Kai's quote: The loneliest moment in someone's life, is when they're watching their whole world fall apart and all they can do is stare blankly.– I am hiding what I'm feeling and I'm tired of holding it inside my head, but all I can is let it be the way it is. Helplessness is such a rotten feeling. There's nothing you can do about it.   Kai vaguely tasted so sweet and Sehun chased after it with his tongue. A soft noise of surprise left Kai's mouth at that, and it seemed to spur him into more action. He reached for Sehun, and the younger slipped onto his lap properly, thighs on either side of Kai hips so that they’re closer. Kai pushed himself up a little before settling his hands on Sehun's hips,  Kai's kisses were making Sehun breathless. Every touch of his mouth sending Sehun thoughts spinning, until there was nothing left but the aching need for more and closer. His hands found their way on either side of Kai's neck, lips parting in a pleased sigh when Kai squeezed his hips. He shuddered when Kai hands sneaked beneath his shirt, tracing patterns over the small of his back and sending sparks of electric shooting up his spine. It felt like his senses were in overdrive, making him feel absolutely everything all at once—the pleasant sting of Kai's teeth digging into his lower lip, the feather-light touch of Kai's fingertips against his sensitive skin, the slightly rough drag of Kai's palm down his back, the solid press of Kai's body against his and between his thighs, the warmth of every breath, every stutter, every single kiss pressed against his mouth. Sehun felt dizzy with all of it, completely drunk on Kai. He was losing his sanity the love of his life was kissing him. He could feel their hardening as they continued to subtly rub against each other.  They parted to catch their breaths for a few seconds as Kai rested his forehead against Sehun's, he leaned down a little, their noses brushing together, their bangs mixing and he breathed gently against Sehun's lips. “Kai…”Sehun breathed out, bringing his hands and wrapping them around Kai's neck as he the hair at the back of Kai's head. He felt a kiss being pressed against the corner of his mouth. “Yeah?” Instead of answering, Sehun just took a deep breath and lifted his head back up. They stared at each other for a long moment before Sehun actually leaned down and pressed their lips together firmly without further delay because he had wanted to do that for so damn long. He could feel its affect on Kai whose breath hitched as he tightened his hold on Sehun's waist. The surprised little moan Kai let out sent a tingle of pleasure rushing down Sehun's spine, and—there it was. The heat slowly swimming in his veins, as though Kai's hands were made of embers, leaving the best kind of burn on Sehun's skin that seeped right into his very core, he’s more aware of it now, of how his body was reacting to having Kai this close. Kai on his tongue again and Sehun moaned shifting to sit properly but instead he ended up grinding his crotch against Kai's. Kai let out a groan at the back of his throat and he dug his blunt nails in to Sehun's waist, as he began to grind upward. It felt so good to be with Kai like this, Sehun didn't want to stop, and it seemed Kai didn't have the intention to stop either. Kai kissed back with apparent desire. It was addicting and so good it made Sehun never want to stop, not even when his lungs started to burn for the second time. This time Sehun took the lead as he brushed his thumb over their bottom lips as they kiss, immediately after which Kai parted his lips invitingly, and he pushed his tongue into Kai's mouth, slotting it against the other boy’s eagerly. Sehun's mind was blank it was only filled with Kai, Kai and Kai alone. He shivered and swallowed thickly, his head clouded and his throbbing because … Kai was too much for him to handle at the moment. Unable to restrain himself he pulled Kai even closer flush against his chest and Sehun tangled his fingers into Kai's hair. They didn't hear the knock nor the time the person entered."Oh my God!" Jennie said with an amused giggle." ! sorry. I didn't know you're busy" she added. That seemed to bring Sehun back to his senses as he quickly pulled back, pushing Kai away and lifted his body off the other's lap opted to settle down on the bedside instead. He glanced frantically at Jennie and the girl was having a stupid smile on her face and seemed she couldn't seem to close her teeth. Kai cleared his throat and adjusted his position, he pulled a pillow on to his thighs, obviously to cover his hard on. Kai was hard because of him? Kai was hard for him, and Sehun looked down at his crotch he noticed he was embarrassedly hard as well. He tried to cover