"Does it make you feel better?" Yoongi asked. "Well, try it. You'll see."
 Anything, he would've done anything to not feel the pain, feel good, life was a burden, school was hell. All he had was Jungkook.

Jungkook was his paradise, his best drug. He was addicted to him.

"If this is another way of feeling good, then, I've got nothing to lose," he thought as he started his troubled life.