To. Jonghyun
Hello Kim Jonghyun. This is me one of your fans. I have something to tell you. I should have done this before but I didn’t and I regret it now. I just want to say THANK YOU for everything and I’m SORRY for everything too. Honestly when I woke up this morning. I thought that everything was a dream but when I see my phone changed to your pic, I know that it is real. It hurt me to see you go. It’s hurt me even more that you though that you were worthless went you decided to end everything. You Kim Jonghyun deserved more. I know that I'm only a nobody to you to say all this but….. Kim Jonghyun!!! It was my dream to meet you once in my life but that will never happen now. It’s okay, I’m fine with that. I had always think that only hearing your voice and seeing your face through my computer, television, and handphone screen is enough. Hearing those angelic voice ringing through my ears had always amaze me and will always does. Your laugh and dorky personality when you and the other member play together and just talk about things that doesn’t make sense somehow make me happy. It’s not a big deal for some people but it is for me. Some people that doesn’t know you maybe wouldn’t understand why we fans ADORE you so much and as a fan, I feel the need to treat you like a king. I feel the need to treat everyone like they are the most precious thing ever. You were a light that bring your fans that was in the dark into the brightness of the world. Kim Jonghyun…. You have saved us from the cruelty and sadness. I once feel how empty I am, inside me. It was scary. Now I know why most people is scared to feel loneliness. It is scary Jonghyun. It is scarier than anything that I had ever feel. One of my friend is a person who doesn’t really like social activities and she had gone through so many things. People is just cruel in many unbelievably way. I just don’t understand why do they have the need to do such thing. I’m sorry Jonghyun, got off topic for a minute there. By the way, if…just if you are still somewhere out there watching everyone before you go, I want tell you that you are our Angel. You had never disappointed us. You gave your energy to make us happy and to fulfill our expectation, I can tell you that it is not wasted. Jonghyun… you make me proud… very..very,,very proud of you. You teach me a lot and even when you are gone, you still teach me something. It’s an honour for me to have memory of you. You will always be in our heart. You did well through out everything that happened. Thank you and I’m sorry that I can’t help you when you help me through everything. I LOVE YOU Kim Jonghyun Forever.
By. Your fan, Leeya