried to save the slices of bread resulting in the plate falling to the floor with a loud clank. "I'm fine!", He called out, but Kyungsoo was already on his feet.

"Let me handle this", Kyungsoo switched to chef mode as soon as he got into the kitchen and saw Sehun standing their helplessly with different ingredients scattered on the counters. It reminded him of when Jongin had once tried to bake something for his birthday to surprise him, in the middle of the night and Kyungsoo had woken up because of all the clattering noise and discovered Jongin in less than tidy conditions with flour everywhere in the kitchen.

Sehun sighed and stepped back. Apart from asking Sehun about where a few things were placed and how much mayo and ketchup he would like in his sandwich, Kyungsoo worked quickly and efficiently and Sehun's sandwich was ready in a matter of few minutes.

"It's yummy!", Sehun complimented as he took a mouthful of the sandwich, still standing in the kitchen doorway. Kyungsoo smiled in response and they both sat down on the dining table to eat.

............................

Seungwan turned and shifted in her sofa bed on the floor, restlessly thinking about the day's events and particularly about Kyungsoo.

Should I go and talk to him? The thought crossed her mind, but she immediately brushed it away. He's probably fast asleep…. But she still couldn't get herself to fall into slumber and wondered if she should get up and walk around the house a bit. She thought she heard some clattering noises from downstairs but wasn't sure if they were indeed from within the house or not since it was very faint with the room's door closed. Silently, she got up and looked over at Tiffany and Taeyeon sleeping soundly on the bed. They had returned to the house a short while after Kyungsoo and Seungwan and after talking for only a little while, the three of them had decided to call it a night since they were tired. Taeyeon particularly seemed pre-occupied with something, as she kept spacing out every few minutes while they were gossiping and upon inquiry brushed it away by saying she was just tired. Seungwan was a bit skeptical if that was the real reason, but didn't push it.

She immediately shuddered at the chill in the air and wrapped a fleece around herself tightly. It's probably going to snow soon, the thought excited her.

As she descended down the stairs, she could make out the familiar voices of two people talking and was surprised when they came into view under the yellow bulb light of the room: sitting at the dining table and high-fiving over something. For a minute she didn't want to interrupt their jolly conversation but then she realized how late it was and the fact that Sehun still wasn't asleep was something to worry about. She cleared , making them turn towards her.

"Oh. Hi Noona! You're still up?", Sehun inquired.

"I should be the one asking you that?", Seungwan narrowed her eyes at him and then looked at Kyungsoo. "He's not bothering you, is he?"

"No, not at all", Kyungsoo shook his head smiling. On the contrary, He was feeling quite light and happy talking to Sehun, the kid had a way with words and making the other person feel at home. He and Jongin both shared the passion for dancing, and Kyungsoo couldn't help but compare how similar the two were despite the differences they had built between them.

Sehun rolled his eyes. "Oh, please Noona, don't be jealous"

"Jealous of what?"

"Well clearly –“, Sehun looked at Kyungsoo as if the latter understood what he was trying to imply, but he looked as confused as his sister. “– Of the fact that I'm the one bonding over sandwiches with Kyungsoo hyung here, and not you"

Seungwan's face flared up at his remark, and she couldn't tell whether it was out of embarrassment or anger. She took quick steps towards them and smacked Sehun hard on his shoulder.

"Oww-what?", Sehun protested. Kyungsoo snickered not being able to help himself seeing this different side of Seungwan.

"Why do you two keep trying to be all secretive? Everyone knows you're dating!", Sehun couldn't help himself from retorting which made Seungwan's heartbeat increase further. Why does my family not miss a single opportunity to embarrass me in front of him? She sneaked a glance at Kyungsoo who was himself awkwardly trying to look anywhere but at her, the tips of his ears a little pink. He must think I'm such a creep for still not having told my family that we were never dating!

"Go and sleep right now! Aren't you and Yerim supposed to go to a group study tomorrow morning?", Seungwan reminded Sehun.

