Wanna meet up in real life?

Characters : Lee Dongmin (Cha Eunwoo) & Moon Bin

 

 

"Wanna met up somewhere?"

I looked at my screen silently. I put a hand on my racing heart. I saw him before, just not in real life. We exchanged pictures and names few months ago.

His name is Lee Dongmin. He's a year older than me. We have the same hobbies, we like the same kind of music and well... He's kinda attractive.

The thing is, I never told him I liked guys. It might be awkward to meet him for real — as he's my type. Attractive as hell.
At the same time, why would I say no? We have a lot of fun online when we hang out. He is probably funny in real too.

"Yeah."

I bite my lips while looking at my computer. I can't believe I'll meet with him.

"How about tonight?"

I blinked. He wasn't really patient. I smiled. I looked at the hour — it was already 8PM. Late, but it was still fine.

"I'm fine with that. Where do you wanna go?"
"We could meet near my university. I have to drop off something there. Is it okay for you?"

We both went to different school. He was majoring in Acting — and I was majoring in Dance. His school was 20 minutes from my home in bus — which was okay for me.

"Let's meet up in an hour. We can write to each other when we are on campus and see where we go from there."
"Let's do that. See you soon, Bin-ah. I can't wait to see for the first time."

I smiled shyly.

"Me too!"

I was about to go take a shower when I noticed he wrote me back.

"Do you really look like the picture you gave me? You are not joking me, right?"

I raised an eyebrow.

"What? Why would I lie about that? I should ask you that question. You look like an Idol. Are you sure you are for real?"

I chuckled while my ears became red. I said Idol, but I wanted to say model. But I can't say that. It's a bit too much.

"ㅋㅋㅋ, stop joking around."

I took my shower, then tried to dressed up. It was difficult — how should I dress? Casually? Or more fancy? If I dress too much — he will think it's weird right? But I want to make a good impression. I want him to find me beautiful. Even if he's not really interested in me. I want to have all the chances in the world.

I finally put a large soft pink knitted sweater and jeans with holes. I looked at me in a mirror and smiled. I looked gentle, but also a little bit rebel. I liked it.

I took a bus and ride downtown. I got off at Dongmin's university, looking around. It was dark, but there was a lot of students outside. Most of them were nice looking, either goofing around with friends, looking at their cellphones or flirting with their girlfriends.

I looked at my phone, no message from him yet. It was only 8:50PM. I was early. I walked around a bit, enjoying the night. It was cold — but a nice kind of cold. The kind where you want to hug your boyfriend to get warmer, but you don't really need an extra sweater. The kind where you can get pink cheeks but still feel warm.

After a while, my phone buzzed. It was him.

"Hey, I'm on the campus. Where are you? You came, right?"

I chuckled. Why did I felt like he was afraid he would get stood up?

"I'm near the library. Should I wait for you here?"
"I'm coming. I'm only few minutes away."

I sat on a bench near the entrance and looked at my phone. My heart started to race when it realized I would see him for real. The guy I have been dreaming about for months. The guy I spoke to every night before falling asleep for about a year. The guy I talked about everything and nothing.

My crush.

I bite my lips as I felt the pressure. I looked at myself on my cellphone's camera. Do I look okay? I tried to fix my hair a moment and sighed. It's stupid. I shouldn't act like this. He's probably not interested that way. I'm hoping for something that will probably not happen. I will just broke my heart.

I didn't notice that someone was walking slowly in my direction. I put my phone in my pocket, looking at my shoes. I sighed, trying to be less nervous.
He stopped walking next to me and smiled shyly at me. As I noticed a presence I looked up and saw him.

My heart exploded and my jaw dropped. Oh my god. He looked even better in real. How is that possible?

I quickly stood up, but my clothes got stuck on the bench, and I was dragged back to it. I flushed, ashamed as I tried to get free. I finally succeed after few seconds. Dongmin smiled even more — so much that his eyes were hidden by his beautiful crescent closed eyes. My heart fluttered even more. My cheeks were pink, but I was hoping it didn't show too much.

