The End Is A Beginning

Melancholia: The Act of Disappearing
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Mother's pendant safe around your neck. Check.

Bank account closed and you quit your part-time job.

Check.

A goodbye note sent to your beloved cousin.

Check.

 

Everything was in motion for Seokjin that morning. He was on his way to die.


 

It was a quiet morning. A drizzle splashed over the cold concrete, and the leaves dispersed from the branches, burning to crisp orange and crimson hues. The colours were warm, but for Jin, he lost himself in a world of monochrome. He could not explain the dense water that pressed over his thoughts. Dissonance and muffled sound. Endlessness and infinity--kind of like a circle.

      Yeah, that was how he could explain it all. A circle. His life rotated like a circle, without a beginning or an end. His empty emotions never ended. But he desired to end it today. It was the perfect day to disappear, to vanish from existence. All those years of loneliness and pain...It did not matter now. Before he entered his final year of school, he had to demolish the circle of life.

    People might miss him. Maybe they would not. He did not care either way.

Cars zoomed passed, people heading to work. A cold wind whistled among trees and empty alleyways. In the distance, the murmurs of the river beckoned him.

    He could almost understand what ot tried to say, a silent lullaby, a symphony of death.

    Come and join me. You won't have to suffer any longer…

He blinked. Could rivers even talk? Who cared anyways, the long bridge loomed ahead, all metal spires and concrete. The river churned and wailed before, large grey waves crashing and rolling, over and over. Endless.

    Jin gulped as he stared down the bridge. His knuckles gripped the pier, white to blue. From this height, the river resembled a giant basilisk, waiting to devour him. But surely this was the only answer to his misery, right? This was his only chance to end his struggles. It only took one leap of faith. One jump. The pain would be temporary, just a drawling minute until he found heavenly release.

    He sighed as he lifted himself over the ledge, arms wide open, as if he was a bird ready to fly.

    He would jump. He had to jump. It would put a stop to his suffering. But his feet, why would they not move? And his ears, they sought after that sorrowful tune. A violin sobbing in the wind. The melody was louder than the river’s voice. It pierced into his heart and flooded within the depths of his soul.

It spoke to him on an ent

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harleykwynn #1
Chapter 11: I miss reading your updates, author! Hope you are doing well and staying safe!! Pls tell us how you’re doing once in awhile :D
harleykwynn #2
Chapter 11: I love the progression of this story!
anitaklr24
#3
Chapter 11: The flowers and the teddy bear were for each other right? I mean Jin and Jisoo.
Jin is making new friend, but he doesn't realize that.

He is getting jealous of Jisoo and Taehyung friendship. Hope it doesn't cause a problem between them.

I am looking forward to the next chapter!
Take care!
Hugs ^^,
anitaklr24
#4
Chapter 10: Hope Jin can feel that there are people who care for him.
Lisa is a good friend.
I don't know what will happen next after what Seulgi did, but it looks like Jisoo will see that Jin is sincere about being her friend. I don't know if I make sense. jajaja

I am looking forward to the next chapter!
Take care!
Hugs ^^,
tashajayy #5
Anyone knows the writer's wattpad id? I found one, gaksitalGaksital2 but it has been deactivated. I know the writer stated to email for link but I didn't found any way to contact ?
anitaklr24
#6
Chapter 9: It looks like Jisoo is trying to be near Jin, and somehow she told Jin that she is going to be there for him unconsciously.

I want to know more about Jisoo, her inner thoughts.

Have a great day!
Hugs ^^,
anitaklr24
#7
Chapter 8: Hope Jin can find a way to show how sincere he is about being Jisoo’s friend, and Jisoo can forgive him.

Have a great night! Hugs ^^,
anitaklr24
#8
Chapter 7: What a good way to introduce the character one by one.

I laughed when they were talking in the train.

What is the story of the ghosts?
Maybe Jin and Jisoo are feeling the same.

Have a great day!
Hugs ^^,
anitaklr24
#9
Chapter 6: It looks like Jisoo and Jin would be able to be friends if they continue sharing time together.

I think that if Jin told Lisa about his past, she will accept him because he is her friend.

Hope everything is good with you!
Have a nice day!
Hugs ^^,
snowflake16
#10
Chapter 5: So many bullies everywhereeee! I wanna know why bae bullies Jin. I'm sure he's got a reason