"Oh! Right", Realization dawned on Sehun and he slowly got up from his chair and started towards the room. "Thanks for the sandwiches hyung! See you in the morning!"

As he opened the door, he turned towards them smirking. "Don't be too loud you two! I can hear you from there! Jongin can too, probably!"

"You-", Seungwan turned towards him furiously, ready to lunge the pillow she had grabbed at him but he quickly closed the door behind him, chuckling.

She took a deep breath to calm herself before turning to Kyungsoo. "Sorry about that!", She smiled to lessen the awkwardness but to no avail.

Kyungsoo cleared his throat.  "Nothing to be sorry about, we didn't wake you, did we?"

"No, I’m just.....a little too jittery today I guess. Can't sleep"

"Same here", Kyungsoo awkwardly continued. "So, I'm guessing you still haven't told them about...us?"

"Yeah about that – “, Seungwan bit her lower lip, looking and feeling guilty. "I just haven't found the right time, Mom's always so busy and – “

"Don't", Kyungsoo stated, looking dead serious. It's now or never!

"What?"

"I mean don't tell her, you know", Kyungsoo tried to appear confident but in all truth his heart was thundering and his palms were getting sweaty, considering where the conversation was headed.

"Why?", Seungwan was confused.

"I haven't told my mother either..."

"Oh", Seungwan couldn't help but feel relieved at the information. She wasn't the only one scaring away from popping the bubble her mother had created.

"I mean you probably understand, you know how mother's are!", He chuckled nervously. Seungwan nodded in understanding.

 Stay cool dude. Stay cool. "So I was thinking how about we..." He rubbed the back of his head. "How about we....not tell them?" What kind of question is that? He mentally scolded himself, for the lack of clarity in his words.

Seungwan's eyes widened as she realized what he might be hinting at. "You mean like....fake dating?" She asked with a hint of uncertainty, her heart rate increasing.

Kyungsoo's face fell. Ofcourse.....Why would she want to actually date me after the way I rejected her... "Yeah...I mean l-like fake dating...." What am I doing?

Seungwan's heart sank a little, she wasn’t too eager about the ‘fake’ part.  "Well I mean we could do that...if you want"

"I...", Take it back dude! "Actually Seung I-"

"No I get it – “, Seungwan interrupted him, lowering her head. "You have responsibilities because of which you can't actually date and I can see why you don't want to worry your mother further by telling her the truth and it's okay because – “, She sighed and met his gaze. "Because we're both in the same boat, I guess", She gave him a weak smile. "And we'll tell them when the time comes, but until then I think there is no harm in pretending. At least It'll save them the worry!" Seungwan couldn't believe she had said all that but she believed it was for the best. It was the closest thing to having a relationship with him she could probably get anyway.

Kyungsoo was dumbfounded, as he realized what was going through her mind. He had dug his own grave, when he had told her off by bragging of his 'responsibilities' on their first date. If it could even be called that. And he couldn't all of sudden contradict his own words and ask her to be his girlfriend. Even if it was something he desperately wanted, he needed to give her time to warm up to the idea of it.

"Right", He sighed and then added after some time. "Thankyou for understanding...."

She smiled back and it made him feel more regretful. Why the hell did I say all that?

"Oh My God! It's snowing!", Kyungsoo's thoughts were interrupted by Seungwan's exclamation, and their attention got diverted to the window, and the scene outisde where white specks of pristine white fell from the sky.

Seungwan made a beeline for the lounge glass window, the child-like excitement on her face and sparkle in her eyes so endearing, that Kyungsoo almost forgot what they were talking about a minute ago and simply followed her, a soft smile playing on his heart-shaped lips.

"You like snow huh?", He asked.

"I love it!", Seungwan turned to beam at him. And Kyungsoo knew it was one the most beautiful smiles he had ever seen. He realized how much he wanted to see her smiling like that, forever if possible.

Seungwan watched in enchantment as the snow covered everything in sight, all the while unaware of Kyungsoo's loving gaze on her.