"H-Hi!" I finally said, while doing a bow.

Dongmin looked at me, becoming even more shy and did the same.

We looked at each other, then chuckled awkwardly. I took a moment to remember this instant. He looked amazing. His black hairs were falling down on his eyes, he wore a plaid shirt over a white t-shirt and simple jeans. Yet — he looked amazing. So gorgeous.
I became self-aware as I noticed he was doing the same — looking at me and my clothes. I tried to fix my hair while smiling.

"So..." I mumbled again, while looking away. I hated when it was awkward with someone, but I can't help it.
"It's nice to finally meet you, Binnie." He smiled at me. My heart raced when I heard my name from his lips.
"Same, Dongmin-ssi".

He raised his eyebrows, then chuckled.

"You can call me hyung. I'm the same person online and in real life."
"Right... I guess I wasn't sure how I should name you, hyung."

He smiled at me, almost proudly.

"Wanna go take a drink somewhere? I think it will help me a little." He talked while scratching his neck. I smiled as I noticed he was as shy as me right now.
"Good idea."

We walked slowly to a place on the campus. Dongmin made sure he opened the doors for me, and he was acting like a gentleman. It made my heart race even more. Is he acting this way on purpose?

He bought two soju bottles, and we sat at a table. It became awkward again, so I opened one bottle and pour two drinks. We drank it one shot while looking away from each other.

After few drinks, it became a little easier to talk to him. We both had pink cheeks because of alcohol. Dongmin was smiling widely and most of the time his eyes were smiling too. Which I found adorable.

"I thought you were joking around when you gave me your picture." He confessed.
"Why?"
"I don't know. You look unreal."

I frowned.

"Yah, There is no surgery done on my face."
"No, it's not what I meant." He chuckled. "I just never saw someone like you before."
"What does that even means?"

He took a drink and stayed silent. I guess he didn't like this conversation. So I bring a different subject.

"How's school? We almost never talk about school."

He sighed.

"It's fine. It takes all my free time. I have good grades but I wish I was better."
"You should help me get better grades. I'm the best in my dance class but for every other course I'm flirting with failure."
"We can study together in the future. I can give you tips."

I smiled at my friend.

"I would love it."

He smiled at me too and my heart fluttered even more.
We spoke up to early in the morning — until the place closed.
I looked at my phone and gasped.

"I just missed the last bus to my place. ." I frowned, ashamed of myself.
"Is it far away?"
"Well, I have no other choice. I'll need to walk and it will take me an hour or so."

I sighed. What have I done? I should have look at the schedule earlier. Making sure I could be able to go home.

"You can sleep at my place tonight. If you want."

I looked at Dongmin, surprised.

"I don't want to bother you. I can walk. It's fine."
"No, I insist. I don't have the biggest place in town but it will be fine. It's not too far from here."

I bite my lips. I was drunk. It's not a good idea to go sleep at a stranger's home — but he wasn't a total stranger. I know him for months already. My home is really far away, a taxi would cost too much and I don't feel like walking an hour.

"Okay. Thank you, hyung."

He smiled at me, while putting his hand on my shoulder. We walked 10 minutes before he told me we were there.
He didn't lie when he said it wasn't the biggest place. He had a room with a bed, a small sofa and a small kitchen.

"Don't look around, I didn't clean this morning."

I chuckled. Everything was so tidy and neat.

"You are joking, right? It's way cleaner than my own room."

I took off my shoes after him. He put a blanket and a pillow on the sofa. I was about to sit on it when he stopped me.

"Sleep in my bed. It's way more comfortable."
"I can't. I'll just take the sofa."
"Just go sleep in my bed. I'm sleeping here. I'm not moving. Unless you want to sleep here with me but, you know it's kinda small."

My eyes became wide and I quickly flushed. He laughed, amused. I walked to his bed slowly without talking.

"I have extra pajamas if you want to change clothes."
"No thanks. I'll okay like that."

I sat on the bed.

