2017 

JENNIE

My members were sleeping soundly in the car while I was listening to the radio, half-awake

We’ve barely gotten any sleep the past week. Our schedule has been jam-packed, but I’m not complaining. This is what we’ve worked hard for for so long, after all.

A few days ago, we were told to participate in a local music festival outside the city. We have to take a train to get there and the station is where we’re headed right now.

It was only supposed to be a 30-minute drive, but 35 minutes have passed and we were still on the road.

Maybe I should close my eyes for a bit...

So I did.

And right when I was about to give in to deep sleep, a song came on.

And that shot my heavy eyelids straight up.

iKON’s APOLOGY

Manager oppa, who was driving, instinctively turned the volume up.

No sleep for me then, I thought to myself.

I really hated this song.

The lyrics just hit home and it got to me every time.

It triggers Hanbin’s words to play in a loop inside my head every damn time

"Don’t be a fool and believe me. When I said I’d protect you forever, it was a lie... Please forget me."

Forget him? What kind of sick joke was that?

It’s been 4 years now - 4 years of struggl