She was indeed one of the most beautiful women he had ever laid his eyes on but what was more beautiful was the sheer array of emotions she evoked inside him. It was scary yet amazing at the same time. He wanted to slap himself for all the times he had tried to run away, from the pure genuine happiness he was feeling right then seeing her lost in the scene before her.

And he smiled, because as the first snow laid its blanket in Seoul that year, Do Kyungsoo had fallen completely in love with Shon Seungwan.

"Sign here please, Thankyou", The accountant smiled at them, as they got done after paying and got up to leave. As Taeyeon reached for her wallet in the clutch to put her credit card back, she realized it wasn't there.

"Oh fish! I think I forgot my wallet in the karaoke room", She declared to Chanyeol, as they started towards the exit door. She told him to go ahead despite his protests, and started towards the elevator.

She got out on the 3rd floor, realizing it was already twelve. She smiled, thinking Baekhyun’s birth day had started. Finding the door closed, she knocked lightly before twisting the handle and entering.

fell open at the scene in front of her.

..............................

Baekhyun found himself getting more and more light headed as he took in the form of the gorgeous girl sitting close beside him on the settee, their faces inches apart.

"So what were you saying? Something about lips was it?"

Suzy raised an eyebrow, clearly enjoying the flirtation. "Actually, I was just complementing your newly dyed hair. Blonde really suits you"

"Well sorry I didn't hear that. Guess I'm just a little too distracted....", Baekhyun leaned closer to her suggestively, fully enjoying the look of anticipation that crossed Suzy's face as he eyed her lips and she did the same. Baekhyun closed his eyes as his lips met Suzy's, the face of a certain person flashing in his mind momentarily and his forehead creasing, but he quickly pushed it to the back of his mind.

A gasp followed by the thwack of something hitting the floor, broke them both out of their trance and they jumped out of each other's embrace.

Taeyeon cursed herself for her clumsiness, as she bent down to fetch her mobile that had fallen out of her hands upon seeing what she had.

"T-Taeyeon?", Baekhyun felt like somebody had poured a bucket of cold water over him, making him come back to his senses as he looked at the girl in front of him, who he had so desperately been trying to get out of his mind.

"S-sunbae! We-we didn't know you were still here...", Suzy stammered as she smoothed out her dress, having gotten up from her place beside Baekhyun, flushing in embarrassment.

"I-uh-I left my-wallet here, so-so I came to fetch it....", Taeyeon was no less mortified herself, having walked in on a private moment. For some reason, a sick feeling settled at the pit of her stomach as she thought about what had been going on in the room. "I-I am sorry for interrupting...." She awkwardly apologized as she scuffled towards where she thought she had left her wallet, put it into her handbag and walked back towards the door, not meeting the eyes of the other two in the room.

Taeyeon turned around for a moment as she was about to cross the threshold and finally met Baekhyun's eyes, saying what she had thought she would say if she found him there: "H-Happy Birthday, Baekhyun" She tried to smile but it came out more as a grimace.

Baekhyun heart plummeted meters down as he saw hurt flash in Taeyeon's eyes as she wished him and then turned around at the speed of lightening and disappeared out the door. He sighed, feeling sobriety wash all over him as he thought about how she had managed to remember his birthday, despite him having been a jerk to her all evening. I don't want to think about her!

"Well, that was....", Suzy took a deep breath. "That was awkward, to say the least"

Baekhyun gulped, his fists clenching, almost as if his body was as much in denial of what he was doing as his mind. He coerced himself to stop thinking, as he put a sweet smile on his face and said the next words: "Do you mind if we take this somewhere a little more private?"

Suzy smiled back. "I thought you'd never ask"

_

"Well I don't think you can take him home in this condition, hyung", Sehun mused, as he stood beside the bed in his room along with Kyungsoo and Seungwan, overlooking a slumbering Jongin.

"He's right", Seungwan agreed with her brother.