"T-Thanks by the way."
"No problem. Sleep well Binnie."

I smiled as I closed my eyes. It smelt so good. It smelt like him. How will I be able to sleep here?

"Good night, hyung."

We both felt asleep after a while.

When I woke up, I was feeling a body next to me. It was warm and cozy, I instantly hugged it.
My dreams were still dizzy. I drank too much yesterday. I tried to open my eyes as the more I thought about it... The more I thought I had nobody next to me yesterday.
My eyes took a while to adjust to the light. There was really someone next to me. I stopped hugging him right away, ashamed.

Dongmin was next to me, sleeping peacefully. I looked at him without moving a moment. He was even more beautiful when I was close to him.
But it didn't change the fact that he wasn't supposed to be there.

He grunted, then opened his eyes slowly too. My heart stopped. He blinked, then scratched his head. His eyes met mine, he smiled.
Then frowned and stood up quickly.

"Yah!"

We looked at eachother a moment, awkwardly. I finally stood up and walked to the door, shy like never. I was about to leave, but he stopped me. My heart was racing. I wanted to go home. I shouldn't have hugged him. Why was he in my bed this morning? Nothing make sense.

"What are you doing? Won't you eat with me at least?"
"I... I don't know."

Dongmin sighed, then smiled at me.

"Sorry If i shouted. I was just surprised. Actually, I'm sleep walking. I probably walked back in my bed at some point this night. I made it weird, right?"

I scratched my neck, still shy. Did he notice I hugged him? Actually, how long did I hug him?

"Stay with me at least for the breakfast."

I nodded. Dongmin cooked rice and put some food on the table. I sat down, looking away, still unsure about how I felt.
He put a bowl full of food in front and me and sat next to me.

"I hope you'll like it."
"Hm... Thank you."

I ate silently. When I left to take my bus, he waved at me. I noticed he had a sad smile. I was feeling strange. I never slept with a guy before. I had crushes, but this was different. How can I stay neutral? He smells so good. He's so gorgeous.
I won't be able to see him ever again or I'll lose my mind.

I didn't log on the website for two days. I tried to compose myself instead. Fixing some unsafe thoughts I had about Dongmin. When I felt better, I finally log in.
He talked to me right away.

"Hey, Binnie. Where have you been? I was worried as I had no news from you."

I bite my lips. Of course, you didn't have any news from me. I made sure I wasn't able to talk to you.

"I had a lot of things to do."
"Okay."

He didn't reply for a while, I looked at my screen feeling even weirder. I wanted to talk to him for hours. I wanted to tell him how attractive he was. But it was too dangerous. The way he acted when he found out we were in the same bed — He's not interested in my like I am in him. I'll be hurt and I'll cry by myself. I sighed.

"Wanna study together later today?"

My heart raced a little again.

"I can't. I have something tonight."
"You sure are busy."

I felt bad. I closed my eyes.

"Sorry."
"Listen, I'm sorry about the other night. I can't control myself when I sleep. I didn't want to make it awkward."
"It's fine."
"It didn't seem fine. You were about to leave when we woke up and you noticed I was in the same bed as you."

I sighed again. Stop talking about that night please. I can't tell you why it was awkward.

 

 

POV Dongmin

I looked at my screen, trying to keep my calm. Why did I do that? Stupid sleep walking. I've wish to see him for months and now I lost all my chances with him. How can I tell him he shouldn't worry about me when he should ? I know why I was in my bed. I thought it was a dream but clearly it wasn't.

I woke up at some point in the night and missed him. Like every night, I hug my pillow thinking about him. But he was there. So I went in my bed and hug him. I slept like a baby after. Well, until we woke up. Then I became afraid of myself. Afraid of what I did. Will he find me disgusting? Will he think I am a ert?

"You looked more surprised than I was."

I blinked. Right. I was the one shouting. Maybe I made it weirder than it should be?

"I was surprised at myself. I didn't want to shout at you."

This conversation would so much easier in person. Why was he avoiding me? Oh, right because of that.

