Sabi ko sa sarili ko, I wont think about it again.

About the tragic events last night.

About my life...

About that girl...

Isn't she my???

No way

No. Nope. NO.

Parang hindi naman.

And I refuse to believe any of it.

People tend to believe anything out of desperation to understand and to feel satisfaction knowing things. Ayoko na dumagdag pa.

Kahit na I am not used to any of this.

Being The Lucky one... Palaging pabor sa plano at gusto ko ang turn of events. It has always been that way simula nang magkamuwang ako. Grown up with a loving mom and a cool dad na never akong magkaroon ng kahati. Manage to start and finished school on time, passed exams and interviews. Got hired sa kahit anong pasukang trabaho. I can quit anytime I want, total... Makakahanap naman ako agad ng iba at ngayon ngang registered na ako sa profession ko...

Time to step up na.

"I can't believe you didn't ask for her name" says by Jennie na busy sa pagnguya ng cereals niya sa bibig.

"Why would I?" sabi ko lang while staring at my own bowl.

She suddenly halted and looked at me appalled "same as why did you kissed her? Pero you did diba?"

I nod while she shook her head "point taken"

Bakit nga naman?

Truth to be told... I am asking this to myself too and hanggang ngayon I'm still bereft of answers.

"Oh, ano nangyari after siyang itakbo nung girl na... Who's that again?"

I finally dipped my spoon sa bowl. "Her boss..." nawawalan na ako ng gana just by looking at my bloated cereals. "Boss niya pala yung may ka make out sa cubicle and ayun... Hinila siya pa labas. Probably to talk or ewan... Wala na sila paglabas ko"

"So you manage to know the name of 'kamake out ng boss niya' pero yung knight and sweaty shinning girl mo hindi?"

Ah... Si Saeron. She's blushing hard nung lumabas siya sa cubicle after nung boss. "she introduced herself to me. It's not that I asked her name kaya ko alam" I said while pushing my bowl away. "Nung nagstart na niya inotice yung tagos... I literally left her. Ayoko na mapahiya."

"Sana nagpahatid ka manlang sa mga friends mo kagabi." She stood up after sumubo ng mouthful ng almusal niya saka umalis
"Nung bumalik ako, half of them umuwi na. Yung mga sober pa talaga yung nagsabay-sabay. Yung sundo naman nila Sol ayun, 3 am pa daw dadating."

She came back with some loaf bread and spead na inilapag niya sa mesa near me. "Kaya kay Suho ka nalang nagpahatid? Ganun ba?" 

Mas lalo lang akong nawalan ng gana after hearing the name.

Suho was my ever so obsessive ex-boyfriend. "I had no choice. Wala eh. Siya lang yung hindi nakainom sa amin and I am sooo desperate na makauwi." I cannot book a cab since yung bills ko ubos na sa coat palang. Bitbit ko pa yung anim na packs ng napkin.

Tumingin muna siya sa akin "Ah... Tapos wala sila tita and tito sa bahay dahil bigla nalang napaaga yung flight nila dun sa raffle promo na napanalunan mo last week? Yung sa round trip ticket to Palawan." she opened the bread fot me saka ako inirapan. "Kumain ka nga. Ipapalapa kita kay Kuma sige"

I was so stressed kagabi dahil for the nth time he asked me again na makipagbalikan sa kanya, promising me na hindi na niya uulitin lahat ng bagay that caused our healthy relationship went down the sink. 

I'm so eager na makapasok sa bahay para iwan na siya but our gate was locked and I can't call dahil makapatay yung phone ng parents ko probably enjoying their flight.

Iniwan ko siyang nakaluhod sa kalsada and practically ran papunta kila Jennie three blocks away saka tuloy-tuloy na pumasok sa gate nila. Kuma's there at hinabol ako so napilitan ulit akong lumabas.

All those misfortunes in one night. God...

"It's a mystery to me too. I mean... Kilala ka naman ni Kuma since you're always here pero ang wild niya sayo kagabi."

She offered me bread and I hesitantly accepted it. "Maybe the coat." I shrugged. Ang lakas kasi ng perfume sa coat niya.

I can still smell her on me.

 "Maybe...minamalas ka na" she nonchalantly said