Chapter 1: When my friend told me about it I thought she was joking, I didn't believe her, I didn't want to believer her. But then I saw the news... Y bh I hated him for a second for doing this to us, cuz it felt like a betrayal, but I realized that I hate us even more, because WE did this to him, we weren't able to protect him, to make him feel the love we had for him... I'm sorry that his family will never be able to see him ever again because of a ing depression... I don't even know him as a person, but I'm so hurt, I can't even imagine how his friends and family must feel... I always hated suicide, because I don't know how to feel about it, I think it's kinda coward, but at the same time, you must be very brave and suffer a lot to really do it... You never realize how important some people are for you until you lose them... I loved you Kim JongHyun, I still love you, and I'll love you forever... I just wished you knew it... @KonekoNoHeart I was already crying but your story made me suffocate... If only it was only a story, a fiction and he was still alive, healthy, in Korea with the people he loved enjoying his life....