it, but Jennie's eyes traveled down along with his eyes. She didn't look disgusted, instead her smile grew wider, turning into a grin and Sehun didn't understand why she seemed happy walking up on them practically making out, Holy , he just made out with Kai – but wait. Kai kissed him first, he intiated it, all Sehun did was kissed back, and he didn't understand or know what to make out of it. It was now that the whole thing was dawning at him. What they just did. He made out with Kai, his brother's boyfriend, his best friend that he'd been trying to get over. He attempted to stand and make his escape even though he has questions on what just happened and why Kai did that. But he was still not ready to face Kai right now.   But before he could go further, Kai was already holding his wrist. They shared a brief look before Kai turned to look at his sister."Jennie can you give us a minute please?" She nodded with so much enthusiasm that Sehun wondered what it was for. "Of course, take your time, I won't mind" she said before exiting the room, giggling on her way out. Kai turned his gaze back to Sehun. He stared at him intently as if trying to read him, Sehun stared back but his eyes kept flickering between Kai's eyes and his lips . He wanted to smother Kai with kisses, he wanted to feel Kai's plump lips against his again, he wanted to bite those same plump lips over and over until they're red and swollen. He shook his head to chase those thoughts away. It was a few seconds later that Kai said. "Why did you kissed back?" He asked eyes still fixated on Sehun's. And there was something like hope in Kai's asked as he waited patiently for Sehun to respond. Sehun didn't understand what Kai was hoping for at the moment. Was Kai hoping he'd say something like ' because I love you' or was he hoping for something opposite? He didn't know, so he decided to go for."You kissed me first" "I know, but you kissed back" "Why did you kissed me then?" "I asked you first, please answer me Sehun it's important" Sehun wondered for a spilt second if he should tell Kai the truth, but he quickly pulled himself together at the reminder of who Kai belonged to "You kissed me and you're a good kisser that's why I kissed back" he shrugged tying his best to act nonchalant."What were you expecting? That I feel something for you was that the reason why I kissed you?" He watched as Kai's expression changed," No Kai, like I said I kissed back because you are good kisser" Sehun could never be with Kai and the best thing to do was to play it off the way he was doing right now, he fortunate to share that kiss, it should be enough. And Kai just told him he loved someone else a few minutes ago before he kissed him. But he still needed to know and understand why Kai kissed him . The little small spark of hope that Sehun saw in Kai's eyes smothered and died "That's it?" Kai was really putting him in a difficult situation. What was it exactly that his friend wanted to hear?, What was it that Kai wanted him to say?. "What do you want me to say Kai?" "The truth!" "The truth? Does it matter?" "It does" "Well I just told you why I kissed back– look Kai don't make a big deal out of it okay. Things like this happens, it's common amongst friends. So tell me why did you kissed me?" Kai was silent for a moment as he observed Sehun's eyes before he said. "You reminded me of your brother, I got carried away. Sorry" Sehun heard the wavering in Kai's voice. It shouldn't hurt but it did, what was he expecting, for Kai to say he was the one he loved? Who was he kidding? Kai didn't love him, Kai would never love him. Sehun swallowed his disappointment and cleared his throat."Okay  I uhm– who is that person that you said you love?" He decided to ask again. Kai shook his head a little as he tightened his grip on Sehun's hand. "No one, I don't love anyone, I lied" "You lied?"  "Yeah, I was looking for a way to postpone the wedding and I knew you'd help me if said something like that" The ?  "No you weren't lying Kai, I've known you for almost 8 years now, I will know when you Iie about something like that" Kai closed his eyes for a brief moment and when he reopened them. There were so many sort of emotions running through them but before Sehun couldn't decipher any of them, they disappeared as soon as they surfaced. "Let's not talk about that please, I am tired Sehun, I will marry Shixun whenever everyone wants me to marry him. I will come to school tomorrow,  I will see you then. Goodbye Sehun" There was a certain finality in Kai's tone, that left no room for argument. Sehun nodded and he slowly tried to withdraw his hand, for a moment Kai tightened his hold as if not wanting to let go, then he nodded to himself before pulling his ha