"Okay."
"You are sure you can't study with me tonight?"
"Yep. Sorry."

I sighed. My heart was hurting. Did I really lost all my chances? He seemed so nice, so gentle. He seemed interested in me.

We didn't spoke for the rest of the day. After a week of silence, I finally accepted that I would not see him ever again. I felt stupid.

 

POV Moonbin

It's been a week. I feel like I broke up with someone. My heart is hurting. All I want to do is talk to him. But I don't know what to say. I don't know how to approach him. I feel like I lost my chance.

On a Saturday, I went for a walk downtown. I knew it was near his university. Maybe I went there instinctively - because he could be around. My heart started to race when I saw him, far away.

He was with two males friends. They were talking and laughing. The two others were as attractive as him. I felt jealously but quickly stopped myself. How can I be jealous when I am the one ignoring him? I was close enough to hear his friends, but not Dongmin, as he had a softer voice.

"Wanna grab a drink later hyung?" said one of the friend.

Dongmin answered something, making the two others shout.

"Stop with that, will you? It's been a while. You need to think about someone else."
"I know a lot of people who would be interested in a date with you. Just tell me what is your type and I'll ask someone."

Again, Dongmin talked and his friends sighed.

"Stop describing that person. There are other fishes in the sea.'

I closed my eyes as I felt I heard too much. I walked away slowly, trying to be invisible.
So Dongmin had someone and then they broke up? Is it what I heard?

"YAH!"

I gasped and froze when I heard someone shouting in my direction. Someone touched my shoulder. My heart started to race as I turned around.

"What are you doing on my campus? Are you looking for me, by any chance?"

I looked around me, becoming red by the second. Why did I come here? Am I stupid? Of course, I might have seen him, but he can see me too.

"N-No."
"Whatever. Now that you are here, wanna grab lunch with me? I'm paying, so you can't say no."

I looked away, trying to find a reason why I can't go. The only thing I was able to think was my bursting heart and his gorgeous eyes.

I stayed silent while we walked to the restaurant. Dongmin asked me what I wanted and ordered it. We sat somewhere in the restaurant where it was more silent. I looked at my food, unsure I wanted to stay here.
Dongmin was looking at me intensively.

"Look. I know why you are avoiding me. I get it."

I looked at him. He knew? So he knew I had a crush on him? .

"Sometimes we can't control your feelings and.. Well."
I looked away. Oh no, he really knew. I wanted to hide or run away to my home.

"I'm sorry I hugged you the other night."

I blinked. What? I looked at him, he was red and was looking away.

"I still want to be friend with you - If it's okay for you, of course. I'll keep those feelings for myself. You don't need to worry about it"
"What?"

I looked at him, even more puzzled.
His mouth opened, as if he noticed he talked too much.
What was he talking about? "Those feelings" ?

"You know. Don't make me say it. I know it can be weird. I thought maybe you were like me. But I was wrong. I misunderstood."
"I don't get it."

He sighed.

"Promise you won't ignore me again for a week if I tell you?"
"Whatever."
"Promise me."
"Hm-hm."

He looked at the table, then at me. He looked serious.

"I like guys."

I blinked.

"I'm sorry I made it awkward the other day, when I hugged you while we slept. I shouldn't have done that."

My face became red. I didn't misunderstand the first time — he said he hugged me? And he likes guys? My heart became unstable.

"What...?"

He chuckled.

"Is it that difficult to accept? Look I'm sorry. Whatever I did, I shouldn't have. I just want to be your friend. I think we have a lot of fun when we talk to each other and I don't want to stop that."

I gasped.

"Okay."

He raised his eyebrows, looking surprise.

"You... You're okay with it?"

I smiled shyly.

"Of course. I... I like talking to you."

He smiled back at me. My heart melted. I will need to stop this feeling one day. He might like guys, but it doesn't mean he's interested in me. We are different, after all.
We talked for a while, then he told me he needed to leave. He had to work at a movie theater later and would be late. We waved at each other and I became alone.