As planned, Kyungsoo had come to Seungwan's house, to drop her and Soojung off first before he took Jongin home, but as soon he had stopped the car Jongin had jumped awake and ran out of the car to puke his guts out near the pavement. Seungwan, seeing his condition, had asked Kyungsoo to take him inside for a while to clean up with Sehun's help (who had been dropped home along with Yerim, by Yixing and Junmyeon only a little while ago). She had herself put Soojung to bed upstairs with Yerim and come down only to find Jongin sprawled on the bed, deep in sleep. He looked awful, and even Sehun who acted like he didn't like the guy one bit, felt concerned.

"Is he any better?", Mrs. Son walked into Sehun's bedroom, with a jug of water and some medicines. She had been at home when they had arrived, and her motherly concern had immediately taken over seeing Jongin like that. "Oh, he's already asleep. Well too bad" She said as she settled the tray on the nightstand. "Let us all go outside then, let him sleep"

"No actually I think I should take him home! It's already so late…", Kyungsoo said impatiently.

"Nonsense! You're not taking him anywhere in this condition!", Mrs. Son reprimanded Kyungsoo.

Kyungsoo sighed. "Well okay then, since you people are insisting. I'll come pick him up first thing in the morning" He gave in, not wanting to be impolite by refusing their hospitality. He then turned to Sehun. "Sehun-ah, message me as soon as he wakes up, okay?"

"Sure, hyung", Sehun gave him a small smile. Kyungsoo and Sehun had come to develop an amiable relationship between themelves, and it didn’t go unnoticed by Seungwan.

"And who said, you're going anywhere?", Mrs. Son interupted their exchange, raising her eyebrows. "There is a snow forecast for tonight, you know that right? So what's the point in going now, when its already so late? You and Jongin can both leave in the morning, when the weather's clear"

"No, but I really-"

"No buts! I’ll call Minjee and tell her that you two will be staying here for today. She's buried in a ton of paper work anyway so she’ll probably sleep in the office tonight. Meaning there's no one waiting for you at home", Mrs. Son said in a tone of finality.

Kyungsoo felt a little tongue tied since she had put up a good argument and although he didn't show it, he felt kind of excited at the possibility of staying there.

"Well okay then, I guess...." What was the harm in staying anyway? He could keep an eye on Jongin too, in case he woke up and caused trouble.

"Great then! Sehun lend him your pajamas", Mrs. Son immediately started working up the sleeping arrangements.

"I would but I don't think they would fit him seeing as his height is kind of –“, Sehun teased with a smirk.

"Yah!", Kyungsoo protested at first but then chuckled with Sehun.

Seungwan smiled seeing the light hearted exchange, wondering yet again how they had managed to break the ice between them. Mrs. Son went on to insist that Kyungsoo sleep with Jongin in Sehun's room but this time Kyungsoo strictly refused (seeing as Sehun was making faces, he understood that he probably didn't like sleeping in other places, he was already being generous enough letting Jongin sleep in his room) and insisted that he would take the couch.

_

Baekhyun sighed for the umpteenth time that night, as he stood at the glass window of his bedroom and watched the snow falling outside, sleep nowhere near his eyes even though it was about two in the morning. He sighed in frustration, thinking about the night's events and how royally he had screwed everything up, especially the events that had unfolded in his very room several minutes ago.

"Do you like my room?", Baekhyun asked, as he sat himself comfortably on his bed.

"Well it's nice....", Suzy shrugged.

They had agreed to go to Baekhyun's house as it was nearer, after they locked up the karaoke room and handed back the keys. Suzy drove Baekhyun's car as he was under influence. Throughout the drive, Baekhyun tried to fight off the tightening he kept feeling in his chest, with Taeyeon's face flashing in his mind every now and then.

"Well, I can certainly make this room more memorable for you….", Baekhyun smirked, feeling like a hypocrite, as his mind kept screaming at him to stop with the charade and save the little dignity he had left.

"Really, how?", Suzy smirked back, as she took slow steps towards him and he pulled gently at her hand, making her sit close beside him on the bed and then leaning towards her as she leaned back.

"How ever you want", He whispered, his breath fanning against her cheek and she visibly shivered. She only closed her eyes as she leaned back further on the bed and he did the same, now almost hovering over her.

