Lightless
BEAUTIFUL SHOW IN LONDON
Melina’s Pov
“ Babe I’m going now,Are you sure you want to stay in?” Says Gina while grabbing her bag from the table.
“ I want to stay in unnie, I need to rest “ I say and she hugs me and walks out.
I go straight into shower after she leaves. I need to pull myself together. The hot water hits my body and my muscles start relaxing. What happened today? I heard it right didn’t I?
“ I love you too baby” he whispered into my ear. His lips were on mine. No no it wasn’t a dream. But why? Why did he do that? Wasn’t he the one who left me? Even though I deserved it, he still left me. Was it because he felt sorry for me ?
After shower I wear my black pyjamas, a short and a top. I let my wet hair down so it can naturally dry. I don’t even remember if I ate today. I don’t feel hungry. I go into my room and decide to listen to the radio. As soon as I press play a familiar song starts.
I can't smile I can't find I can't stop
Lightless….
Damn it, they had to play this song at this moment didn’t they? Even though I want to turn the radio off, I can't.
I am lightless indeed. Everything seems dark. I have no one. I am all alone. If I was going to be alone at the end, why did I meet Gikwang and fall in love? I look into the mirror and I can see my tears are falling from my face. I don’t want to see my tears anymore so I turn off the light and sit on the floor at the very end of the room. My legs don’t carry my body anymore.. I cry even more with the song playing. I am crying out loud, I am not afraid of being heard because I am all alone right now. I can cry my heart out.
“La la la la Lightless…..” the song carries on.
“ LORD CANT YOU SEE HOW MUCH I AM HURTING? PLEASE TAKE THIS PAIN OUT OF MY HEART OR TAKE MY SOUL AWAY, , PLEASE!!!”
I scream out loud through my tears and at the same time someone turns the lights on.
Gikwang’s pov
“ I am leaving now, you guys have fun and noona thank you again” I say and walk towards the door to leave after getting changed to go to Gina noona’s house.
“ Gikwangshi wait! Melina might be in shower or sleeping so I wrote my door’s password on this paper. Just go in and get your girl back ok, don’t come back until you get her back” she says and I hug her.
“ Noona you are the best, thank you” I say and the other B2st members tell me the same things and push me out the door.
I now arrive at Gina’s house. Should I ring the bell first. It might be rude to just walk in. I ring the bell…no answer…I ring it again…still no answer. Is she in shower or something? What if something happened? I enter the code and go in. all the lights are off. Where is she?
“Melina???”
No answer…I check the bathroom and its warm inside. If she took a shower already she might be sleeping. As soon as I get close to the room I hear our song playing Lightless and I hear Melina’s voice screaming out loud.
“LORD CANT YOU SEE HOW MUCH I AM HURTING? PLEASE TAKE THIS PAIN OUT OF MY HEART OR TAKE MY SOUL AWAY, PLEASE!!!”
Her words rip my heart into pieces. Why would she want God to take her soul awayIs she hurting that much? I can feel my eyes getting teary. I open the door and the song plays really loud. The room is really dark. What the hell? I turn the lights on and face her small body sitting at the corner crying. Seeing her tears make my heart ache. As soon as she sees me she jumps up to run towards me. She wraps her arms around me tightly.
“ Gikwang, even if you don’t want me, even if you don’t love me, please let me stay like this for a minute, please don’t leave. I promise you I will disappear from your sight so you don’t have to feel sorry for me, I will go far away, but for now please let me stay like this.” She says through her tears sending vibes of pain through my heart. I have seen her tears so many times, I can’t take it anymore. I push her to see her face. Her face seems pale and tired.
“Take me with you, I will follow you anywhere, I love you Melina, do you hear me? I love you and I will never let you disappear from my sight.” I say to her and kiss her on the lips as if it’s our first kiss.
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I wanted to name this chapter Lightless because I love the song. What about you guys?
I am going to Germany this saturday for a dance competition with my dance team so we are practising for hours every day, when I come back on Monday, I promise there will be a new chapter :))
wish me luck :)
I love this song Lightless, check it out!
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