25^th May, 2020

‘Tell me one more time

Tell me again that you love

me just like that day...’

‘Love again’

‘Yes, my fav part of the

 entire song~’

‘How’d you like the album?’

‘You gave me some demo

 to listened to before today,

 but it just hits different 

listening to the entire album.

 It’s like…how do I put it? 

It’s like having a nice massage~’

‘Thank you!’

‘I don’t even have to go

 into the MV and your voice 

and dance and all.

 You killed everything

 perfectly~’

‘You’re not jealous?’

‘Ah, you mean the dance-along

 with another backup dancer? 

Why would I be jealous? 

Besides, it’s not like I haven’t 

seen you do that to me before.’

‘Indeed, I did practice a lot

on you, didn’t I? 

So the smirk came out 

naturally in the MV too, no?’

‘Very naturally, 

Mr. Perfectionist.’

‘Ah~ Now I can finally

get some rest.’

‘What about music

 show stages?’

‘Ah right…….

because of corona…

you’ll have a chance 

to perform, don’t worry.’

‘Not as much as you think.’

‘Why? Oppa! 

Did you receive the

 notice already?’

‘Please don’t scare me!’

‘Reply! Why aren’t 

you replying?????’

‘Not yet.’

‘Phew! 

You should’ve replied sooner!

 You gave me a heart attack!’

‘That’s exactly why I waited.’

‘Not funny!’

‘Why? 

I have to enlist eventually.’

‘I know…but…

I don’t want you to.’

‘Oh rubbish. 

I’ll be out in no time.’

‘It’s just that…

never mind.’

‘Why? 

What’s wrong?’

‘North Korean soldiers shot

 across the border a while ago…

I’m worried about you. 

What if they send you to DMZ?’

‘Then I shall serve

my country with pride.’

‘But it’s so dangerous! 

What if…what if something

 happens to you?’

‘The only danger I’m 

concerned right now is you.’

‘Me?’

‘Without me, no one can

knock some senses into you.’

‘What do you mean?’

‘Nothing…Hyeran ah.’

‘Yes?’

‘I’ve been thinking a 

lot lately, about our future.’

‘Our future?’

‘Yes, our future. 

Your worries, all those worries, 

I’ve gone through them in 

my head as well. 

Countless sleepless nights.

And you know what I

feared the most?’

‘Your parents? 

You fear that if anything

 happens to you, 

they’ll be brokenhearted?’

‘That is true, 

but not on the top of my list.’

‘Then…the members?

 The fans?’

‘No. The thing that I worry

about the most is not

being able to die without regrets.’

‘Then live without regrets now!

You wanted to bungee jump, no? 

I can book a place for you! 

Or, you said you wanted to

 travel to Europe alone, right?

 I can look into that for you as

 well so you can travel there

 as soon as corona is gone.’

‘None of those came

to my mind, Hyeran ah.’

‘Then…then what?’

‘I’d regret not holding 

onto you tightly again.’

‘Oppa…’

‘You know I still have

feelings for you, right? 

You kept telling me that 

we’re not meant to be, 

that my feelings for you 

will fade, that I will meet 

my true fate eventually.’

‘You will, Oppa, 

I know you will.’

‘But it’s you that I still 

wish to protect.

It’s you that I still wish 

to spend the rest of my life with. 

You’ve been telling me no no no,

over and over again,

pushing me away because

you fear you would hurt me…’

‘O…Oppa…’

‘I don’t want to hear

your answer,

I just want to get this 

off of my chest.

I love you. 

I have been since the

day we first met,

since the day you smiled 

as you greeted me…

even when you so heartlessly

rejected me, I still loved you. 

I waited, and waited, 

waiting for you to break down that

wall you have put up between us. 

I don’t know when I’ll be called,

I don’t know when I’ll have to go,

I don’t know if I’ll even return. 

But before I go, I want to let

you know my feelings,

my true feelings. 

You don’t need to answer. 

I’d sleep with a smile just 

knowing that you’ve read 

my confession. 

Good night, my dear.’

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