You can never forget her like this you know, you're only fooling yourself, Baekhyun felt a ringing in his ears as the words ran through his mind and he halted from inching closer. I am not thinking about her she doesn't bother me, he clenched his jaw as he tried to convince himself and he closed his eyes only find Taeyeon's face staring back at him with hurt written all over her face.

You honestly believe that? The voice ran through his mind again, louder this time. You're a coward and that's what you'll always be! Baekhyun felt all his energy drain away as the rational part of him chided him again and again. He was going to badly regret what he was doing and he needed to stop before the damage got beyond repair.

"I can't....", He sighed in defeat, standing back from his position on the bed, as Suzy's eyes flicked open.

"What?", Suzy asked incredulously, as she sat up from the lying position, brushing away locks of hair from her face.

"I can't. This – me and you – this can't happen, I'm sorry", Baekhyun wanted to pull his hair in frustration at what he was blabbering because he himself couldn't understand why he was rejecting a captivating girl, who was right there in his bedroom, for God's sake, and more than willing.

"Why not? What happened Baekhyun, you were fine just now....?", Suzy looked utterly confused at the sudden change in his demeanor.

"I just...!", Baekhyun huffed covering his face with his hands. "I just-can't"

"Then why did you bring me here?".

"I don't know myself either I – “, Baekhyun looked at her, wanting to punch something hard. He knew the girl had every right to be angry at the way he was acting. "I'm sorry"

"Well, screw you!", Suzy grabbed her bag angrily from the table placed nearby, and stomped out of the room.

Baekhyun ruffled his hair furiously, as he heard the entrance door of his apartment close with a click.

No matter how much he thought about it, Baekhyun came to the same conclusion: he had been a complete and absolute jerk that day. It was highly unreasonable of him, to feel angry about something which had no solid base and even if there was, he had no right to feel agitated about it. Not to mention how ungentlemanly and shameless it was of him to bring Suzy to his house and then make her leave. She had every right to be furious at him.

I’m going crazy.

_

"You're still awake?", Kyungsoo sat up slightly from his lying position on the couch and looked away from his phone, seeing Sehun enter the lounge.

"Yeah, I was just playing games. Now I'm hungry", Sehun shrugged. "What about you?"

Kyungsoo shrugged in response. He hadn't been able to sleep after almost an hour of trying, so he had decided to watch a movie as it usually helped him doze off.

Sehun skimmed through the contents in the fridge and upon discovering nothing to his liking amongst the already cooked items, he decided to try making a sandwich, which it looked like was something he hadn't tried in a long time.

Hearing the clattering of plates, Kyungsoo's attention was diverted towards the kitchen. "Need a hand?", He asked.

"N-no-" There was some quick shifting as Sehun tried to balance the ketchup and mayo in one hand with the bread and plate in the other, which as expected, resulted in him dropping the plate, as he tried to save the slices of bread resulting in the plate falling to the floor with a loud clank. "I'm fine!", He called out, but Kyungsoo was already on his feet.

"Let me handle this", Kyungsoo switched to chef mode as soon as he got into the kitchen and saw Sehun standing their helplessly with different ingredients scattered on the counters. It reminded him of when Jongin had once tried to bake something for his birthday to surprise him, in the middle of the night and Kyungsoo had woken up because of all the clattering noise and discovered Jongin in less than tidy conditions with flour everywhere in the kitchen.

Sehun sighed and stepped back. Apart from asking Sehun about where a few things were placed and how much mayo and ketchup he would like in his sandwich, Kyungsoo worked quickly and efficiently and Sehun's sandwich was ready in a matter of few minutes.

"It's yummy!", Sehun complimented as he took a mouthful of the sandwich, still standing in the kitchen doorway. Kyungsoo smiled in response and they both sat down on the dining table to eat.

............................

Seungwan turned and shifted in her sofa bed on the floor, restlessly thinking about the day's events and particularly about Kyungsoo.

