Not Letting You Go

Warmth Lies Within

Even though I am smiling casually right now, I can't help but to be nervous inside. She doesn't look troubled by seeing me. It's as if she used to see me around her all days.

Mina gave me a small smile, "sorry to distribute your reading time, but I couldn't help but to follow my curiosity to confirm if it was you or not."

She continued saying, "it seems that you already have an idea about who I am. But also, it seems that you became aware of me recently as I remember you not recognizing me at the funeral."

As soon as she finished the sentence, I was able to catch her expression getting sad a bit with mentioning my parents funeral.

Then her face soften, "I am sorry for your lose. Even though we have never meet before, but I was more than thankful to your parents for taking care of me. Now that they are gone, I..." I cut her before she continue her words.

"Ms. Mina, I am sorry to cut you in the middle of your talking, but I don't think this is the right time and place to talk about such important discussion like this. I know you are working right now and I don't wish for you to be in trouble talking to me in the middle of your shift." I gave her a small smile and stood up. 

"I will be taking my leave now so that you can go back to your work. When you finish, I will be waiting for you at our house. Take care Ms. Mina". I made sure to say 'our house' on purpose. 

While I was heading out, I remembered something. I turned around and looked at her. "By the way, thanks for the omelet that you made me in the morning. I enjoyed it." I smiled again warmly in her face and then left the store heading to my car. 

With all what I have said, I can't help but wonder what was she going to say if I didn't cut her. At the moment, I was afraid she was cutting all ties that she have built with my parents as they are gone now. And on top of that, I am afraid that she might think I am going to kick her out somehow from the house. I don't want her to end something that we didn't begin yet. Something my parents have started, I will make sure to continue it even after their death.

All what I want is to buy some time to keep her around as much as possible before she could ran out without telling me. That's why I said 'our house' to her, so that she know I have no issue with her staying at the house. I want her to go back and to give me a chance to understand what's her story is.

While I was walking towards my car, I took glance at the small book in my hand. Then I remembered the last sentence in the poem.

'Rejection within my heart that I already signed' 

My heart is rejecting the possibility of her leaving without talking to me or giving herself a chance to see what outcomes might be thrown at her with me around. I don't want it to happen. Taking care of someone is something I haven't done ever in my life. Maybe that's why my heart is so excited and can't seem to calm. 

I entered my car and started the engine. Then reality hit me hard. 'Shoot, I forgot that I have food in the trunk and leaving it any longer is not a good idea.' I thought to myself and drove as fast as I can toward the house. I mean all that meat that I bought with all my messy thought of what to buy would be gone in the air because of my stupid brain. 

Brain: "At least you where able to meet Ms. Mina before she actually leave without saying a word to you."

Oh so ture Mr. Brain, sorry I won't call you stupid again.  

I love to talk to myself sometimes. Even though it might seems a bit weird. But what to do, me and my 'brain', been together outside the country for 2 years and it's hard for me to socialize there. So I built a habit where I talk to my brain sometimes just to hear my thoughts out loud. It actually helps me a lot in solving a lot of issues I encountered before. Specially in school T.T .

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After reaching the house, I ran directly to put the food in the fridge. It was really tiresome. 

Now that everything is set on its place, I have a bigger issue now. WHAT AM I SUPPOSE TO COOK?!!!

It's not like I used to cook when I was on Korea before. I literally start cooking when I went to study in the United States. She might not like the food I am going to do. 

I decided to take out a Curb fish and cook it. I made sure that the man cut it open for me so that when I want to cook it in the oven it would save me some time. 

I washed the fish very well with salt so that the smell of it get reduce. The kitchen was a little wide enough for me to feel comfortable walking around. After washing it, I placed some salt and pepper on the open side of it as well as lemon to give it some flavor. And then I placed it in the oven. 

Also, I wanted to cook some rice with it. So I took one cup of rice and made sure to rinse it well until the rice was visible through the water. I throw the water and placed the rice in a pan. I opened the fire and placed the pan on it. I took the cup I used to get rice and filled it with water and threw it on top of the rice. I also put some salt and olive oil while stirring it. Then I closed the pan waiting for it to boil. Actually making rice is the easiest thing I have ever learned to cook. It doesn't take more than 15 min to be done. Sometimes I eat rice only with some lemons cause I am too lazy and tired to cook anything. 

Anyhow, fish will take some time to finish. Maybe like an hour or so. I opened the pan and saw the rice boiling and the water disappearing mostly. So I easy the fire on it and left it there to continue cooking for 5 more min. 

But I don't really know when she will finish work though. I will assume that she works the morning shift hopefully and not more than that.

While everything cooking, I thought of making some fruits smoothie with the fruits that I bought. So I took the blender and took some strawberries, kiwis along with some pineapple that I cutted into pieces. Then threw everything in the blender with water and sugar. Just like that, I placed on the fridge after finishing it so that it becomes cold and refreshing to taste after we eat our food. 

I made some salad and checked on the fish to make sure it got cooked. As I was taking it out, I heard a door getting closed and accidentally my hand slip and touched the baking sheet and couldn't help but to react with a yell because of the pain. It was out of frustration as I didn't expect her to come this early even though it's actually perfect because food just finished. 

I heard a hard steps approaching me. She entered the kitchen with frustration, "What happened? Are you okay?" She approached me with eyes fulled of worries, my hand was burning like hell.

She saw my hand and ran out of the kitchen fast. Then she came back with first aid kit, dragged me outside to the living room and made me sit down facing her. My hand now on hers, and with some air she's blowing with she asked me. "Does it hurt a lot?", I simply nodded, it's really painful. 

Then she took out the medicine and start placing it carefully on my hand. Thank god the burn wasn't on my palm. She covered the spot and made sure it's not loose. After she finished, she looked at me, "How could you be so careless like that? That was dangerous. Be careful next time." 

After what she said, I was lost there with my emotions that's all over the place at the moment. I can see that she just realized what she did. Again, I am surprised how her reaction came natural toward me.

It's somehow awkward though. I am thankful and frustrated in the same time. You can't blame us.

But that I am thinking right now, how am I going to take care of her when she's the one taking care of me. 

To Be Continued...

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jeybeee
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Chapter 30: TZUYU! U SNEAKY GIIIIRL WAAAAH dinner date, huh??
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jeybeee
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Chapter 29: Ow, what happens to nabongs now?
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Maybe I'm missing this story so I commented...
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Maybe I'm missing this story so I commented...
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Chapter 28: Oof. High school lovers❤️ ehe
Luxzie
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Chapter 27: Yay Jitzu finally makes an appearance :o
jeybeee
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Chapter 27: You could've gave us a more JiTzu moment if Tzuyu would've been upfront but heh, I love the chase
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Chapter 27: JiTzu was... weird. But I'm interested what is going to happen next. Glad that you aren't dead!
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When's the JiTzu? Asgsgahah