Should I go and talk to him? The thought crossed her mind, but she immediately brushed it away. He's probably fast asleep…. But she still couldn't get herself to fall into slumber and wondered if she should get up and walk around the house a bit. She thought she heard some clattering noises from downstairs but wasn't sure if they were indeed from within the house or not since it was very faint with the room's door closed. Silently, she got up and looked over at Tiffany and Taeyeon sleeping soundly on the bed. They had returned to the house a short while after Kyungsoo and Seungwan and after talking for only a little while, the three of them had decided to call it a night since they were tired. Taeyeon particularly seemed pre-occupied with something, as she kept spacing out every few minutes while they were gossiping and upon inquiry brushed it away by saying she was just tired. Seungwan was a bit skeptical if that was the real reason, but didn't push it.

She immediately shuddered at the chill in the air and wrapped a fleece around herself tightly. It's probably going to snow soon, the thought excited her.

As she descended down the stairs, she could make out the familiar voices of two people talking and was surprised when they came into view under the yellow bulb light of the room: sitting at the dining table and high-fiving over something. For a minute she didn't want to interrupt their jolly conversation but then she realized how late it was and the fact that Sehun still wasn't asleep was something to worry about. She cleared , making them turn towards her.

"Oh. Hi Noona! You're still up?", Sehun inquired.

"I should be the one asking you that?", Seungwan narrowed her eyes at him and then looked at Kyungsoo. "He's not bothering you, is he?"

"No, not at all", Kyungsoo shook his head smiling. On the contrary, He was feeling quite light and happy talking to Sehun, the kid had a way with words and making the other person feel at home. He and Jongin both shared the passion for dancing, and Kyungsoo couldn't help but compare how similar the two were despite the differences they had built between them.

Sehun rolled his eyes. "Oh, please Noona, don't be jealous"

"Jealous of what?"

"Well clearly –“, Sehun looked at Kyungsoo as if the latter understood what he was trying to imply, but he looked as confused as his sister. “– Of the fact that I'm the one bonding over sandwiches with Kyungsoo hyung here, and not you"

Seungwan's face flared up at his remark, and she couldn't tell whether it was out of embarrassment or anger. She took quick steps towards them and smacked Sehun hard on his shoulder.

"Oww-what?", Sehun protested. Kyungsoo snickered not being able to help himself seeing this different side of Seungwan.

"Why do you two keep trying to be all secretive? Everyone knows you're dating!", Sehun couldn't help himself from retorting which made Seungwan's heartbeat increase further. Why does my family not miss a single opportunity to embarrass me in front of him? She sneaked a glance at Kyungsoo who was himself awkwardly trying to look anywhere but at her, the tips of his ears a little pink. He must think I'm such a creep for still not having told my family that we were never dating!

"Go and sleep right now! Aren't you and Yerim supposed to go to a group study tomorrow morning?", Seungwan reminded Sehun.

"Oh! Right", Realization dawned on Sehun and he slowly got up from his chair and started towards the room. "Thanks for the sandwiches hyung! See you in the morning!"

As he opened the door, he turned towards them smirking. "Don't be too loud you two! I can hear you from there! Jongin can too, probably!"

"You-", Seungwan turned towards him furiously, ready to lunge the pillow she had grabbed at him but he quickly closed the door behind him, chuckling.

She took a deep breath to calm herself before turning to Kyungsoo. "Sorry about that!", She smiled to lessen the awkwardness but to no avail.

Kyungsoo cleared his throat.  "Nothing to be sorry about, we didn't wake you, did we?"

"No, I’m just.....a little too jittery today I guess. Can't sleep"

"Same here", Kyungsoo awkwardly continued. "So, I'm guessing you still haven't told them about...us?"

"Yeah about that – “, Seungwan bit her lower lip, looking and feeling guilty. "I just haven't found the right time, Mom's always so busy and – “

"Don't", Kyungsoo stated, looking dead serious. It's now or never!

"What?"

"I mean don't tell her, you know", Kyungsoo tried to appear confident but in all truth his heart was thundering and his palms were getting sweaty, considering where the conversation was headed.

"Why?", Seungwan was confused.

"I haven't told my mother either..."

"Oh", Seungwan couldn't help but feel relieved at the information. She wasn't the only one scaring away from popping the bubble her mother had created.

"I mean you probably understand, you know how mother's are!", He chuckled nervously. Seungwan nodded in understanding.

 Stay cool dude. Stay cool. "So I was thinking how about we..." He rubbed the back of his head. "How about we....not tell them?" What kind of question is that? He mentally scolded himself, for the lack of clarity in his words.

Seungwan's eyes widened as she realized what he might be hinting at. "You mean like....fake dating?" She asked with a hint of uncertainty, her heart rate increasing.

Kyungsoo's face fell. Ofcourse.....Why would she want to actually date me after the way I rejected her... "Yeah...I mean l-like fake dating...." What am I doing?

Seungwan's heart sank a little, she wasn’t too eager about the ‘fake’ part.  "Well I mean we could do that...if you want"

"I...", Take it back dude! "Actually Seung I-"

"No I get it – “, Seungwan interrupted him, lowering her head. "You have responsibilities because of which you can't actually date and I can see why you don't want to worry your mother further by telling her the truth and it's okay because – “, She sighed and met his gaze. "Because we're both in the same boat, I guess", She gave him a weak smile. "And we'll tell them when the time comes, but until then I think there is no harm in pretending. At least It'll save them the worry!" Seungwan couldn't believe she had said all that but she believed it was for the best. It was the closest thing to having a relationship with him she could probably get anyway.

Kyungsoo was dumbfounded, as he realized what was going through her mind. He had dug his own grave, when he had told her off by bragging of his 'responsibilities' on their first date. If it could even be called that. And he couldn't all of sudden contradict his own words and ask her to be his girlfriend. Even if it was something he desperately wanted, he needed to give her time to warm up to the idea of it.

"Right", He sighed and then added after some time. "Thankyou for understanding...."

She smiled back and it made him feel more regretful. Why the hell did I say all that?

"Oh My God! It's snowing!", Kyungsoo's thoughts were interrupted by Seungwan's exclamation, and their attention got diverted to the window, and the scene outisde where white specks of pristine white fell from the sky.

Seungwan made a beeline for the lounge glass window, the child-like excitement on her face and sparkle in her eyes so endearing, that Kyungsoo almost forgot what they were talking about a minute ago and simply followed her, a soft smile playing on his heart-shaped lips.

"You like snow huh?", He asked.

"I love it!", Seungwan turned to beam at him. And Kyungsoo knew it was one the most beautiful smiles he had ever seen. He realized how much he wanted to see her smiling like that, forever if possible.

Seungwan watched in enchantment as the snow covered everything in sight, all the while unaware of Kyungsoo's loving gaze on her.

She was indeed one of the most beautiful women he had ever laid his eyes on but what was more beautiful was the sheer array of emotions she evoked inside him. It was scary yet amazing at the same time. He wanted to slap himself for all the times he had tried to run away, from the pure genuine happiness he was feeling right then seeing her lost in the scene before her.

And he smiled, because as the first snow laid its blanket in Seoul that year, Do Kyungsoo had fallen completely in love with Shon Seungwan.

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A/N: Done with my exams, at last! Hehe, did you guys like it? Baekhyun and Kyungsoo are fools, aren't they? But Kyungsoo's sweet too, cooking food for Sehun and all *swoon* Better things are coming, stay tuned ;) 

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yoojiningning #1
Chapter 70: Thank you so so much for writing this! 🥺 It was perfect and beautiful, seriously. I hope you continue to write more stories here 🙏🏼 Once again, thank you!
wanyeollie #2
Chapter 70: Finally finished MLTIF. It’s so beautiful. Thank you for this author-nim 😭
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Chapter 36: what’s wrong with wendy 😨
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Chapter 35: Uhoh could the girl be nayeon 🤔
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Chapter 67: It's been a while since I read this fanfic .I've been busy ,but I'm surprised by how the events are progressing I think kyungsoo will have a hard time to make wendy forgive him but for baekyeon I think they will get together so soon. So excited for the next chapter
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